k3wutethingz

[k3wutethingz]

the little joy in my day

when i starve myself i tend to be more blunt and less energetic so just now i was on a call with this dude who basically thinks im his soul mate (hes older too so its kinda weird). but anyways i havent eaten and before going on a call w him i warned him i wasnt going to be as energetic. he asked what i ate since he knows i have an ed and started talking about food which got me a little annoyed so i left polity the call. so then he texted me saying hes gona be on a hunger strike untill he gets a "picture of those pretty eyes". so i texted him to starve. i just thought that was funny

[k3wutethingz]

yk it really really super duper fucking sucks how before getting into my first relationship i was totally stable and yes it was my first so i did have to learn and adapt how to take care of myself as well as my partner. it sucks tho that my mentality of relationships was very "normal" ig i could say. where if he ever mentioned a girl i wouldnt mind at all bc its normal to have a gf. though being with him he was the complete opposite wanting me to isolate myself from any other guys and he even loved it when i was obserdly possessive over him as well. im not a possessive person and never really have (at least not to his weird extent) but the controlling possessive factor of him kind of grew on me. when we where dating i would sorta pretend to be jelous over small things just cuz i knew he liked that but now days when talking to a guy abt a girl hes interacted with i always am sort of awkward about it and feel like i need to apologize for being an invading creep. What my main problem is is that since getting out of the relationship i sorta got his fucked up creepy traits while he gained my good traits which was more self confidence.

[k3wutethingz]

i shouldve cheated on my ex

just for fun.. i should have cheated on him

[k3wutethingz]

Feederism as an anorexic

so ive heard about feederism and tbh i can kinda understand why people like it. being able to take care of someone bc theyve gotten so bad to a point where they cant. now that i really think of it i think i just like the idea of being taken care of like that. but instead of being fed id just rather have a guy shame me for trying to eat.

[k3wutethingz]

ex update

he watched the movie with the girl and only her... he told me tho that she made no signs that she liked him and him the same. ig i can believe that but the fact that they even hung out by themselves still gets me weirded out. so i think ima stay clear..

[k3wutethingz]

i swear i need constant attention in my life. also constant control over something cuz if not then i go crazy. like rn. self loathing type shit. back to the point though. i crave attention so much. of course as a kid i never had a lot. so now days i self obsess, have ed's and buy new clothes just so anyone could notice. ofc no one gives a shit.

[k3wutethingz]

fml

my ex who ive told not to ever contact me in now watching fnaf with his friend group and a girl hes been talking to🐱‍🚀 context> i randomly texted him and he said he was at the movies and sent a picture of popcorn and a hello kitty n gloomy stuffed animals... ........ ..... ... gloomy used to be my thing btw :l i told him id text him later so we'll see what happens!

[k3wutethingz]

i wana girl whos a friend who can relate to me. so applications r open. honestly i think itd just be fun to talk to a pretty girl who i can relate to with the tags. :D or just comment somthing random like hows life

[k3wutethingz]

into !

hey, ima 5'7 f17 whos been trying to lose weight for a while so i got many valid tips if anyone needs them. i ofc need help to as someone who has questions. im also super lonely tho tbh so if anyone wana talk then just hmu cuz im here :3