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While a panicked Emily ran to Gemma for help, Jax had made his way straight to Noah's dorm. Not even knocking Jax used his foot to open the locked door. The loud crash of it hitting the desk made Noah and a skinny brunette jump from the bed. "Out now." Jax ordered the woman through gritted teeth. She skittered from the room, head down immediately. Noah didn't get much of a chance to protest before Jax slammed him into the shelves behind him. "You piece of shit." Noah shoved Jax away, fist coming up to smack the VP in the jaw. "She told you what I said then?" Noah grinned but it wasn't there for long. Jax gave as good as he got. Swinging his own punch at the prospect, Jax smirked at the satisfying crunch of Noah's nose. It wasn't long before the noise of the fight attracted the attention of the rest of the sleeping clubhouse. Chibs and Tig came barrelling into the room just in time to see the blur that was a fighting Noah and Jax crash into the large oak chest of draws. After alot of shouting and pulling they managed to split the pair up. "What the fuck is going on?" Chibs shouted, his arm still firmly against Jax's heaving chest, fist full of his black hoodie in a tight grip. Jax's eyes never left Noah as he spoke through gritted teeth. "Just making clear this Assholes visits to Em stop now." Tigs head snapped to Noah. "The fuck you going near her for?" Noah shrugged at Tig. "Its mine and Em's business." Jax struggled against Chibs at that comment. "You don't have no more fucking business with her! You know where she ended up tonight because of your fucking lie? Dancing on the hairy dog bar top drunk out of her fucking mind!" Chibs and Tig both rounded on Jax. "Is she okay? Where is she now?" Both fired questions at him. "She's okay. I made sure. Unlike this idiot." Jax was pissed. But now so was Tig and Chibs. "You clearly didn't listen when Jax told you. So now I'm telling you..." Tig shoved Noah hard against the wall, hand pushing his head into the cold brick. "Stay the fuck away from her. Because if you don't, you'll lose more than your patch." Tigs warning was clear. Jax hoped Noah would listen because he never wanted to see Emily like he did tonight.

His phone ringing cut through the tension in the room. Taking his phone from his pocket Jax swiped at the blood he could feel on his lip, and answered the unknown number. "Yeah?" Jax's head shot up when he heard his moms voice on the other end. "Mom? Why the hell you calling me from a pre pay? Something wrong?" Gemmas attitude hit Jax's ears instantly. "Considering I have Little Miss Angry currently asleep on my sofa worried about you and your temper, yes something is wrong." Jax's eyes widened in Suprise. "The fuck is she doing there? How did she get there? I left her with Juice!" The questions flew from his mouth not giving his mom time to answer. "she was worried about you doing something stupid! Drunk fucking drove over here. Just get your ass to mine without killing the moron prospect" Without another word she hung up. Jax pocketed his phone and with one last glare towards a smirking Noah, he made his way out of the clubhouse.

Arriving at his moms just as the sky was starting to glow a beautiful orange colour, Jax took off his helmet and rubbed his eyes. Anger and adrenaline gone from his blood stream, the desire to sleep was starting to set in. The sound of the door swinging open made him turn and look at his mother who stood in the doorway hands on her hips. The blood he could taste on his lips and the soreness he could feel on his face, no doubt gave away that he'd been in a fight. Making his way inside, his heart jumped at the sight of Emily curled up on the sofa with a throw blanket thrown over her legs. Her cheeks were a light pink from the alcohol running through her veins, her purple and black curls sprawled out everywhere. "What's going on Jackson?" Gemma spoke softly. Jax turned to face his mom, reluctance to talk clearly on his face. "Nothings going on." Gemma scoffed "That's bullshit." Jax frowned at her as he moved to lean against the counter. "I like her okay. She's different. I've liked her since she stormed on to TM and handed Noah's ass to him. Noah's hurt her. Badly. My reputation isn't exactly the best mom. You know what I was like when Tara left. You think shes oblivious to all the women ive been with the last few years? When I was on that run to Nevada all I could think about was her and getting home. Seeing her holding Abel, waiting for me at the lot...I don't know." Gemma eyed her son with that knowing look he always hated. "It gave you a glimpse of what you could have. Look son, she cares about you. That's clear to see. Noah's a prospect. Your a VP baby. He isn't even in your eyeline. This is your legacy. You want her, show her shes not just easy pussy. Treat her right and she'll make a great old lady. Everything she did for Noah, that he didn't appreciate, proves how much she takes care of her man. I like her. I think she'll be good for you." Jax smiled at his mom as she kissed his forehead and made her way out of the kitchen. At the sound of her bedroom door shutting, Emily stirred.

A/N: please please leave a comment to let me know if you like where im going with this! I've got atleast 4 more chapters to post but I'm not 100% sure on the direction I'm taking it. 😣

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A/N : sorry guys, because of how long these chapters are and issues with posting I'm having to upload them in multiple parts. Still convinced Tumblr hates me✌

Jax brushed the hair from her face as he waited for her to tell him what happened. "It doesn't matter." Emily muttered as she stepped away from Jax. The cold air and Cara's screaming had sobered her up and she just wanted her bed. It was like reality smacking her happy drunk self in the face. Jax wasn't having it however.He grabbed her arm and pulled her back towards him. " If it's upsetting you it matters. It matters to me. You matter." Jax never once looked away from her. Emily's breath caught in her throat as she looked at him. Properly looked at him. Here he stood, the Prince of charming, in a bar parking lot at 3am attention fully on her. She didn't call him and he still came. She was nothing, but he made her feel like she was something special. Emily did what she always seemed to around him.She gave in. "He came over while I was cooking dinner. Told me he wanted to give it another go, he was sorry and he loved me." Letting out a sigh, Emily really didn't want to have this convosation. "He got pissed when i told him no. Ive made clear that id never give him another chance. He questioned me about how close I was to you. Said you had me fooled good. You were getting close to me to upset him. Said you..." Emily was reluctant and Jax could see it. Nodding his head, Jax urged her to tell him what was said. Emily groaned in frustration. This was the last thing she wanted. "Fuck. He said the 3 days you were in Nevada you slept your way through a line of women while I sat at home waiting for you and looking after your kid like a glorified babysitter. Ive been a fucking idiot, apparently." She saw it instantly. The flicker of rage in his eyes as her words settled in his ears. Stepping back Jax clenched his jaw and fists. Fucking Noah! Turning to face juice, no words had to be spoken, both men knew Noah was in for shit now. "Jax! It's fine! It doesn't matter!" Emily tried to reason with him. She didn't want to cause any trouble, but it's all she seemed to be able to do at the moment. Jax shook his head at her, completely ignoring her words. It did fucking matter. He'd had enough of Noah. This was the last straw. No words left his mouth as he looked at her. The thought of her upset and crying because of the lies she'd been told about him made his stomach twist painfully. Without thinking twice, His hand reached up and curved around her throat, the other twisting in her long hair. A gasp left her lips but it was quickly silenced by his lips meeting hers. Emily melted into the kiss completely, her hands holding him tight like he would disappear into the night if she let go. Jax could still taste the whiskey on her lips as he pulled away. "Juice is gonna make sure you both get home safe. I'll see you later." With one last kiss to her lips, Jax was gone, taking the breath in her lungs with him.

