katesmadworld

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“And I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us any more.”

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I don't think most people understand the urge to kill yourself every time you do something wrong

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I want to escape myself. I want to shed my skin and run away. My body feels like a prison. I want to get out.

broken thoughts

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“And if you’re going to love me, you need to know that I am a complete mess. I cry whenever someone raises their voice and I always think that I’m never good enough because in the past that’s been the case. I cry whenever I start to even remotely think about my future because I don’t know who I am without this sadness and I don’t think I’m ever going to get better. I love animals way too much so I’m always bringing strays home. I get attached way too easily and I don’t know how to keep a conversation going. There’s days when everything is too much and I won’t speak to a single soul so please don’t take offense when I don’t return your calls. I come with a lot of baggage so you should know that I am no ray of sunshine and I am not made of fairy dust and everything pink and sunny. I am made of heartache, tears and sadness. If you’re going to love me, you should know that I open up way to easily and it leaves me with nothing for myself and that hurts. I let people take pieces of me whenever they decide to leave so I’m hoping that you won’t do that. As much of a realist that I am, I love romance. I don’t believe in a prince saving me, but I do believe in unicorns and ghosts. I always say my favorite color is blue, but if you ask me why I don’t have a happy meaning for it. I haven’t been to my father’s grave since the day we put him in the ground and that eats away at me. Holidays are always hard even though I always have a smile on my face. If you ask me what’s wrong more than likely I’ll say that nothing is wrong and that I am in fact fine. This is far from the truth. I am never fine, but there are days when I’m okay and if you can’t understand that then you should not be telling me you love me. I’m scared of love and what it does to people so if at times I push you away I am sorry. So I guess what I’m trying to say if that I am no picnic in the park and I hope that you can still say you love me. I am not for everyone, but I hope I am for you.”

— Deeply Feeling Series // via promisesofamazing

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Am I the only person who feels pressure from nothing?? What tf is going on rn? What I do, what I want, WHY. My heart is broken I've learned to live with that. But pressure from I don't know NOTHING?? And nobody can help me?? That shit is fucking crazy. And of course I can't do anything?? What I do. WHAT I FUCKING DO?? I can't wait anymore... I am loosing my power...

~random night thoughs~

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“Your life is your own. DON’T waste it trying to be what others expect you to be. DON’T sacrifice your happiness to make everybody happy. DON’T give up on your dreams to build other people’s dreams. Be who you want to be.”

— Unknown (via naturaekos)

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“Stress, anxiety and depression are caused when we live to please others.”

— Paulo Coelho (via naturaekos)

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“You can be lonely even when you are loved by many people, since you are still not anybody’s one and only.”

— Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

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Because people are monsters

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Don’t fall in love with me. There are days when I get sad without a reason and I just stare at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face. Don’t fall in love with me. On those days, I don’t talk to anyone. I just bury myself in my bed and think about how I became this mess of sadness. Don’t fall in love with me. I will become attached to you and I will cry myself to sleep if you don’t text me good night before you go to sleep and I will convince myself that it’s because you got tired of me. Don’t fall in love with me. I’m too much. I will depend on you. I need attention, much more than other people. I’ll talk to you in metaphors and make you one. I’ll write poems about you and opening up my skin at 2 A.M. Don’t fall in love with me. I couldn’t stand you coming home to find me on the bathroom floor shaking and crying, with blood spilling from my wrists. I couldn’t stand seeing the disappointment in your eyes. Don’t fall in love with me. I will pour everything I’ve left of me into you, every bit of love, until I have nothing to give. Until I become completely empty. Don’t fall in love with me. I’m scared that my sadness is contagious. Don’t fall in love with me. I will replay your sweet words in my head when I hate myself so much that I want to die. Your words will be the only thing that make me stay. Don’t fall in love with me. You will live in fear. You won’t be able to leave me, because you’d know if you did, I wouldn’t have anything to live for. Don’t fall in love with me. Before I met you, there wasn’t a single person who could’ve made me stay. You’re my reason now. Don’t fall in love with me. Because I will fall in love with you.

Unknown writer (via xdisturbed-mind)

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