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Little Makeshift Family- part 1 ( prologue)

Ongoing story, click here to continue reading <3 ( it is on wattpad btw)

It was a quiet evening, strange considering it was halloween. Children would normally be running all over knocking on doors and trying to find the lucky house that gave out chocolate frogs or the occasional full sized Botts every flavor beans.

But it seemed like the world knew of the tragedy that had happened. The one that took place at Godrics Hollow, marking an end to the raging war.

Severus certainly knew, before the order even caught wind of it he was already fleeing towards the house.

He was horrified at the eerie silence of the house, broken by the terrified cries of a baby.

He barely registered the body lying limp at the threshold before making his way to the person he really came for. He found lily on the second floor in the nursery, the baby crying for his mother as severus clutched her body.

" no lily, no no no...." he trailed off into sobs.

He let out a cry, causing harry more distress but at this point he felt like his heart had been shattered.

He was supposed to meet lily next week, at a tavern to reconcile. Severus had gotten over his love for lily a long time ago but the one thing he always regretted was never making things right.

So when she reached out he was overjoyed, not that he'd show it but he was. She herself sounded happy when he finally said yes, shrieking excitedly over the fire when they talked to reconfirm.

But now it was all ripped away from him in a second, all because of the 'Dark Lord' he so called worshipped.

He turned his attention to the baby and walked over to him. Using a spell, he wiped off the blood dripping from his scar.

" shhh." He said softly, taking him in his arms.

" lets get you to the order."

His tone was solemn and harry slowly stopped crying, sniffling softly.

Then there was a crash downstairs and severus immediately jumped. Carefully walking down the stairs he held his wand close and harry even closer.

As he descended the stairs, the source of the noise became clear and severus' eyes widened.

" potter!" He yelled, running down as james struggled to stand.

" Snivilus? What the hell are you-?" James' eyes went from severus to harry and it seemed like all the events of that night came flooding back.

" no no- is lily-?!"

" you dont want to go up there." Severus held a hand to his chest.

" let me through."

" you're weak, and you.....im sure you already know what you're going to see up there." Severus looked down.

But ever so stubbornly james insisted. It was to the point where he was about to collapse from sheer exhaustion and severus took matters into his own hands.

Hooking his elbow around james' he stopped his squirming.

And without warning the three left the scene with a 'pop'.

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Severus sat next to james' hospital bed, silently mulling over what happened until he heard sheets stir.

James opened his eyes and immediately sat up. He looked around frantically, clutching at his shirt until he finally caught sight of severus.

" Snivilus, what are you doing here?" He panted.

Severus crossed his legs, leaning back into the chair.

" who else would be here?"

James sighed, looking around confused.

" where's harry?"

" i dropped him off at Blacks. I couldn't legally take him with you unconscious."

James sighed and held his head in his hands, bringing his knees close to his chest.

" oh god. Lily she.....she didn't make it did she?"

Severus looked down, fidgeting with his hands in hopes to stop the shaking.

" she was already dead when i arrived."

This received a choked off response and a shuddering breath. James covered his face, trying to keep it together but failing.

" guess you got what you wanted huh? Happy Potter family ruined." James spat bitterly.

Severus' eyes widened.

" are you serious? This is what you're thinking of right now?"

" oh dont deny it. I know you hated our relationship, probably too busy falling in love with my wife."

" Potter this isn't a time to pick fights with me."

" oh really? Then when is? I wake up after getting attacked by a manic wizard and then i see YOU of all people carrying my son!"

" i was trying to help! I thought you were dead!"

" well guess i got lucky then. My wife is dead but hey, at least you're here." James looked angry, eyes wide and cold.

Severus scoffed.

" you're clearly in grief. Ill take my leave. Goodbye potter." Severus stood up swiftly and walked away, swinging the door open and leaving.

As soon as he did james regretted it. He wished he wasn't alone, even if it was his former nemesis.

He was confused and angry and he was lashing out due to it. Plus severus wasn't exactly the face he wanted to see.

But honestly it was better than no one.

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One month later. November 30th, a full month of the new war-less world and severus was sitting beside a hospital bed once again. He should've been happy, not having to deal with the ongoing battle anymore.

But for peace, they gave happiness in return.

" hello." Severus said blankly, not looking up from his book while james woke up.

After the first few days he stopped getting surprised severus was there and instead just stared blankly at the ceiling.

Grief takes many forms, but for james it seemed like he was a monotonous zombie now.

He barely ate, barely talked. Just sat in his hospital room laying in bed.

Of course severus was there, and the occasional Sirius to try and cheer him up. Remus came a few times, even brought the baby.

But no matter what, nobody could get through to James.

