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I grew up on the internet and let me tell you, being in the periphery of a show or even loving a show but not being part of the fandom is wild bc you can be scrolling through Pinterest and see some bullshit like “the writers did Gary the Snail so dirty but I still crackship him and the lifeguard lobster … don’t @ me. They wild for this” and the replies will be like “fuck you, I’m a snobster anti” and someone else will be like “where is his name…? The lobsters name is Larry. Did you even watch the show” and someone else will be like “Gary the snail is antivax”

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Add a little... spice 

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Thanks to @thespooniewrites I have my priorities in order about finishing what’s in front of me before starting something else. So while I know what will come after Endless Stars (it’s gonna be The Selection + Vampires) I also know that I won’t be writing it for some time, and that it won’t be ready for people to read for a long time. 

Edit: I’m going through my drafts tonight, mostly just for kicks but also because Nostalgia, and I came across this post, stuck in my drafts from what I can only assume was about three or four years ago. Crazy to think I’ve been on Tumblr for that long. Really, I’ve had a blog in some shape or form on here for probably.... like ten years. Since my sophomore year of high school. Freaky. Anyway-- 

Today I announced on Instagram I was beginning the first draft of the third book in the ORCHID’S BLOOD trilogy (which is the book described in the above as The Selection + Vampires). The first novel, AN ORCHID DARKLY BLOOMING, which I completed in 2019, has over 160,000 reads on Wattpad right now. Its sequel, posted in October of 2020, has almost 40,000 reads. I finished them. I took my time. I wasn’t ready for people to read it right away, and you know what...? That’s okay. 

I’m happy that @thespooniewrites and I are still friends. I’m happy that I’m still writing. I’m happy that I have this weird little time capsule moment to remind me of how much I’ve grown. Thanks, Tumblr. 

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Hey I’m doing great!! I miss y’all but my dreams are coming true and I hope yours do too. The world is crazy but I am happy to now call myself the professional penpal. I am doing what I love 😭💕

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AN ORCHID AMONG THE THORNS IS UPLOADED IN ITS ENTIRETY

THE SEQUEL TO AN ORCHID DARKLY BLOOMING

IS LIVE 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

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TWO DAYS until my special sequel preview sneak-peek!! 😍 if you enjoyed AN ORCHID DARKLY BLOOMING, the sequel is coming on Halloween... but the first chapter is arriving in only TWO DAYS!! 😱 There is still time to read Book 1 before this release... link in my bio to my Wattpad profile! . . . . . . #wattpadwriter #wattpad #wattpadauthor #amwriting #paranormal #paranormalromancebooks https://www.instagram.com/p/CFRy4zfHT3i/?igshid=7ye0do9g0dwj

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therapist: so what do we do when we feel sad? 

me: upload my romance novel to Wattpad to share the comfort and laughter it brought me, while simultaneously healing me and teaching me lessons about consent & healthy partnership :) 

therapist: :)

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in which i process my thoughts on AODB’s new success

I’m well aware that I’m never on this website anymore, and I’m also pretty sure that none of you want to hear about my anxiety, but I need to shout into a void somewhere so here we go!! 

Since AN ORCHID DARKLY BLOOMING was featured on Wattpad’s Editor’s Choice list a week ago, it has skyrocketed from about 1,000 reads to 8,000. Every time I’ve logged into Wattpad since the feature I am inundated with likes, reading list notifs, and comments. Which is so awesome, and totally blows my mind. I can’t believe people are really reading and enjoying my work. 

No, really. I literally can’t believe it. I keep waiting for someone to comment something nasty, or downright cruel. I seesaw between “8k isn’t really even that many people, calm tf down” and “Wtf hahahah I do not deserve this many readers, my story isn’t even that good” Which is... not fun??

In terms of plot, AODB is a story of one young woman’s self-actualization and finding love in a steampunk paranormal setting. In terms of world-building, the metaphors are pretty clear: the vampires are in power, physically and economically draining the rest of the population, and they need to be overthrown. (I mean, come on, the classes are literally divided into three sectors in the city...?) In terms of character development, Esther learns how to channel her rage in order to accept love. 

Wait, what? You may be thinking. That’s dark af. Why would someone need to feel rage in a journey to love...? 

