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In Qunandar, Krem’d be an Aqun-Athlok. That’s what we call someone born one gender but living like another.

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I saw you’re new pfp and my brain broke trying to remember who you were 😅

LOL I'M SORRY

I keep thinking maybe I should change my username to match my twt or maybe match the pfps since a lot of yall are gonna be coming from over there 💀💀

let it be known I'm Stephen, your resident piss guy

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Hey tumblr how do we feel about Harringrove and piss

just out of curiosity

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Billy Billy Billy or Billy Billy Billy? (I'm sorry)

shh don't be sorry take him ❤️

the correct answer is both I will not be taking criticism

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billy, who protected his mama whenever his daddy hit her and always threw himself in front of her. billy, who did his best to make his mama smile and laugh whenever she was sad or hurt. the boy who cried nonstop for his mama after she left, begging for her to take him with her because daddy kept hitting him and pushing him and yelling at him even though he doesn't know what he did wrong. billy, who gave up after one day too long without his mother's phone calls.

billy, who hated his new step-mom and step-sister when neil introduced them. who hated susan when she always looked away while neil beat on him right in front of her. who hated himself for wanting her to protect him or just look at him after neil was done with him and tell him that it's going to be okay. billy, who hated max for being the child neil always wanted, constantly spoiled, smiled at, never laid a hand on. he wanted his dad to love him. not her. not susan. him. billy, who took the blame for all of max's wrongdoings and went to bed with bruises and frustrated tears in his eyes.

billy, who saw the way max's friends looked at him, how steve harrington looked at him, like he was a monster. a fuck up. a boy, who submitted when his sister forced him to with a bat between his legs, smiling because yes, this is familiar. a brother, who left his sister alone after that night and did whatever she asked him to without a fight because she had the power over him. she had neil.

billy, who was violated over and over again by some shadow that touched every bone in his body and took away his right to be. who nobody bothered to save after finding out what happened to him because billy didn't matter. billy had always been a monster; nothing changed. no one ever tried to save him. not his mother, not his elementary school teachers. not the police. not the neighbours. not his stupid sister and her stupid friends.

billy, who protected and protected and protected, but was never protected in turn. billy, who sacrificed himself for a little girl who brushed her thumb against his cheek and oh, when was the last time someone touched him like this. billy, who died protecting his stupid sister and her stupid friends.

billy, an eighteen year old little boy, who was buried in a town he hated, surrounded by people who hated him, with a name he hated engraved on his tombstone. whose grave nobody ever visited. whose cruel father roamed free. billy, whose abuser won. billy, who was used for evil even after death. billy, who only wanted to be seen.

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the only way art gets notes is if its funny, a reference or you have such a huge following that by basic math you'll have to get notes. it's not better for artists on other platforms, with art theft and hate for anything, along with it being harder to get visibility in most places especially at the start. compared to other sites tumblr is good for artists, but it can still be better. and at this point it's not the site, it's the people.

i dont know what happened but please reblog art. ive said it before and i certainly will have to say it again. even if its in a queue or on a sideblog, reblog it. liking doesnt do anything, reblog it. if you want an artist to keep posting art, reblog it. they're not entitled to your reblog but you aren't entitled to their art, and if you want to keep them going and support them, reblog it.

it hurts seeing a huge like to reblog ratio. it hurts seeing something you spent hours on get no visibility but a quick meme or funny post gets spread like wildfire. its like bakers spending days on a cake and people eat 20-minute amongus cookies instead because it's funny.

it rewards minimal effort. it makes effort feel like a waste of time. it makes their art feel like a waste of time. it's a terrible snowball that ive seen artists i loved fall into. one that i'm falling into.

the site is practically built for artists and it's discouraging artists. seeing an artist discouraged hurts. being a discouraged artist hurts.

support who and what you can, and actual support. if you want to go above and beyond leave something in the tags, or in the comments.

i want to see art.

and this post will get more reblogs than most art, im sure.

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Some doodles from last night <3

btw I've got a twitter - I remember to post my art way better on there lol:

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love them far too much

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He's so soft :(

(as per usual, quality's loads better if you click on it)

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I think this is the most self indulgent crossover I've ever drawn,,

(click on it, stg the qualities better if you do)

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Oh so ur a writer?? Prove it. Drop the last sentence of ur wip in the tags

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Anyways time for more Harringrove rambling, so consider;

Billy and Steve move into an apartment together in Hawkins after some intense discussion surrounding whether they want to stay or move to Cali. (Steve promises they'll make the move after 'his kids' grow up a little.)

Billy changes a lot over the course of even just a few months, getting out of Neil's place works wonders. Of course he doesn't become a whole new person, Steve never expects him to become "soft" or "gentle", but he certainly seems more comfortable. Smiles more.

Steve could never prove it, and he could never find a way to convince anyone else what he says is true, but some mornings end up pretty close to soft. Billy always wakes up early to go on a run, and occasionally he'll come back to their shared bed after a shower. He'll hold Steve (who couldn't ever wake up that early to save his life) close and press gentle kisses to his neck. He'll breathe soft words of affirmation into Steve's ears, run his fingers oh so softly over his chest and stomach.

Sometimes he doesn't come back to bed, entertaining himself with a quiet tv or some magazine, and when Steve wakes up to make himself his first coffee of the morning he'll come into the kitchen to hug him from behind. He always seems to hold right around Steve's middle, planting his feet so Steve can't dare to move until he turns his head to give Billy a soft peck on the lips.

It's always these small things in the mornings, at such an ungodly hour that when it first began Steve wondered if he was still sleeping. It doesn't always happen this way, most mornings aren't like this. Some days he'll be lucky not to be woken by Mettalica or Motley Crue when Billy's decided it's "late enough to get your ass outta bed".

It's not every morning Billy professes his love in short whispers, but when it does happen Steve can't help but feel his heart squeeze into a little ball of warmth. Cause this couldn't have ever happened if it weren't for how much Billy's grown, how comfortable he's gotten with himself now that Neil's fully out of the picture, and how much work he put into making himself better. Steve makes sure to tell him how proud he is whenever the time allows.

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Getting ready to start a huge fic and I desperately want this to be one I actually finish, but I've - never planned out a whole fic before writing it? (Definitely suffered for it)

So fic writers; how do you go about planning your fics? Do you plan out chapter by chapter, just a loose plotline? Or do you figure out the beginning/end and go from there?

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It's so funny, because I didn't realize this until I started posting fic regularly myself, but there is genuinely no way for a fic author to tell that you even read their work, let alone liked it, if you just click off when you're finished.

It feels like they should know—of course you read the fic! You just had fifteen emotions in a row about it! But they don't know, because you haven't told them. All they know is that the 'hits' counter went up by one more, which means someone clicked on it, and then probably didn't read more than a sentence before clicking off.

And alright, maybe it feels like it doesn't matter, because they're not ever going to know that you read it in the first place, so why should you even leave a kudos/like, let alone comment?

Because—and I say this as both a fic writer and reader—it means they know someone actually read it. Every time they get proof that someone actually read the whole thing from start to finish, it gives them just a little more evidence that it was actually worth it to put the fic out into the world, and that's a little more chance that they're going to keep writing and posting.

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Pinterest redraws give me life <3