Emily went home despite Juices protests. He wanted to take her back to the clubhouse with him and Cara, but Emily wasn't having it. Zeus was with Lee at the kennels, and she wanted to be alone in her own home. She was now pretty much sober and it felt awful. Changing out of the tight black dress and heels she threw her pincurled hair up onto a high messy pony and changed into nothing but an oversized PVRIS band tee. It was now 4am and sleep was the last thing on her mind. She was worried. Jax was pissed so God help Noah when he caught up with him. Fuck, she felt awful. She does nothing but cause trouble. Everyone is going to think she's nothing but a shit stirrer. Especially Gemma. She already didn't like her, this just added fuel to the fire.

Gemma! Maybe Gemma could put a stop to Jax doing anything stupid. The last thing she wanted was Jax catching charges because of Noah and her shit. Throwing on a pair of gym shorts, Emily grabbed her keys and headed towards her car. She knew where Gemma lived. Charming was such a small town, and Samcro was at the top of the food chain. Everyone living here knew which house not to fuck with. Not even the teenagers pranked the house on Halloween. That's how shit scared the club had people in this town. Knowing she was still over the legal limit and couldn't risk getting pulled, Emily drove the 15 minute drive to the queens house, extremely careful. Pulling into the driveway she almost cried in relief that the kitchen light was on. Gently knocking on the door, twisting her keys in her hands nervously Emily second guessed coming over at this time. Before she could turn and run back to her car she was greeted by a shocked Gemma in a black silk robe, freshly washed hair and joint hanging from her long manicured fingers. "I'm sorry to come by unannounced-" Gemma cut her off by nudging her head inside and opening the door wider. Emily followed the wordless cue and made her way into Gemmas kitchen. It was lovely. Marble countertops, a conservatory off to the side and a long table to fit everyone for dinners  It was a real family vibe. Wait she wasn't here to admire her fucking kitchen at 4am. Gemma had barely shut the door before Emily word vomited. "Im sorry for coming by late. Im worried about Jax. He's pissed. Like pissed pissed. Noah is a fucking idiot. But he found out what he said and that it upset me.I tried to tell him it was fine but he wouldn't listen. I don't give a fuck about Noah but I'm not going to let Jax catch charges for that idiot. You need to get him to calm down please Gemma. Your his mom, he'll listen to you" Emily was red faced and out of breath from her rambling when Gemma cut her off. "Breathe baby. Sit." Pointing to the table, Gemma lead her to sit across from her. "Now slowly, fill me in." And so she did. Emily told her everything. How she felt, her worries,Noah's warning, right up until Jax stormed from the bar parking lot that morning.

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Spending the night with Juice. Don't wait up! Love you lots xx Emily sighed as she read Cara's text. She didn't expect anything less. She was obsessed with him. She did leave abruptly earlier after her talk with Jax so its understandable she wouldnt want to rush home. Throwing her phone on the coffee table, Emily threw Zeus a treat. "Just me and you tonight boy." Standing up she made her way to the kitchen to start cooking dinner.

Not even 20 mins later she had music blasting and food cooking as she danced around the kitchen. She giggled as she held Zeus paws as they swayed to Jailhouse Rock by Elvis. Her peace was rudely interrupted by a loud knock at the door. Telling Zeus to stay she lowered the temp of the hob and made her way to the door. The last person she expected to be on the other side was Noah. And she instantly regretted opening the door in a oversized T-shirt and clearly no bra. "What?" Emily asked as she leaned against the door frame. "I just wanted to talk." Noah held his hands up in mock surrender. "You and Jax looked pretty cosy when he came home earlier. Fuck Em you've looked after his baby all day!" Emily sighed again as she crossed her arms over her chest. "And your point is?" Noah shrugged as he shoved his hands in his jacket pockets. "I know I fucked up Em.  Believe me I know. But is this what you really want? We've been through so much. I love you baby. Please." Emily rolled her eyes. The last person she was going to talk about Jax with was Noah. "Maybe spending time with him has made me realise what I really want." Shrugging her shoulders, Emily looked away from him. Every time she saw him it brought back all the pain and she'd had enough pain. "It's nothing to do with you even if I did decide to be with him. I think you just need to leave me alone Noah." She watched as his face twisted in anger. "Do you seriously think he's interested in you Em? God he has you fooled good doesn't he! He's Doing it to get to me you fucking idiot. This is nothing to do with you. The 3 days he was in Nevada he slept his way through a line of fucking women while you sat looking after his kid like a glorified babysitter." Emily visibly winced and she hated the way her stomach dropped at the mention of Jax with other women. He probably could have slept his way through half of Nevada and she wouldn't have known. It wasnt her place to know. "And you have just proved exactly why I'll never give you a chance again. Go back to your whore." Slamming the door Emily felt the lump in her throat grow and her tears start to fall. She hated herself for letting Jax in. For starting to feel things for him. Making her way into the kitchen she turned the cooker off. She'd lost her appetite.

Back at the clubhouse Jax sat on one of the bar stools hunched over a beer he hadn't touched. Emily was distancing herself again. They'd had a great day, grew close and then she pulled back. He liked her and thought they were finally getting somewhere after that amazing kiss. Maybe he was reading it all wrong. Maybe she wasn't interested. Jax couldn't sit there any more. The clubhouse was noiser than inside his own head. So he did what he always did when he needed to think. Grabbing a bottle of Jack he headed for the roof.