Ah. Haha. Because it is not just Esther’s story. It’s mine! Surprise! Overcoming trauma through writing it in a metaphor! Doing it over and over again until I conquer my past! 

I have been dealing with anger and rage in unhealthy ways my entire life. Through codependence, an eating disorder that I am still struggling with, an unhealthy and honestly very weird relationship with silence, people pleasing as a way of life, a phobia of driving, etc., etc., etc. It all comes back to the root of anger. This is why I get so pissed off when people say shit like “Anger is sad’s bodyguard (:” or “Anger is a secondary emotion, what are you REALLY feeling??” 

I. Am. Angry. 

I am angry about SOOOOooooOSSSOOOO much shit in the world right now; both in the world as a whole and the world as in my world. I am angry and in that I understand Esther’s desperation, her hatred, her manipulation. I understand where she’s coming from. I feel for her. 

I’m not saying you have to understand the metaphorical implications of AODB to enjoy it as a book. I just wanted young women to see that fury, darkness, and desperate sadness does not make them lesser than -- and that a good partner will fight alongside them, instead of against them. That a good partner will honor their rage for what it is. That a good partner will never make them feel afraid. That a good partner would never lie, or manipulate, or hurt them. 

I’m rambling now, so let me circle back around. What I’m basically trying to say is, this is all I’ve wanted for a long time -- a lot longer than the two years I’ve been on Wattpad. Now that it’s actually happening, it feels surreal and undeserved, even though I know I exhausted myself over this book for a year and a half. 

Bottom line? I know it’s good. I am proud of it. I want to shout it from the rooftops that I did this, I wrote this amazing thing and I didn’t compromise for anyone and now it’s doing Things out in the world!! ... but my fear that I will be seen as ‘too much’ is excruciating. I feel as though I simultaneously need to do so much more (write faster, make better moodboards, answer messages, etc) and do less (shut up about the viewership, stop forcing giveaways on people, stop posting about its success) 

So... I’ll take a page (har, har) from Esther’s book and speak honestly. 

Yeah. I wrote a book! It’s doing pretty well. I am happy about it and I deserve to be happy about it. It is the genre I have always dreamed of writing, and I didn’t sacrifice my vision. I wrote the book I needed to write. If I keep saying it, I will believe it, I will manifest the feeling of deservedness. I should be proud! Yes, I wrote a book... 

Want to read it? 👀

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Help! I tried to make a spooky #podcast pilot, but I made the monster's voice too sexy! :( womp womp tbh it's probably just my brand at this point :( there was no other way :(

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HUNTING IN THE NEON CITY GIVEAWAY!! Enter by commenting!! #giveaway #witchcraft #witchesofinstagram #bookstagram #wattpad #wattpadwriter #wattpadwriters #bookish #bookishgiveaway #amwriting https://www.instagram.com/p/CAYQ6KvAuyC/?igshid=hfes4w6xynp7

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Hi I know I’m never on here anymore but I thought you guys would get a kick out of this lmao

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The entirety of the manuscript is now uploaded!! 

Almost forgot to post this 🧛‍♂️ Happy belated Halloween, and happy reading!! 

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oh my god i accidentally uploaded my latest romance novel for pre-order… please don't read it!! unless.. u want to look? lol jus kidding don't read it.. if u want.. haha nah don't read it… unless?

Read Aurora & Sky here. (18+ only please!!)

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Something a little different for today... I obviously love stationery, and I love art and design, but I struggle with the patience and confidence needed to design stationery from scratch. I got the idea for this Fresh Flower Truck stationery from my love of food trucks, and my love for the outdoors. This will hopefully be the first of many original designs. #stationery #original #art #myart #mydesign #digitaldesign #originalart #penpalswanted #penpals #stationeryaddict https://www.instagram.com/p/B84vk89gsbI/?igshid=jbi5rk4sne61

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Disney style portrait of my character Esther from “An Orchid Darkly Blooming” on Wattpad. You can read the story by clicking through my bio! #oc #ocs #original #originalcharacter #disneystyle #digitalart #digitalillustration https://www.instagram.com/p/B8zadYunF8a/?igshid=xdi3ttgvfl59