" i brought you breakfast. Hot chocolate and a scone." Severus pointed towards the food set next to his bed on the side table.

" magic hospital or not the food must really suck."

It felt like talking to a brick wall but if he didn't severus was gonna lose his mind. Severus turned towards the 'breakfast' the nurses brought for him, the bland sludge sitting untouched in the safety of its bowl.

" oatmeal?"

" or cardboard that looks like oatmeal. Probably more accurate."

Severus almost jumped from hearing James' voice after so long but he chose not to give a reaction.

" hm. Sounds about right." Severus nodded.

James sat up, grabbing the hot chocolate in his hands and taking a sip. The familiar winter chill was starting to settle in.

He was pale and his hands had turned bony. Tear marks and red eyes from lack of sleep and the crying was evident on his face. He looked so hollow. It was hard to see.

" so....you're getting discharged tonight. Excited? You can get harry back." Severus commented, closing his book softly.

James stopped all movements and swallowed. He set the to go cup in his lap, picking at the lid.

" do i have to go back to Godrics hollow?" He asked, feeling shivers travel down his spine just from the thought.

" not if you dont want to. Im sure Black or Lupin could make accommodations. Anyone in the Order would be happy to-"

" what about you? Where do you live?"

Severus was surprised by this, from all the people in the world who would kill to give a home to these two James asks him.

" im a teacher at Hogwarts so i gotta stay close. I live in a small house in Hogsmeade."

James nodded, still picking at his cup to the point severus was scared he was gonna burrow a hole into it.

" its two bedrooms. Spacious but im afraid Harry wouldn't have his own nursery. Then again we could always turn the closet into one."

James looked up with wide eyes, surprised severus was actually considering letting them stay. Severus rolled his eyes at the bewildered look james was giving him.

" relax i was kidding, im not gonna stick your child in a closet, what kind of monster does that?"

" no no. Its not that uh....I didn't think you'd actually consider it." James traveled off then looked away.

Severus smiled to himself then shrugged.

" its for lily's sake. She would've wanted her child and husband safe. So i will do everything in my power to ensure that. Even if it means living with you."

James snorted, pursing his lips in a kind of sad smile.

" then do you mind if we stay with you? I just know that if we go anywhere else then they'll make a big deal out of it. You're the only one that doesn't make me feel like your walking on eggshells."

" of course."

" just until i find a place for me and harry. Then we'll be out of your hair."

" sure. No problem. Stay as long as you need."

" thank you."

Severus hummed in response and James gave a sheepish smile before he decided it was time to look at the scone severus had brought.

Quietly severus reopened his book, sipping on his own coffee while james enjoyed his breakfast.

Hm. Living with the Potters. That'll be interesting.

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It was in fact interesting. Around 5 pm was when james was discharged, Dumbledore and Mcgonagal even came to check on him.

After countless ' no im fine, really im fine's they finally got a move on.

Members of the order had so lovingly packed all of james' things for him so that he didn't even have to set foot in his house.

Probably for the best since the robot man they call James Potter was one more traumatic experience away from losing his mind.

But for now here they were, standing outside of Severus' humble little cottage.

" i know it must be smaller than what you're used to but it does the job." Severus added, feeling a little defeated already.

" no no i like it. Its....quaint. It reminds me of hogwarts."

" well considering we're less than 20 minutes away from hogwarts i would think so."

James snorted, the first time severus has heard him laugh in a while.

James wasn't one to grieve, even with the loss of his parents he didn't really show much emotion but for the past month he had completely shut down.

It was nice seeing him at least react.

" shall we go in?" Severus gestured to the door.

James nodded, going to pick up his luggage but severus was already floating them in the air and into the house. One by one his suitcases wafted into the house so james followed his belongings.

Upon entering he almost laughed. It was almost bare, not much lighting, not even picture on the walls.

It was almost too Severus Snape.

" i know its bare but i dont spend much time here. Good news for you probably." Severus stood next to him after seeing james' amused look.

The comment made james sad, that severus wasn't around much because he wasn't sure how he was going to handle alone time.

" uh but feel free to decorate it however you like. Honestly it needs the renovation. Chances are ill be living here for as long as i teach so its good if it looks like someone actually lives here."

James' luggage was floated upstairs by severus' magic, up the steps into what james was assuming was his room.

" the bedrooms are upstairs, kitchen down that hallway, living room across it. I was thinking i could add a room on the second floor, could probably magic one but I'll have to ask Dumbledore." Severus mumbled while walking down said hallway.

James followed him to the kitchen and again, he wasn't surprised at the completely bare atmosphere.

" you dont cook much do you?" James asked.