2 hours later, Jax's head snapped up to the sound of the slamming door of the clubhouse. It was gone 1am and everyone had either gone home with their old ladies or passed out drunk in the dorms. Unless your tig who was probably passed out on the pool table with a crow eater. Worry settled in his stomach as he saw Cara and juice racing across the lot pulling on their clothes. They were clearly interrupted. "Yo! What's wrong?" He called down to them. Cara's head snapped up, and jax could've sworn he saw relief wash over her face from here. "It's Emily! She drunk called me from a bar. Juice heard the music in the back ground, thinks it's the fuzzy cat?" Confusion crossed her face as she shrugged. "The Hairy Dog!" Juice called up to him chuckling at Cara. "Hold on I'm coming!" Jax scrambled down the ladder and ran through the trashed clubhouse. What the fuck was she doing at the dog? Worry was clear to see on his face as he rushed to his bike. The 3 of them sped through the streets, in a complete rush to get there. Not even waiting on Juice and Cara, Jax stormed into the bar without a second thought. He didn't have to search for Emily. There she was on the bar top, dancing in a little black dress and heels. Groups of men and women cheering her on. "Fuck this is bad." Cara shouted. The tiny brunette turned to face Jax. "She's hurting. Shes in i dont give a fuck mode. Let me handle it." Cara made her way through the crowd and climbed up next to Emily on the bar. The chorus of the song hit and Emily screamed throwing hands in the air as she swayed her hips like she didn't have a care in the world. Cara wound her arm around her waist and tried to coax her down from the bar. Boo's from onlookers echoed across the dingy bar. Jax  couldn't hear what was being said but he watched Emily's lips mouth I'm fine. She was any thing but fine. A few mins of coaxing and 2 shots later, she was down from the bar stumbling towards the door. Another drink clutched in her hand as she tried to down as much of it as she could before Cara pulled it away from her. Her hooded eyes fell on Juice first and she launched herself towards him. "JUICIE BOY!! Lemme tell you..." she hiccupped twice as she dragged a finger across the side of his face. " You stole my friend. S-she came to murica to s-see me...."Another hiccup. "But you and your magical penis took her A-away." Emily stumbled back a few steps as juice tried to straighten her up. Cara caught her wrapping her arms tight around her friend. "Emily lets get some air yeah? Sober you up." Emily jerked away from her instantly. "I-im fine." Cara's face twisted in frustration and anger. Gripping her by the arms, she pulled Emily kicking and screaming from the bar. "Your fine?" She shouted as she shoved her friend into the cold air. "I'm sick of the your fine routine Em. I know you! Your anything but fine." Emily scowled at Cara as she swayed in her drunken state. "Your distancing yourself from people who love you. This-" Cara screamed as she thrust her arm towards the bar entrance. "This is you self destructing. Ive seen it before And I'm not letting you do it this time." Emily glared at her as she crossed her arms over her chest. "First Noah now you? Fuck, everyone really wants to interfere in my life." Cara frowned in confusion. "Noah? What the fuck has he done now?" Jax asked as he stepped forward, not even caring he cut into their convosation. She had refused to acknowledge him. Hadn't even looked at him at all and it made him feel sick. Emily turned her head to look over the car park instead of at Jax. If she looked at him, she would break. "What Noah does best. Kicks off when he doesn't get his own way." Emily searched in her handbag for her cigarettes and lit one taking a deep inhale of the nicotine. Her stomach twisted as she felt Jax move closer. Don't cry. Dont fucking cry. She repeateded it like a mantra. Jax cupped her jaw and forced her to look at him. His baby blues made her melt and she cursed herself as tears welled in her eyes.

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I have like 6 more chapters written of Jax & Emily. As well as 2 more chapters for Delusional.

But Tumblr clearly hates me because every time I try to post it comes up with error or Glitch. 🤦‍♀️

Has anyone else had this problem?

Pls help😂

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How some girls can sit there and say their 'girls girls' but will shit on other women to make themselves look better is beyond me.

Get in the bin ✌

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reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

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I don't want to adult anymore.

I would like to lie in bed for the rest of my life and read/ write about morally grey men😂

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girls will look at a man and say “he’s just misunderstood” as he murders people

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I'm not built to live a 9-5 life. I'm built to live in Damon Torrence's arms.

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I was not prepared for how obsessed the Devil's Night series was going to make me! 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

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You either have my back, you're at my side, or you're in my way. Be Lilith, never Eve.

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Emily reached Oswald's yard in record time, the guys pulling in behind her seconds later. Running to the office she saw Elliot behind his desk, concern on his face. Jake was on one of the leather sofas, arm covered in blood. "Oh here she is! Come to claim your vicious mutt?" Emily glared at Jake, fire burning in her hateful stare. She never liked him. "That dog is perfect. You shouldn't be handling him, you've been told before. You know fuck all!" Slamming her hands on the desk, Emily looked up at Oswald, just as she heard the rest of the guys pile in behind her. "I want the cameras checked Elliot. I wanna see what happened for myself." Elliot turned her attention to the screen on the wall and pressed play. Sure enough the footage showed Zeus, the gorgeous black German Shepard turning and snapping his jaws onto Jake's arm as he was walking across the yard. Jake stood up behind Emily and spoke in a taunting tone. "See! He's fucking feral. I want him destroyed." Emily snapped around, the anger in her eyes doubled. "Out of the fucking question! You've got to go through me to touch that dog." Looking Jake up and down she scoffed. "And i don't think you've got the bollocks." Turning to face a still silent Elliot, Emily pleaded. "I want the camera's in the kennel checked. That behaviour doesn't come out of no where." Jake started to squirm. "Elliot seriously? Theres no need to check the kennel cameras. End of the day he bit me. Thats it, he should go!" Elliot looked between them both, clearly unsure. Emily raised her eyebrow at him. "Who are you gonna trust here Elliot? Your Kennel Manager and trainer or this idiot? Oswald Security wouldn't be what it is without me and you know it!" Elliot sighed as he used the remote to switch the screen to the kennel camera. Jake started to squirm even more and Emily knew exactly why. The footage showed Jake bang harshly on Zeus' kennel door startling the animal. Then to make it worse instead of clipping on his lead, he roughly grabbed him by the scruff pulling him from his kennel and out the door into the yard. The yelp from the dog was enough to make Emily want to tear his fucking throat out. Elliot's face changed at the footage, realising Emily was right. Angry didnt cover it. The rage that she felt was indescribable. How dare he handle her animals like that? "I want him gone. Dismissed and as far away from my fucking kennel as possible." Emily spoke through gritted teeth. Jake started to protest behind her but she had had enough. Turning around she shoved Jake back down onto the sofa. Leaning over him, fists clenched, nails digging crescent moons into her palms, she spoke through gritted teeth. "You ever come near this yard again, i will fucking feed you to them piece by piece you weak, pathetic, piece of shit." Jake glanced around the room as if anyone was going to tell her to back off. "Oh i get it! You think because you got 3 members of SAMCRO here your protected? I heard you were their new fuck toy since Noah left your ass. He let them pass you around now he's done with you? Anger was clear to see on Jax's face now as he moved further into the room, ready to beat the shit out of him for speaking to her like that. Jake's laughter was cut short by Emily's fist crashing into his mouth. "Think your fucking funny?" She spat as she hit him again, knuckles bleeding from the contact with his teeth. "Emily!" Oswald shouted the first words he's spoke since she got there, as he gripped her arm and pulled her back. "Get him off this fucking yard now! I'll kill him Elliot i swear!" Emily breathed heavy as she tried to rein her temper back in. "Ill handle it. Go cool off." Elliot pointed at the door, clearly wanting her to leave. Rolling her eyes, she didnt give Jake a second look as she stormed from the office, the rest of the guys in tow.

