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I miss writting maddy

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                                   SOY REBELDE   .    written by nosta.

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❥     𝟖𝟎𝐬 𝐇𝐈𝐓𝐒    [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

sentence starters inspired by various lyrics from random hits from the 1980s !!   some lyrics have been slightly modified to be more usable .  change gendered language   &   add context to your needs .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

“   something’s  buggin’  me .   ” “   something  ain’t  right .   ” “   my  best  friend  told  me  what  you  did  last  night .   ” “   i  should  have  been  with  you  instead .   ” “   wake  me  up  before  you  go .   ” “   i’m  not  planning  on  going  solo .   ” “   take  me  dancing  tonight .   ” “   you’re  my  lady ,   i’m  your  fool .   ” “   it  makes  me  crazy  when  you  act  so  cruel .   ” “   come on ,  baby .   let’s  not  fight .   ” “   we’ll  go  dancing   &   everything  will  be  alright .   ” “   we’ll  go  dancing  tomorrow  night .   ” “   it’s  cold  out  there ,   but  it’s  warm  in  bed .   ” “   don’t  look  at  it  like  it’s  forever .   ” “   i  guess  that’s  why  they  call  it  the  blues .   ” “   time  on  my  hands  could  be  time  spent  with  you .   ” “   picture  my  face  in  your  hands .   ” “   live  for  each  second  without  hesitation .   ” “   never  forget  i’m  your  man .   ” “   cry  in  the  night  if  it  helps .   ” “   i  simply  love  you  more  than  i  love  life  itself .   ” “   some  boys  kiss  me ,   some  boys  hug  me ,   i  think  they’re  okay .   ” “   the  boy  with  the  cold  hard  cash  is  always  mister  right .   ” “   you  know  that  we  are  living  in  a  material  world .   ” “   i  am  a  material  girl .   ” “   boys  may  come   &   boys  may  go .   ” “   experience  has  made  me  rich   &   now  they’re  after  me .   ” “   opposites  attract .   ” “   you  must  try  to  ignore  that  it  means  more  than  that .   ” “   what’s  love  got  to  do  with  it ??   ” “   who  needs  a  heart  when  a  heart  can  be  broken ??   ” “   it  scares  me  to  feel  this  way .   ” “   there’s  still  enough  time  to  figure  out  how  to  chase  my  blues  away .   ” “   i’ve  done  alright  up  ‘til  now .   ” “   i  wanna  dance  with  somebody  who  loves  me .   ” “   i’ve  been  in  love   &   lost  my  senses .   ” “   sooner  or  later ,   the  fever  ends ,   and  i  wind  up  feeling  down .   ” “   when  the  night  falls ,   my  lonely  heart  calls .   ” “   don’t  you  wanna  dance ??   ” “   i’m  sick   &   tired  of  everything .   ” “   all  i  do  is  eat   &   sleep   &   sing .   ” “   there  are  moments  when  i  think  i’m  going  crazy .   ” “   the  sight  of  you  will  prove  to  me  i’m  still  alive .   ” “   some  boys  take  a  beautiful  girl   &   hide  her  away  from  the  rest  of  the  world .   ” “   i  wanna  be  the  one  to  walk  in  the  sun .   ” “   you  could  never  know  what  it’s  like .   ” “   there’s  a cold   &   lonely  light  that  shines  from  you .   ” “   you’ll  wind  up  like  the  wreck  you  hide  behind  that  mask  you  use .   ” “   did  you  think  this  fool  could  never  win ??   ” “   i’m  still  standing  after  all  this  time .   ” “   i’m  picking  up  the  pieces  of  my  life  without  you  on  my  mind .   ” “   i’m  still  standing .   ” “   if  our  love  was  just  a  circus ,  you’d  be  a  clown  by  now .   ” “   heaven  is  a  place  on  earth .   ” “   they  say  in  heaven ,   love  comes  first .   ” “   we’ll  make  heaven  a  place  on  earth .   ” “   in  this  world ,   we’re  just  beginning  to  understand  the  miracle  of  living .   ” “   i  was  afraid  before ,   but  i’m  not  afraid  anymore .   ” “   when  you  dance ,  there’s  a  magic  that  must  be  love .   ” “   i’ll  be  coming  for  your  love ,   okay ??   ” “   i’ll  be  gone  in  a  day  or  two .   ” “   i’m  slowly  learning  that  life  is  okay  ??   ” “   it’s  no  better  to  be  safe  than  sorry .   ” “   you’re  all  the  things  i’ve  got  to  remember .   ” “   you’re  shying  away .   ” “   i’ll  be  coming  for  you ,   anyway .   ” “   sweet  dreams  are  made  of  this .   ” “   who  am  i  to  disagree  ??   ” “   everybody’s  looking  for  something .   ” “   keep  your  head  up .   ” “   it’s  gonna  take  a  lot  to  drag  me  away  from  you .   ” “   there’s  nothing  that  a  hundred  men  or  more  could  ever  do .   ” “   i  seek  to  cure  what’s  deep  inside .   ” “   i’m  frightened  of  this  thing  that  i’ve  become .   ” “   some  are  born  to  sing  the  blues .   ” “   sometimes  i  feel  i’ve  got  to  run away .   ” “   the  love  we  share  seems  to  go  nowhere .   ” “   once  i  ran  to  you .   now ,   i’ll  run  from  you .   ” “   you  need  someone  to  hold  you  tight .   ” “   don’t  touch  me ,   please .   ” “   i  love  you ,   though  you  hurt  me  so .   ” “   i  just  want  to  tell  you  how  i’m  feeling .   ” “   we’ve  known  each  other  for  so  long .   ” “   your  heart’s  been  aching ,   but  you’re  too  shy  to  say it .   ” “   you’re  turning  heads .   ” “   anything  you  wear  looks  good  on  you  especially .   ” “   there’s  nothing  i  can  tell  you  that  you  haven’t  already  heard  a  half  a million times ,   but  still ,   i’d  like  to  say  you  wear  it  well .  ” “   they  can’t  compete  with  you .   ” “   you’re  more  than  just  a  pretty  face .   ” “   you’ve  got  exactly  what  it  takes .   ” “   can  you  feel  it ,   too ??   ” “   i  toss   &   turn  in  my  bed  in  the  morning  when  i  think  about  you .   ” “   i  attempt  to  look  my  best  for  you .   ” “   you  sure  are  sweet .   ” “   would  you  mind  if  i  had  a  little  bit  more  of  your  time ??  ” “   just  keep  doing  what  you  do .   ”

