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You shift the 4D first, the 3D only follows

The 3D is your physical world. What you see, hear, smell, feel.

The 4D is your internal world, what you think, tell yourself, affirm, imagine.

The 3D is a mirror that reflects what's in the 4D.

In other words, if you want to shift your 3D you have to shift your 4D first.

Why do so many people say shifting is about your awareness? Because ALL you need to do is become aware of your desired reality.

It doesn't matter if you can feel your current reality the senses change last.

Your mental awareness of your DR will shift before your physical senses do so stop focusing on the physical world around you.

Your job is to shift your 4D, SO STOP POURING ALL OF YOUR FOCUS ON WETHER OR NOT YOU CAN FEEL IT. THE 3D FOLLOWS.

When you're driving you look at the road not the car.

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Me lol

POV:

Me after scripting the most try hard, mary sue, wattpad level shit drama into my dr’s

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I really like using tumblr. It really comforting and almost intimate if that makes sense.

Think of like twitter and insta merged but 100 times better.

Love it 🌸

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Too real

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Betrayed (Nightwing x reader oneshot)

This oneshot was from when I was 13 so you might cringe. In this AU, Nightwing is not part of Young Justice, but the Teen Titans.

Your mood was flat and your face was a perfect reflection of it. To be honest, a permanent scowl had graced your face for the past few months. There was no reason to smile, so you didn't. Why should you? Why should you sit around act like nothing happened, act like you're fine? No, you were not okay but you didn't know how to fix it, what to do. It was like in this bubble of despair with no way to pop it. Nothing could get you out and it controlled your every move.

Today, Young Justice was having a meeting with the Titans team and you were ecstatic about it. Please note the sarcasm. You weren't ecstatic at all, in fact, you were livid but also miserable. More miserable than livid though. Still, you couldn't fathom how he could easily walk in with his team and feel comfortable with your presence being there. In fact, how dare he. Nightwing, how dare he.

Deathstroke and the Joker had teamed up and it was Young Justice and the Titans team responsibility to stop them. The meeting was set up by both Superboy and Nightwing to come up with a strategy to prevent them from doing anything destructive. Only the senior members of the Young Justice team could attend and all of Titans had to be there since there was about 5 of them.

Your attention shifted to the Zeta Tube as you witnessed the Titans team walk through. Shivers went through your back and the whole world became a blur. You saw him there in all his glory. Nightwing equalled beauty. You hated yourself for thinking that way but you couldn't help it. You still had some type of feeling for him as love didn't just disappear in a blink of an eye. It gradually came away but for some people, falling out of love took years.

Nightwing and his team came forward as they greeted everyone. You personally didn't go up to them as you couldn't face him especially with his new partner all up on him, hands intertwined and everything. Superboy spoke next.

'Okay guys, let's start this meeting and finish hastily.'

The whole meeting went by in a blur. To be truthful you weren't paying any attention to what the others were saying because my mind was constantly distracted. It was infested with thoughts of him being near you. You couldn't help it, you just wanted him away from you. But the most prominent thing to you about the whole meeting was his eyes. Those eyes which once held love and care for you were now cold and stern. His eyes darted back and forth, always returning to settle at the sight of you.

You felt his eyes pierce through you so you stared straight back. No one dared to move for several minutes while you guys were in this position. It was as though you were in your own personal staring contest, but it wasn't so private because the others were noticing. You didn't seem to care, but it was clear that he did. He averted his gaze as he couldn't stand the intensity of the others' stars. Your face was adorned with a triumphant grin. He was a fucking bitch and felt like shit

After the meeting, you were on your way out. Someone grabbed your hand unexpectedly. When you turned around, you saw him: Nightwing. You stared at each other for what felt like an eternity. He spoke first.

'Hey, Y/N' he said. 'It's been a while since we've seen each other.'

His voice was thick and raspy with some sort of emotion, but it was unclear. You, yourself couldn't find your voice and stared at the man, shock still apparent in your features. Nightwing spoke again but you could hear the emotion clear in his voice now. Uncertainty

' I know you probably don't want to speak to me but...'

You were the one that cut him off. "This is not the place or the time to discuss personal matters. It's inappropriate."

You led him out of the main room into the hallway so you could both talk, seeing how desperate he was to speak with you. You could feel the others' intense stares on your back, and you felt quite uneasy. He continued as soon as you were farther away from the others.

"I know what I did was wrong, but I was just falling out of love with you. It's natural and it happens. But I still should have handled the situation in a more mature way. I hate this tension between us. Ive lost such a wonderful person in my life and I hate the way we ended. I've found someone new and I want the same for you. So can we be friends y/n? Work it out in some way"

Those words hurt like a dagger to the chest. He was falling out of love with you. You weren't worthy of his love, weren't good enough for him so he went and cheated on you with some random bitch. But then this bastard wanted your forgiveness. After all he did to you, he still wanted to be friends. Wanted to work it out but came here with the flimsiest, most deflated, fucked up apology ever.

'Freinds!'

Hysterically, that's how you laughed, hysterically.

'Please don't tell me you actually said, friends'

Your voice was deadly calm

"I'm hoping you didn't just say friends, because if you did, you're insane. It's never a good idea to use the words you, me, and friends" in the same sentence. You have no right to ask such a personal question. Do you realise how awful you made me feel? I felt as if I was nothing to you, as if I were unimportant and unwanted. No one was there for me, and you want to approach me and behave as though nothing happened. Dick, you must be crazy and completely wrong. Dick, you abandoned me for Titans and now you want to be my friend. Please don't make me laugh because I can't take you. seriously. Dick, you abandoned me, you cheated, and you hurt me. You left me suicidal and depressed. You made me despise myself. You made every day so difficult to bear. Dick, you did all of this and now you want me to be your friend? You've got to be joking, right?"

'Y/N wait, we ca...'

'No!'

Nightwing was close behind you as you made your way to the Zeta Tube. However, you chose to ignore him, as well as anyone else who was watching. You were exhausted and disappointed, and all you wanted to do was go home. As the events of the previous few months came flooding back, your anger was overwhelming. These memories ate away at your mind like a plague, completely consuming and swallowing you. There was no way out for you-no time out. There was no going back now that this was your life.