Emily's hands shook with pure anger as she leaned over the fence of the exercise yard. "The temper on you darlin'" Chibs whistled as he threw his arm over her shoulder. "You got any Irish in ya? You remind me of me wife, Terrifying woman." Emily burst out laughing as she looked at him. Since she met him he had never failed to make her laugh. "Yeah i do actually. On my mothers side." Chibs smiled at her and it made Emily feel slightly better. Jax watched her. He was still angry himself at how she had been spoken to. Is that what people thought of her? Noah treated her like shit and now she was being passed around the club like a crow eater? Charming gossips were relentless and SAMCRO have always been at the center of their rumors. But now Emily was being dragged into it and he hated it more than he used to.

The sound of the Kennel door opening got Emily's attention straight away. Lee, one of the other handlers, was leading Zeus out into the yard. "Lee, let him go!" Emily called and the sound of her voice made Zeus' ears perk up straight away. The whine he let out make Emily's heart swell. He was her boy. He made her so proud. Stepping forward Emily dropped to her knees as all 120 pounds of excited German Shepard ran her way. Zeus collided into her with kisses and whines. Flopping onto his back on the dirt he gratefully accepted the belly rubs. "Hey E. Take it you heard what happened?" Lee spoke when he was close enough to the group. "Yeah Zeus is going nowhere and that asshole is losing his job as we speak." Lee laughed at her. "I wouldn't expect anything less." Emily smiled at him as she moved to stand up. "You working him now?" Lee nodded. "Makes sense. He's all riled up from this morning anyway." Emily grinned as she scratched Zeus' ears. "You getting in the bite suit?" Lee went pale. "Seriously? Not again!" Emily nodded her head as she grabbed Zeus' lead from his hand and hung it round her neck. "Ill meet you in the field." Lee groaned but didnt complain as he turned and made his way back towards the kennel. Excitement was clear to see on her face as Emily spun to face the others. "You guys can go back to your welcome home party. Im staying with my boy." Cara shook her head. "No way! I've heard you talk none stop about this dog and training. Im staying to watch!" Emily laughed as everyone agreed with Cara. "Fine but hands down at all times, you can lean on the fence." Unlocking the field she let Zeus in and locked the gate behind her. Walking down to the guys she smiled as Zeus started running and sniffing the grass. "He's beautiful." Juice commented as he watched him. Emily smiled. "Yeah he is. And he is one hell of a protection dog." Tying her hair up high and out of her face she called Zeus to come to her.

Lee let himself into the field, waddling in the huge bite suit down to Emily. "I cannot believe you are getting me to do this. He dislocated my shoulder last time!" He groaned as he shifted, uncomfortable in the padding. "Oh stop whining. You know you love him!" Emily laughed. Jax smiled at her. She obviously loved this job. It was clear to see in how she defended the dog and her position. He never would've thought this was the job she did. They needed to talk about alot really. Her day with Abel, that amazing kiss, and where it left them. Jax kicked himself. This was the only upside to one night stands, no awkward relationship talk. But for her he was willing to do it. Jax snapped out of his mental monolog as he heard Emily call to Zeus. Emily gave him the command and he assumed position between her legs. Lee signaled to her he was ready and started making his way towards her. "Watch him." Emily called and Zeus' eyes locked on to Lee as he was moving closer. "Speak!" With the command, Zeus started barking and growling. Lee had both his arms behind his back now, only a few meters between him, Zeus and Emily. "Show me your hands!" She called over the snarling of the dog. Lee ignored the call just like he was supposed to. "Show me your hands or ill send the dog!" Emily called just like she had a thousand times before. Lee showed his hands and started waving around the metal bar. "Last warning! Back off or I'll send the dog!" There it was. The final warning. Emily always trained her guys to give 3. 3 strikes and your out. Lee lunged forward and with that Zeus became airbourne. Not caring about the weapon, he lunged to protect his master. Nothing would get between him and Emily. Connecting with the bite suit covering Lee's arm, Zeus bit down hard almost taking him off his feet. Lee struggled against him, but no luck. Zeus wasnt giving up easy, even dangling in the air at one point. Running over Emily gave him the command to release and return to her. Zeus dutifully obeyed moving to stand at her side. Throwing his ball as a reward, Emily let him have a few minutes play. Lee lay on the ground panting. "I both love and hate that dog." Laughing Emily helped him to his feet. "You getting in the car?" Lee groaned. "Your running the car exercise too?" Emily shrugged. "Why not? He hasnt done it in a while. And Oswald wants him ready for when the cars start being left on the sale lot. Ya know in case someone tries to take one." Lee groaned again but started to make his way towards the car parked on the other end of the field.

Jax watched as she did what she did best. And she looked god damn sexy while she was doing it too. Turning to Chibs, Jax asked the question on his mind without hesitation. "What do you think about her?" Jax knew Chibs would tell him the truth. He could always count on him to do that. "I like her. You could do alot worse Jackie boy!" Chibs smiled at him. Jax turned back to the field and watched as Emily squatted next to Zeus kissing his face. God he was obsessed with her. He watched Lee give the signal he was ready once he was in the car. Emily gave Zeus a command that Jax couldnt hear but it made his eyes lock onto the car. Jax had to admit even he wouldnt want to fuck with that dog. Maybe he should get one for his home, protect Abel that much more.

"Wow!" He heard Cara gasp as the hair missile that was Zeus flew through the car window without any hesitation and locked onto the bite sleeve around Lee's arm. Lee fell through the open drivers door on to the ground, Zeus on top of him pinning his arm to his chest with his mouth. Emily ran over and gave the command to release, giving him his ball as a reward. Zeus proudly ran around the field with it, enjoying his play he worked so hard for. "Fuck" Lee groaned as Emily helped him to his feet. "Im getting out of this thing." Laughing Emily let him out of the field, Zeus on her heels. "Does he only protect if commanded?" Juice questioned as she made her way over to them. "Wanna raise your hand to me and find out?" She grinned as Juice shook his head wide eyed. Jax moved to stand by her side. "After seeing him train I'm considering getting one for Abel. Especially when his nanny has him at home and I'm not there. What do you think?" Emily smiled at him "I think its a great idea. Ill even train it if your comfortable with that? I can bring Zeus back to the clubhouse with you. He's trained perfect around children, i can show you and your mom the benefits." Jax nodded with a wide smile. He could see how passionate she was about this. "Perfect. Ill meet you there." Emily couldnt wipe the smile off her face as she loaded Zeus into the car.