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@hopelass "He just fuckin'... laid into him," he says, still in utter disbelief as they walk back towards the house. In a way, Luke is relieved he was on the other side of the party when Fezco unleashed absolute living hell on Nate. There was no possible way he could've gotten over there to stop him— and in all honesty, he wouldn't have wanted to. Nate deserved every punch. Still, no matter how awful he is, he's still... somewhat important to Maddy. Now that the ambulance is gone, he really should get his act together and make sure she's alright. Cautiously, he wraps an arm around her and pours his drink out. "Yo, do you wanna get outta here? I know you came with... Kat and Jules, but like... a lot's gone on," --- from luke, obvi (;  

              “   I   don’t   wanna   talk   about   it.”

              She’s   shaking   (   breathe,   breathe   or   your   fucking   mascara   will   leak   down   ),   it’s   not   something   she   can   explain.   It’s   not   even   like   she’s   sorry   for   what   happened   to   Nate   (   does   that   make   her   ugly   and   psycho   like   him?   Does   it   fucking   make   her   like   him?   ),   it’s   not   that   she   cares   --     you   don’t,   you   don’t.   because   if   you   care,   then   it   will   mean   you   still   love   him   –   the   idea   terrifies   her.  

                   Nate   has   always   had   violence   following   him   around   –   this   is   just   proof   of   it.

