justthewaythingsgo

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take your meds please!!!

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how the hell do people work full time AND work out. and also eat. i feel like a dvd player

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you are loved

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i think chase is a very funny character to be a doctor. 25 yo traumatized twink with daddy issues, mommy issues, and catholic guilt. and he's a doctor that's done 3 specialty rotations, got certified in 2 of them, and is also trained in medical hypnotism. and he's absurdly pretty

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I can't believe my ed made me isolate myself that bad, I didn't hang out with anyone outside rehearsal all winter and barely talked to my friends at rehearsal because everyone and everything made me upset

Skinny does NOT taste better than a really good conversation with someone who makes you happy

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anyone else in here bone deep lonely and somewhat off in the head and ribs about it

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Affirm it: I am not behind—I am exactly where I need to be.💖

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When I was deep in my ed I'd be like "I'm saving money by not eating!!!!!"

Consider me humbled this tax season as I realize that 21% of this year's income went to ed treatment & therapy (and that's WITH great insurance through my job).

Fun fact: my higher levels of care would have totaled over $250,000 without insurance. I still spent over $6,000 with insurance. And, though I was suffering and sick, I've been privileged and lucky to be able to continue my treatment in less-insanely-expensive outpatient treatment (vs getting caught in the very real and exhausting and dangerous treatment cycle).

TL;DR: eating disorders end up costing a lot in the end. Physically, emotionally, AND financially.

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take in a deep breath.

now breathe out.

feel the fucking nonsense float away.

take full, deep breaths.

breathe in stength...

breathe out bullshit.

allow your breathing to find its own natural, unhurried pace.

with each breath, feel your body saying:

fuck that

(full Fuck That meditation here)

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folk hero really

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day 6 / ???

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should i start making what i eat in a days? i mean id track what i eat anyways but idk if those are helpful or harmful for other people to see

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it’s cause you’re always on that damn period

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ate chick-fil-a for the first time in a really super long time

it made me anxious at first but it was really yum yum. when i felt full i stopped eating and i even drank calories!

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i love that i'm in a healthy relationship right now but i gotta come to terms with my healthy relationship healthy weight gain