Within minutes Emily was pulling into the same space in the lot, unloading Zeus. Jax was already there and had brought his mom and the rest of the guys out onto the lot, catching them up with his idea. "Im not sure Jax. A dog? Thats a risk with a baby!" Emily gave Zeus some water as she listened to Gemma try to shoot down Jax's idea. "I trust her mom. And i trust that dog. You haven't seen what i have. Give her a chance." Jax stepped forward and took Able from Gemma. "Zeus nice. Friend." Emily said as Zeus sat down eyeing the baby. Taking Abel from Jax she kneeled infront of Zeus, letting him get a good old sniff of the baby. Abel babbled as he pressed his hands onto Zeus's muzzle, clearly interested in the new creature. Turning around Emily placed Able in his carrier on the floor. "Everyone step back." Gemma eyed her with a scowl. "You expect me to step back and give that dog a chance to maul my grandbaby?" She snapped and Emily scoffed. "Ive looked after this baby all day. Alone. If i was gonna hurt him dont you think i would've done it while you weren't watching him?" Emily rolled her eyes at how ridiculous Gemma was. She could see she didnt want to but eventually listened and took a step back. Emily moved to the side giving Zeus space to sit infront of the carrier. "Stay and watch. No one touches him." Emily patted Zeus' head and stepped even further back. "Can someone please try to pick up Abel?" Emily asked, arms crossed over her chest. Opie stepped forward. "Ill do it. Just dont let him take my hand off." Emily smirked as he stepped forward, his hand reaching for the baby. He didnt even get to make contact before Zeus was growling in warning, his hackles raised. He was ready to pounce if that hand made contact. Opie backed up as soon as Zeus started to inch forward. "Fuck that!" Emily laughed as she moved next to Zeus. "Safe." Bending down she gave him a fuss and threw his ball across the lot. Turning to Jax and Gemma she crossed her arms over her chest. "I can train another Zeus if thats what you want. Family dog but protection when needed. Itll sleep infront of Abel's crib and can follow him and the nanny where you want." Emily grinned as she felt Zeus nuzzle against the back of her legs. Scratching his head, she took his ball back and threw it again. He deserved it. He's such a good boy. Jax nodded as he looked at his mom. "See extra protection for Abel is a good thing." Gemma eyed him but gave in eventually. "Fine. But-" The overbearing mother stepped infront of Emily, hands on her hips. " If it hurts my grandbaby, ill destroy it." Emily scowled at her. "Have faith grandma." Before Gemma could say anything back, Jax guided Emily toward her car to talk about arrangements. "So when do you start training?" Emily was thankful he pulled her away, Gemma is really pushing her fucking luck with her attitude. "Well we have a litter due to be weaned from mum in the next week or so. You can come and pick your puppy and then i'll start bringing it around you and Abel so it can form a bond. Ill have to have access to your house too, so it can get used to its new environment." Emily spoke as she loaded Zeus into the car and turned her air con on. "You can come by the house any time. Stay if its easier." Jax leaned against her car, mentally kicking himself for the forwardness of his comment. Emily could feel herself go red. "That might not be such a good idea. The dog would get used to me being there. I dont want to get in your way." Jax placed his hands on her hips. "You wouldnt be in my way. And so what if the dog gets used to you? Maybe thats not such a bad thing." Jax pulled her closer and butterflies exploded in her stomach. Fuck. He really did drive her insane. She wanted to give in. She really did, But part of her knew she would only get hurt in the end. Jax is only interested in her because she's new. The novelty of her will soon wear off and he'll be back to his many women.

"Maybe it would be. I dont want to cross any lines. Cause any confusion. I better go. Ill keep you updated on the puppy. Waving to Cara, Emily jumped in the car and drove away from Teller Morrow. Jax stayed staring at the back of her truck as she drove away, disappointment clear on his face. Meanwhile, as Emily drove towards her house she couldnt help the tears that pricked her eyes. Today was nice, but it was also a stark reminder of what she couldnt have.

She needed to put distance between them. And fast.

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Unclipping the helmet on his head, Jax smiled wide at the massive group of people. All the women and children greeting their men home. It felt good to see. This is what kept them grounded. This is what kept them fighting to come home. Family. Kissing his mom on the cheek, he wrapped her in a tight hug. "How's the baby? Does Neeta still have him?" He spoke quietly. He was reluctant to mention Abel. Only the people closest to the club knew about the little boy dumped by his mother just months earlier. He wanted him protected. Distanced. No one could use him as leverage then. He didn't want his son to have a chaotic upbringing. He wanted to give him the stability he never seemed to have. Gemma smirked at her son. "Actually he's here. Where he should be." Jax's stomach dropped. What the fuck did his mom think she was going? Emily didn't know about him. God this was gonna make her run for the fucking hills. Before he could say anything to her, Gemma pointed over by the boxing ring. Turning around his heart nearly jumped into his mouth at the sight. There she was. Emily cradled Abel against her chest as she rocked from side to side, soothing the now wide awake baby. She was talking to Chibs but the care she showed Abel was clear. His head was tucked into her neck as his hand gripped one of her fingers. He was obviously comfortable with her. "He's been with her all day. She had him in his baby sling as he wouldn't let her put him down." Jax's eyes widened at the realisation that she clearly didn't care about his secret son. His mother wouldn't let just anyone take Abel. Without another word Jax made his way over to the woman he couldn't get out of his mind.

Emily laughed as Chibs asked if she had made the food. "Oh no Gemma's been all over that. Ive been kept well away from the kitchen." The disappointment that flashed across his face made her smile. "But if you can forgive me just this once I might drop off a big tray of that Lasagne you loved so much." Chibs blew her a kiss. "You're forgiven love." Emily rolled her eyes at how dramatic he was but she really did love it. It made her feel good how much they liked her. She guessed the saying a way to a man's heart is through his stomach must really be true. She felt Abel start to squirm against her chest. Just as she was about to lift him from the sling she heard his voice. "I'll take him, darlin." Feeling a shiver run down her spine she turned to face the man she missed more than she thought she would. Smiling at him she gently passed Abel over to him. She didn't know how it was possible but the sight of Jax holding a baby made him 10× more attractive. Unclipping the baby sling she placed it onto one of the many tables and grabbed a cold beer for Jax. Opening it she handed it over to him and took a seat on the side of the boxing ring. "Back in one piece as promised. What's my prize?" Jax questioned as he took a seat next to her. Reaching across stroking Abel's cheek Emily grinned at him "What do you want?" Looking up at him Emily felt the noise of everyone else melt away. It's felt like it was only the three of them. "What if I said you?" Jax looked her dead in the eyes as he spoke. He watched her get red and shock cross her face. Emily's heart pounded so hard she thought it was going to jump from her chest. Her? No. Not her. There was so much they hadnt talked about. So much was complicated.

Fuck it was the only thing she could think. She deserved to be happy. And since she met him, Jax genuinely made her happy.

Leaning up till her lips brushed his, Emily threw caution to the wind and kissed him. Jax tightly held Abel with one arm while his other lifted to cup her cheek. Fireworks. As cliche as it sounded that was the only way that Emily could describe it. This. This feeling was what she was missing with Noah. Jax melted into her completely. God, he'd never felt anything like it before. Not even with Tara. She was addictive. He'd never be able to get enough.