                  But   she’s   still   fucking   shaking,   one   of   her   acrylic   claws   has   been   cracked   in   the   process   of   trying   to   get   Fez   off   of   Nate   (   she   jumped   to   help   him   –   why,   why,   why?   ),   and   not   even   that   can   make   the   ugly   feeling   of   wanting   to   puke   go   away.   And   when   Luke   talks,   all   she   can   hear   is   the   rumble   of   the   fight,   the   smashing   of   beer   bottles,   the   cracking   of   bone   and   she   can’t   even   pretend   to   listen   to   his   words   when   all   she   sees   is   Nate,   Nate,   Nate   –   Nate   with   his   hands   around   her   throat.   Nate   being   pummeled   to   the   ground.

                Nate.   Nate.   Fucking   Nate   won’t   fucking   leave   her   alone.   And   not   in   the   way   she   sometimes   wishes   he   would   when   her   mom   yells   she   needs   to   get   her   shit   together.

“   I’m   –   I’m   fine.   let’s   just   get   out   of   here,   ”   she’s   clinging   to   his   bicep,   nails   dig   into   skin   without   noticing   (   she   always   looks   for   comfort   in   Luke   lately.   An   anchor   --     a   safety   net   ).   But   she’s   still   shaking,   and   her   mascara   is   running   and   that   means   she’s   crying   again,   “   can   I   --   can   I   crash   at   the   garage   with   you   tonight…?   ”

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Alexa Demie as Maddy Perez Euphoria 2x01 | Trying to Get to Heaven Before They Close the Door

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       EVEN THE HOMECOMING QUEEN CRIES   …     as written by nosta.

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@pahtterson @hopelass

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photos by @themichaeldonovan on ig of @jessiebergg on ig

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       EVEN THE HOMECOMING QUEEN CRIES   …     as written by nosta.

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NOWHERE TO BE FOUND BY THEQUEERKIWI IS SUCH A MADDY DUMPING NATE SONG IM THRIVING

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IT’S  JUST  MY  FUTURE,  A  WINNER  NOT  A  LOSER    —-  NOTHING  ANYONE  CAN  SAY  CAN  MAKE  IT  ANY  OTHER  WAY !

independent  &  selective    MARTY  MCFLY    primarily  based  on  ‘back to the future: the musical’   with  major  movie,  video game   &   comic  influences.    by  kitty.    prev:   HEAVYTM.

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       EVEN THE HOMECOMING QUEEN CRIES   …     as written by nosta.

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details @ betsey johnson fall 2015

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i just think it’s truly sad that maddy was so focused on pleasing nate and her other partners because it gave her an ego boost, that she had to watch p*rn to ‘better learn’. like she didn’t even watch it for pleasure, she just did it because she wanted to ‘be better in bed’, and as an impressionable teen girl subjected to the way p*rn treats women and expects women to cater to men in sometimes really violent ways, that’s so unhealthy and i just want to hug her and tell her she doesn’t have to please anyone during any kind of intimacy!!!

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i hope someone beats nate jac/obs to death with a shovel : )

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pahtterson​:

    it’s very rare that he wakes up first ,   or before  10 : 30 am  ,   for that matter .         luke  adds  the  sunlight  peeking  through  the  curtains  and  the  clock  reading   …   well,   earlier,    to  the  list  of  things  that  are  different  with  maddy.       and  for  a  boy  who’s  never  had  commitment  issues  as  far  as  his  band  is  concerned,    it’s  a  good  different.        caring  about  someone  rather  than  something.        it’s  an  aspect  of  that  connection  he  always  preaches  about,   that  he  longs  for,     so  when  he  was  asked  to  stay  the  night  prior,    luke  said  yes  maybe  a  little    TOO    enthusiastically.        but  there’s   nothing   he  wants  from  her  other  than  her  company  and  the  little  jewels  on  her  eyelids.  

     he  counts  them,   each  eye,   multiple  times  when  he  wakes  before  her.     he  listens  to  a  lawnmower  in  the  distance  as  he  taps  his  knuckle  against  the  headboard.      he  stops  trying  to  figure  out  how  he  got  here,    and  enjoys  it  instead.

