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question to my fellow depressed #exgiftedchildren

am i the only one that cannot for the life of me pick a carrer or even a college major. like nothing is stimulating enough, poli sci doesnt have enough artistic/ creative interest, the artsy majors dont involve enough math... and i'm way too depressed to put myself through a double major, that's way too unrealisti.

i cant be the only one.

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Depression

it’s not that i want to die exactly, it’s more so that i don’t want to live, not this life at least. it’s too much and it’s not enough. and i just, maybe i’m not cut out to handle it

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i need love, and attention, and care.

i need to be hugged, like for real

i need to be kissed, even just a platonic kiss

i need to be asked how my day was on a regular basis

i need to feel seen, and felt, and understood

and honestly, i don’t understand how it could get to a point where i’m so low on human kindness. but right now, i feel like i don’t have anyone

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does anyone else just never stop missing people. like, there’s a good reason why they’re out of my life, they’re either toxic or rude or maybe even i’ve been mean to them and pushed them away but i just can’t seem to get anyone out of my head or my heart or whatever it is that makes me want to talk to them, see how they’re doing, update them on my life...