Her phone ringing pulled them apart. Still red and flustered she answered the phone as soon as she saw Oswalds number. Worry filled her stomach straight away. "Emily, Zeus has bitten Jake. I need you at the yard now." Emily jumped up grabbing her car keys. "Eliott I swear there's more to this. I trained that dog myself. He's a fucking perfect dog." At the sound of Eliotts name the club boys turned all their attention to Emily. "Well you best come down and see for yourself. He'll have to be destroyed, I can't take the risk." Emily seethed as she paced back and forth. "I'm on my way. No one touches him till I get there. Promise me that atleast."

Once Eliott agreed, Emily started running towards her car. "Em?" Cara shouted in question. "It's Zeus I've got to go!" Without hesitation Jax passed Abel to his mom running to his bike to follow Emily. Before she knew it Emily was speeding out of Teller Morrow, Jax, Chibs, juice and Cara in tow.

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Day 1 without Jax was uneventful. Emily had saved up most of her annual leave to be able to spend the full 3 weeks off with Cara, so both of them were currently moping around her house. Stretched across a sofa each both of them were in sweatpants and jumpers surrounded by snacks watching Grey's Anatomy. "Ugh he hasn't called." Cara groaned as she checked her phone for the 4th time in the last 10 minutes. Emily rolled her eyes as she reached for the Doritos. " He's busy Car. I'm sure he'll call when he gets chance." She hoped juice would call or text her soon because she was ready to lovingly strangle her best friend if she didn't shut the fuck up.

Day 1 without Emily, Jax tried to keep himself busy. Nevada was a long ride and trying to keep their presence under wraps the club split up into pairs, each travelling different routes to Jury's clubhouse. Stopping at a gas station, Bobby shook his head as he watched Jax check his phone again just like he had at their previous stop. "Why don't you call her? Never seen you so nervous over a girl." Jax rolled his eyes at Bobby and pocketed his phone. "I don't get it. Usually other girls would be blowing up my phone by now. Begging me to call. Wanting to know the ins and outs. But I've had nothing from Emily. Not even a text." With a confused expression on his face, Jax followed Bobby to grab a drink and pay for their gas. On the way out, he was shocked to see some douchebag sat on his Harley. His blonde girlfriend taking a photo of him. "Here let me take that for you darlin" shocked she handed Jax the phone. "S-sorry I told him not to sit on your bike-" Jax flashed her a wide smile assuring her it was fine as he took the photo for her idiot boyfriend. Passing the phone to a smirking Bobby, Jax gripped his helmet tightly in his hand. "That's before." The guy on the bike looked confused but didn't get chance to speak before Jax smashed him across the face with his helmet. "Don't ever sit on another man's bike Asshole."  Bobby leaned down taking another photo of the guys bloody face. "That's After!" Closing the flip phone he threw it on the ground next to the guy. His girlfriend burst into giggles at the karma her boyfriend got. Grinning at Jax as he sat on his bike she twisted her hair around her finger. "Where you headed?" She asked him in a flirty tone. Now Jax usually would've snapped up her clear offer. She was obviously interested and he knew it would've been an easy lay. But as he sat and looked at the skinny blonde all he could think was she wasn't Emily. "No Where you are. Sorry darlin" clipping his helmet on, Jax started his bike. Bobby's eyes damn near popped out of his head in shock. Jax turning down easy pussy? For a girl that wasn't even his old lady? Unheard of!

As Bobby followed Jax out of the gas station, he couldn't help but feel that things had changed with his VP. He just wasn't sure yet if it was for the better.

Day 2 without Jax and Juice, Cara and Emily decided to stay busy. Yesterday moping on the couch the hours dragged by slowly. Today Emily was up at 9 and went straight to the gym while Cara had a lie in. She was back by 11 tackling the mess that had become her house when a knock on the door interrupted her. She would be lying if she said part of her didn't hope it was Jax on the other side, back early from his trip. She felt like an idiot. He probably wasn't even thinking of her. He was probably hauled up with whatever girl he took a liking for and she wouldn't even know. It wasnt her buisness to know. "Morning." Emily was shocked when she opened the door to reveal Gemma stood there in her own black leather, jeans and heels. Emily felt uncomfortable stood there in denim shorts, black bralette and an open checkered red flannel. Wet hair piled on top of her head in a messy bun. "Oh morning." Moving back from the door Emily let Gemma into her house and followed her to the kitchen. "Is everything okay?" Emily asked as she moved to lean against her counter while gemma took a seat at her table. She didn't miss her wandering eyes looking around her home. Probably judging it. "Yeah everything's fine." Gemma smiled as she hooked her handbag over the side of the chair she sat on. "Jax wanted you there when the guys left yesterday. You obviously mean something to him. Exactly what yet, nobody knows. But you've both clearly hit it off despite every thing with Noah." Emily bit her lip to stop something sarcastic or attitude filled flying from her mouth. " So it only makes sense that he would want you there when they come home tomorrow. Juice and your little friend obviously can not keep their hands off of eachother. Both of you need to be there to welcome your men home." Gemma smirked as she watched Emily's eyes widen. "He's not my anything." Gemma flashed her a knowing look that Emily would've loved to swipe off her face. "But you want him to be." Emily rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest as Gemma stood from  her chair. It made her feel angry at herself that her liking Jax was apparently obvious. She's still healing. The last thing she needed right now was to fall for someone else. But the blue eyed little shit wormed his way in to her broken heart unexpectedly and quickly.  "I'll see you both at the clubhouse tomorrow at 1. Boys are expected back by 3. Don't be late." Shifting her bag onto her shoulder she put her sunglasses on her face. "I hate late." Without even a goodbye Gemma sauntered out of Emily's house. Rolling her eyes again, Emily scrunched up her face and sarcastically mimicked her. "I hate late."