    that’s  how  the  music  comes  to  him.      it  always  inevitably  does,    but  this  is  just  a  casual  inkling  of  an  idea,   a  sweet  melody  from  deep  in  his  subconscious  brought  forward  by  the  way  maddy’s  knee  charmingly  jerks  into  his  abs  on  occasion.       because  of  this,    luke  thinks  she’s  awake  about  five  times  before  she  actually  is  and  keeps  humming  mindlessly,    blissfully  anyway.       even  when  she’s  doused  in  fatigue   (  beautifully  so,  ),   there’s  this  quality  to  her  that  makes  him  want  to  kiss  her.       there  always  is,   whether  she’s  commanding  a  crowd  or  sleeping  peacefully.       someday,   he’ll  be  talented  enough  a  writer  to  put  his  tongue  on  it.

      ❛   you  showed  me  how  you  do  that  magic  winged  eyeliner.         that’s  not  nothing.   ❜         he  teases,    albeit  gently,    knowing  what  she  means  and  hoping  his  point   (   that  he  was  in  heaven  regardless ,   )    comes  across.         ❛    —   uh,   i  dunno.         ‘could  be  if  i  get  the  tune  written  down.        i  don’t  really  wanna  move,   though,   so  it’s  gonna  have  to  wait.   ❜  

                  He     brings     out     a     side   in     her     that     she     doesn’t     feel     entirely     familiar     with     –          she     cannot     help     but   compare     it     to     her     time     with     Nate.     she   compares     every     boy     with     Nate,     and     now     she     realizes     it’s     not     even     because     Nate     was     the     best,     but     because     he     left     the   biggest     fucking     scar     on     her.     But     Luke     is     sunshine     and     butterflies     in     her     stomach,     all     those     fucking     stupid     things   that     she     would     think     were     real     when     she     was     twelve.     Perhaps,     in     a     way,     she   still     thinks     they     are     real     –     it’s     not     that     Maddy     isn’t     romantic     in     her     own     right;     maybe     it’s     just     that     she’s     never     really     had     the     best     examples     of     how    love     is     supposed     to     work     in     her     life.

                         “     you’re     welcome.     it   looks     sick     on     you,     by     the     way     –     really     brings     out     your     eyes,     ”     she     chuckles,     shifts     on     her     side     to     lie     back   her     head     on     his     chest     (     there’s     something     oddly     comforting     about     the     way     his   arms     hold     her,     because     she     doesn’t     feel   as     if     they     could     suffocate     her     to     death     ),     “     you’re     gonna     use     it     on    your     next     gig,     right?     ”     a     playful     pout,     raising     her     head     to     meet     his     gaze,   she     takes     a     clawed     finger     and     gently     brushes     against     the     small     gems     that     haven’t    come     off     during     the     night.     it’s     scary    to     her,     that     a     boy     could     be     so     beautiful     –     not     hot,     not     handsome,     not     fuckable     …     he’s     beautiful.    

                      “     mom’s     still     working.   I     think     she     took     the     longer     shift     again,     ”     her     dad     hasn’t     come     home     two    nights     in     a     row,     but     by     now,     that’s    grown     to     feel     like     normal     (     Cassie     would     often     talk     about     how     hard     it     was   when     her     dad     took     off     –     Maddy     doesn’t    care     if     hers     comes     back     or     not,     because     it’s     not     like     it     makes     a     big   difference,     either     ways     ),     “     sooo     …   that     means     we     have     the     house     for     a     few     more     hours,     ”     pearly     -     white     smile   flashes     through     her     lips     –          if     this   were     anyone     else,     they     would     not     be     fully     dressed,     and     they     would     be     going     again.     that’s     not     on     her     mind     at     the   moment,     she     just     wants     to     hear     him     talk   about     that     song     (     and     that’s     the    weird     thing,     she     never     cared     for     any     of    the     things     Nate     took     pride     in     ),   “     tell     me     more     about     that     song.     there’s     paper     on     the     desk     in     case     you    wanna,     I     dunno,     do     the     writing     down     thing.     ”