" oh. Well i eat at school so there's never really a reason for me to." Severus shrugged.

" so you wouldn't mind if i used this kitchen?"

" make it your own personal sanctuary. Just dont go into my office. Its at the back of the house and it has a lot of rare potions in it."

James raised his eyebrows and walked around the kitchen, admiring the nice marbled countertops.

" will do. Uh when is harry coming here?"

" oh, Lupin said he will bring him around 7 pm. Apparently Black is having a hard time saying goodbye."

" sounds like Sirius."

" it does."

There was brief silence, followed by some tense inhales and then james finally broke it.

" im gonna uh, check upstairs."

" oh yeah go ahead." Severus nodded.

James bounded up the stairs, checking out the rooms while severus collected his bearings.

Oh god this was gonna be really interesting.

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The line between love and hate | jeverus

FIRST CHAPTER: read here for rest of the story

Severus was tired.

He lived a comfortable life in a beautiful victorian home in a secluded area just for his family.

Only his family was far too small for his liking.

It was just him and his husband. It was an arranged marriage, one of convenience more than love.

He was living with a man who didn't love him and a house too cold and distant to call a home.

He used to be in love. She had fiery red hair and piercing green eyes. They had known each other since the 4th grade, grew up together and loved each other.

But life had different plans for their love, one that ended only in misery and sadness.

She was killed their senior year in college. Driving home for Christmas sent her poor car skidding off the icy roads and off a cliff.

Severus couldn't bare himself to love again. His heart had a hole the size of his best friend and love of his life.

And nothing could fill it, not even the man he called his husband.

Severus was tired. He was a wildly successful chemist. He was respected in his field and was even granted tenure some time ago.

Chemical engineering was his dream, but his home life was not.

Every day he slept by the warm body of James Potter. He was rich, powerful and a great asset to the Snapes. Hence their marriage.

But now it was nearly 2 years later and they were barely a couple. They didn't even try, well at least james didn't.

He didn't bother to hide the mistresses he brought home when he thought severus would be in late. Of course severus would turn a blind eye, not like he loved him. Still didn't change the fact it sent a sharp pang in his heart.

Severus was tired. And now he was having supper with said husband, picking at the food his cook had worked hard to make.

" lets go out tomorrow." Severus said blankly.

James looked up, spoon mid air from his stew.

" sorry?"

" lets go out tomorrow. Been ages since we've done something together." Severus sipped from his cup of water.

James looked down and stirred his stew.

" sorry. Im busy."

" is it jen this time?" Severus tilted his head.

James' eyes widened and his head snapped up.

" jen?" James acted oblivious. Severus hummed and nodded.

" Jennifer. You're newest toy. Or are you still with Margaret?" Severus rest his elbow on the table.

James looked down in shame and gulped, clearing his throat and reaching for his own cup of water.

James was powerful yes, but he had remarkable patience. He rarely got mad, which severus was thankful for.

It made his life bearable.

" or your new assistant. Kasey? Karen? Whats her name again?"

" kendra." James refused to look him in the eye.

Severus sighed in satisfaction. At least he was admitting it.

" kendra, yes. Lovely girl, although she seems to have trouble getting all her buttons up no?" Severus quirked an eyebrow.

James was getting increasingly nervous, and severus was enjoying it.

" oh come on James. You couldn't have fooled me much longer. Not like i care all that much anyway." Severus stood up and set his utensils down gently.

He walked the length of the table where james was sitting opposite of him and gently put his hand on his right shoulder.

" im going to go compliment the cook. Do think about it yeah?" He pat his shoulder and walked to the kitchens.

James was left shocked and speechless. A shiver went down his spine.

James may be a cheater but he was a good person, and he felt immense remorse.

More than that he felt hurt. His husband didn't care he was having an affair, and it hurt like hell.

James wouldn't admit it ever but he was actually quite fond of severus.

They had been married 2 years and james couldn't help but admire him from afar. It was silly really. They were husbands but james couldn't seem to get any closer than they were 2 years ago. 

So he looked from afar. He admired how his hair had grown so much it was practically at his waist.

How his pin straight hair flowed like silk after him when he walked. His elegant arms and gentle touch. The way his hands weaved through ingredients and elements when making one of his concoctions.

Or how he was remarkably tall. They were the same height but Severus towered over most.

He wasn't traditionally beautiful. His hair was flat and his nose was a bit crooked but to james he was radiant.

But he would never admit it. He would never admit that he only slept with those women because the real person he loved seemed to despise him. Because he knew severus didn't feel the same. And it hurt.

It hurt like hell.

( this is a complete story. Im a jeverus writer so if ur in need of some jeverus fics i got u )