Day 2 without Emily had Jax itching to leave Nevada early. He wanted this business handled and he wanted to go home. Blowing out the smoke from his cigarette, Jax sat outside of the clubhouse on a low wall overlooking the setting sun in the distance. He didn't understand why he still hadnt heard from her. Was she not interested? Was she waiting for him to make the first move? "What's got you so deep in thought?" Jax jumped at the sound of Bobby's voice as he moved to take a seat next to him on the wall. Jax shook his head as he pocketed his phone. "Nothing." Bobby sighed as he lit his own cigarette. "This girls got your head turning inside out brother. Turning down that pretty blonde at the gas station. You've not even looked at a single woman in there. She's not even your old lady. She's just some girl that Noah fucked around-" Jax's face changed instantly as he listened to Bobby. Snapping his head towards the old man, eyes burning with rage Jax spoke through gritted teeth. " Don't talk about her like that. She ain't got me turning any way. This is the first girl that hasn't jumped all over me because I'm VP of samcro. This is the first girl that doesn't fucking care. She doesn't want club info, she isn't trying to insert herself into our life. She was there yesterday because I wanted her there. She is the first girl that asks me how I am and genuinely cares about the answer. The girl that packed me a fucking lunch the other night when i had to leave because Chibs called about the Irish." Bobby's eyes widened as he watched Jax seethe. "We've talked about stupid shit like if aliens are real, life, the future, what we want. Fuck I even told her about Tara. She's not twisting me up. Not pulling me away either." Jax threw his cigarette to the ground, stomping on it killing the flame. "It's me. I'm just not sure how to handle it. Emily's different. I don't want to scare her away. I really like her Bobby. I just need to decide whether I want to pull her into this life. Whether I want to try this with her. Relationships aren't really my strong suit." Bobby clapped him on the shoulder comfortingly. He felt slightly guilty for getting the wrong end of the stick. He genuinely thought the girl was trouble. "It sounds like you've already decided, kid. If it's meant to be, it'll be. Who knows? Maybe she'll be at TM waiting for you to come home." Jax nodded at the old man. He hoped she would be there waiting for him. If she missed him like he missed her then she'd be counting down the fucking minutes until he's back.

On Day 3 Jax woke up early and headed out to a spot his dad wrote about in his journal. It felt weird to admit but as he stood under the painted red letters on the wall he felt closer to his dad. He missed him terribly. He would never tell anyone but he hoped to god his dad would be proud of the man he was turning into. He had doubts about the direction that Clay and Tig were leading the club and he couldn't wait to be sat at the head of that table with Opie one day. His phone ringing cut through the silence. Answering the call from Clay, Jax started walking back to his bike. "Yeah I'm on my way." Ready to go home, Jax sped away to meet the rest of the guys. He couldn't wait to get back.

On Day 3 Emily was praying Jax came back quickly otherwise she was going to strangle his mother. Sure enough when her and Cara arrived at 1 o'clock on the dot, Gemma put them both to work. However, It wasn't the running around and endless to do list that irritated Emily. It was the fact that Gemma was up her arse every second. Giving her a job but not trusting her to get it done. Hanging over her shoulder telling her everything she did was wrong. Emily was about to tell her where she could shove her famous chilli when one of the crow eaters she now knew as Jade came walking in holding a baby. And in an instant Emily melted. Babies were her weak spot. Instantly made her broody and turned her to mush in a second. " Hey Gem, Donna's here she needs help with the stuff from the car." Gemma nodded as she took the baby from Jade telling her to go help. Emily smiled at the baby in Gemma's arms, melting in to mush at the blue eyed baby with chubby cheeks and little blonde hair starting to grow. Gemma watched her, that smirk everyone hated spread wide across her face. "Can you take him? The guys are due back soon and I need to get this food out. You do not want near the shit storm that the guys will cause if they turn up to empty tables." Emily's eyes widened as Gemma passed her the child. "I don't know. Where's his mom? I'm a stranger. You can't just give her baby to a stranger." Gemma rolled her eyes as she picked up the nappy bag off the table and hooked it around Emily's shoulder. " Trust me baby. Is mom ain't worth knowing. Anyone says anything tell them to come see me. I'll come get him from you later." Emily looked at Gemma like she was insane but chose not to argue. The baby couldn't be no older than 2 or 3 months. He was propper fucking cute though. Taking the baby outside she sat in the shade. She found a little blue beanie with a reaper on it in his nappy bag so she placed that on his head for extra coverage from the sun. Lifting him up slightly she cooed at how adorable he was. The baby gave her a crooked smile in response. "You seem in your element." Cara spoke as she moved to sit next to Emily. "Babies. You know how much I love them." Cara nodded leaning across to stroke the chubby cheek of the baby in Emily's arms. "He's a cutie. Who's is he?" Emily shook her head. " not a clue. Gemma just handed him to me and asked me to take care of him till later. Told me his mom weren't worth knowing. She didn't even tell me his name." Cara matched Emily's confused look. "Wait. You don't think he's Jax's do you?" Emily's eyes widened at the suggestion. "Think about it. This baby is obviously close to Gemma. She won't tell you about the mom. I bet he belongs to Jax." Emily looked down at the blue eyed baby who was resting peacefully in her arms. Blue eyes closed dreaming. Little hand curled around her finger. He was obviously comfortable with her. "He didn't mention anything about a baby. Surely he'd mention it?" Cara shook her head again. "No he wouldn't. Think of how protective they are about their business. He wouldn't just drop the fact he had a son into your convosation. He will want him protected. Gemma is probably the main one taking care of him." Emily's eyes widened in realisation. The more Cara spoke the more it made sense. Would this baby change things? Would Jax even want her around him?

She was starting to over think and her anxiety was spiking. Cara could see it and grabbed her face gently. "Breathe Em. Gently." Cara breathed along with her deeply. "Your a good person. Your amazing around babies. And as much as your going to sit here and deny it I know you like Jax. Really really like him. I'm not stupid. And incase you need to hear it out loud. Having feelings for someone else is okay. Moving on is okay." Emily's eyes watered at her words. Leaning forward kissing Cara's cheek, she thanked god for her crazy best friend. The sight of cars pulling in and families starting to fill the lot made Emily smile. "I better go see if Gemma needs anything last minute. She'll have my throat if she sees me sat here slacking with you." Emily nodded watching her best friend disappear into the clubhouse.

For the last hour Emily had the baby she now knew as Abel snuggled against her chest in a baby sling as she chatted with Opies wife Donna. He'd had a feed, been burped and changed. He pretty much passed out milk drunk. Gemma had kindly fetched her his baby sling to save her arms aching. Every time she tried to lay him down he would wake and scream. She had a feeling Gemma would never let him self soothe because he wanted to be cuddled all the time. And what the future Heir to the SAMCRO Throne wants, he gets. Especially when it came to his grandma. It had gotten warm with the added heat from Abel, so Emily had had to shed a few layers. She now stood in a plain black bralette, high waisted shorts, white Nike air max trainers and her black and white checkered flannel tied around her waist. Her hair had been tied up in a high pony and all her tattoos were on show. Including the new black and grey roses etched onto her hip a few days ago. It was what originally started the convosation with Donna. "I love your ink. I would never be brave enough to get all of them tho. Opies crow on my ribs killed me enough when I was a teenager." Donna giggled at Emily as she showed her the black crow on a branch with Opies name etched underneath. "That's so nice though Donna. It's healed really well. I'm strange. I like the pain. It's like therapy sometimes." Emily smiled at her as her hand softly stroked Abel's sleeping face. Gemma watched her from her doorway. She was a natural all right. That baby had been loved on all day and that made her warm to the bright haired girl. She reminded her of herself when she was younger. Loud, takes no shit but carried her heart on her sleeve. You could read everything in her eyes. When she was hurt, sad, happy or excited. Yep, Gemma thought. Jax picked good with this one.

