kash-heals

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once u hit styro u never go back

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chat i'm so eepy if anyone needs me i'm gonna be crying in my bed

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“you’re doing sm better now” thanks i’m pretending!

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whatever happens i love you and i hope you can be safe. whatever happens please dont become a suicide statistic. i love you. you will be safe one day i promise.

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i wasnt lying when i said that you meant everything to me

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I'm afraid there is nothing normal about the way I feel for you. You make my blood hot and give me the shakes by simply existing. I'd do anything for you.

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yo anxious as hell to upload this but if your struggling to eat, heres a 13 minute video of me yapping and eating <3

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Please please please let me get what I want (being able to cut myself without people worrying)

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♡ : my heart is so rotten, yet you're the only one who is not grossed out of holding it on your hands. I'll give it to you; my life, my purpose, my soul, they all spin around you like you're the sun.

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tw : sh // self destructive behavior

want to hit styros again deeper preferably. but don’t wanna see the look of concern on my brothers or my bfs face. i feel like shit. especially knowing my brothers gf (fucking love her) battles with sh too i don’t wanna add to that stress but like fuck i can feel my skin i’m sorry damn it . not to mention my bf (the best in the damn world) is in recovery so like fuck. part of me just wants to go to my brother and tell him how i’m feeling but idk man what if he doesn’t get it and i feel worse idk. i don’t want to tell my bf (has nothing to do with trust it’s because i support his recovery 100% and i don’t want to trigger him into a relapse. he’s been doing so good and i don’t want to fuck that up.) i feel like fucking shit because i just did it.. (used to sh daily but since my dad got custody of us life has been way , drastically better so i slowed down but like its apart of me now.) idk how to explain that everything can be going perfectly (it is) and i still feel the need to fucking bleed. i hate this part about myself. feeling like the only way i can function is if im bleeding and self destructing . wtf.

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"It doesn't have to be like this. We could have it so much better"

Calligraffiti in Chicago, Illinois

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cvtting your name on people who’ve never cvt before>>>

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no school for me today. ^.^

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I need a cigarette and a monster

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sorry for trying to kill myself when you talked to someone else, do you still think i'm cute?

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yan culture is being so obsessed with someone that you don’t even care if they ignore you and hurt you … but at the same time , wanting their attention so desperately that you start to care.

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