Speaking of her son, the unmistakable rumble of multiple Harley Davidson could be heard already. They were close. Her boys were home. Emily's stomach dropped as the sound hit her ears. A wide smile spread across Donnas face as she wrapped her arm around her. "Don't worry he's gonna he so excited to see you!" Emily managed a small smile. Would he? Would he be happy she has found out about his very protected son? How would he feel about her taking care of him all day? Would he feel like she was pushing in? She didn't have time to over think it this time as the bikes drove into the lot.

Here we go, was  all she could think as her heart pounded in her chest.

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The next morning Emily drove her truck into Teller Morrow. Clutching the warm coffee in her hand she rolled her eyes at Cara for the millionth time that morning. "Im sorry Em! We didnt mean to keep you awake." Emily nodded at her best friend as she slumped back in the seat. She was grumpy in the morning. Especially since she had no sleep last night from Juice and Cara's long goodbye, if thats what you want to call it. 5am they finally quit it. It didnt matter how many times Emily banged on the wall, screamed at them to shut up or shoved a pillow over her head. Nothing could drown out Cara's loud Moans. "Im gonna miss him so bad." Emily groaned as she faceplanted her steering wheel. "Cara i love you. But please get out and give me five minutes peace." Emily didnt lift her head but she knew from the sound of the door opening and shutting, she left. God she could just fall asleep right there.

Not even 2 minutes later a knock on the window made her jump out of her skin, almost spilling hot coffee over her lap. Looking up she saw a smiling Jax. His face pressed against the window in a funny expression, nose squished. She couldnt help but smile at him. Shaking her head she rolled down the window. His face returned to normal as he threw his arms on the roof of her car and leaned in. He only wore a white t-shirt, his leather and a pair of jeans. Her breath hitched in her throat as she watched the muscles in his arms flex and his shirt rise to show his hips. The delicious V she would love to run her lips over. "Morning Darlin'" She smiled wide at him as she leaned back taking a sip of her coffee. "I heard Juice kept you up all night. Do you want me to put a stop to him coming over?" The look on his face told her he was serious. "No! its fine, honestly. Cara would never forgive me. She really likes him. I just need to start booking a hotel so i can escape the fuck fest and actually sleep." Emily rubbed her dry eyes, she knew she looked awful. Black tracksuit bottoms, a white cropped vest and a black zip up hoodie covered her body. Her hair was down and straight and not one bit of make up covered her face. She didnt really care what she looked like when she got dressed this morning, pulling anything on. Now she kicked herself for it. Here he was looking like a God even in simple clothes and she looked like a tramp. "Nah you wont need a hotel darlin. You can always stay at mine when you wanna get away." Emily could feel herself going red, but before she could say anything Jax pulled her car door open. "Come on, moms made breakfast." Jax threw his arm around her shoulder as she got out of the car. They made their way into the clubhouse under the watchful eyes of many.

Emily couldnt wipe the smile off her face when she was greeted by the guys. Hugs from Opie and Chibs, high five from Happy and even a nod from Clay and Bobby who were deep in convosation. Jax couldnt wipe the grin off of his face either. He loved how the guys liked her already, how nice she was for them. Made him like her even more. Jax pulled out a seat for her at the table where the guys sat and disappeared into the kitchen where his mom was. Emily winked at Cara who was currently sat on one of the many sofas on Juice's lap, giggling as his hands wandered up the back of her shirt. God these next few days Cara is going to be miserable without him. Seriously good sex with Juice had her falling in love already and it had Emily worried. Cara being here was only meant to be temporary. She didnt want either of them hurt. "Here you go Pocket." Jax placed a massive plate down infront of her with a fresh cup of coffee. Sitting down next to her he stole bacon from her place and flashed her a toothy grin. "Fuck how hungry do you think i am?" Emily shook her head before stabbing at the scrambled egg with a fork. "Its for us to share. I've got a long ride ahead." Jax kissed the side of her head before sipping her coffee and handing it to her. Emily's stomach felt like it wanted to burst, releasing all the butterflies he made swirl. Fuck. He knew what he was doing to her. He had to.

20 minutes later, Clay moved to the door of the clubhouse shouting that they were to leave in 15 minutes. That cut the laughter across the clubhouse short. Emily couldnt help the smile dropping from her face. Jax squeezed her thigh trying to offer some comfort. Standing up he threw his arm around her shoulders as he always did and lead her outside to his bike. All the families started to gather outside to say goodbye to their men. "So how long are you away for?" Emily asked as Jax let her perch on the seat of his bike. He lit a cigarette leaning back against the railing behind him. Emily couldnt help but think about how attractive he looked when he was smoking. The way his perfect lips would wrap around the filter and form a perfect O to blow out the smoke. "Shouldnt be no more than 3 days." She nodded and smiled at him softly. "Nice friendly visit, yeah?" She looked at him dead in the eyes as he froze. She didnt know where she got the confidence to ask but she would be a liar if she said she wasnt worried for their safety. Emily wasnt stupid. There'd be no need for such a big club presence if they werent expecting trouble. Emily stood from the bike at the sight of Clay and Gemma walking their way. "Ready VP?" That seemed to shock Jax out of his frozen state. Nodding at Clay he threw the cigarette on the floor, crushing it beneath his pristine Nike trainers. Emily looked down the row of bikers kissing and loving their families as if it was the last time they'd see them. Her stomach dropped at the thought of something bad happening to Jax. She felt stupid, He wasnt hers to worry about. Spotting Cara's long brown hair at the bottom of the row as she hung over a smiling Juice, kissing the life out of her. She worried about Juice too. All of them even. Cara would never get over it if anything happened to Juice and she'd grown to really like the rest of the guys. Her and Happy's talks about Ink, Opie and Chibs love for her food that made her feel good, Halfsacks innocent but puppy like manner as he often put his foot in his mouth, but did as he was told. She hadn't had much interaction with Bobby, Piney and Clay, but maybe that was for the best. She had brought trouble to their door on more than one occasion because of Noah and her temper. They probably werent as forgiving as the younger members of the club.

Feeling Jax move beside her she stepped out of the way allowing him to straddle his bike. She watched him as he clipped his helmet and started his bike. The sound made her wince. There was nothing like the sound of a Harley. Leaning down so he would be able to hear her over the rumble, Emily moved her hand to cover his. "i dont know what's going down in Nevada. But what i do know is I need you to come back in one piece." Pressing a soft kiss to his cheek, Emily tried to savour the moment. Just incase something did go wrong. Which she hoped to god it wouldnt. "Ride safe, Teller" were the last words she could manage before her throat got thick and the familiar sting started in her eyes. With one last squeeze of his hand, Emily moved to stand with the rest of the women and children who were waiving their men off.

And with one last look in those baby blues, the men disappeared from the lot.

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