josheyinreallife

[josheyinreallife]

Hey guys, I haven't been posting for a while for various reasons. Partly due to the fact that Tumblr decided to make me change my email and the other part is I was just busy with living life and haven't really given this much thought. I originally started this because I wanted to adventure and share that with others. It was a way for me to get out of my comfort zone and be okay with myself as a person. I do have a passion for all these things still but as I have progressed so have my goals and ambitions. It's very weird to think that at the beginning of this I was a weirdo loner, sad boy who was living on his parents couch. Because I was able to find my passion I was able to create a vision for my life and everything took off from there. Just to fill you guys in I have been able to travel, get my own place, pay off debt and enroll back in school, and find a career that I allows me to create wealth and stability ,oh and by the way I was able to meet the woman of my dreams, and the love of my life which is what ultimately brings me back here. This all requires self reflection and I definitely look back on the things that got me to this point. Most of my problems mentally have been self inflicted and some are me being a product of my environment. I think back on the times where I didn't want to wake up in the morning and life seemed way to hard.it makes me cringe that I almost robbed myself of what was to come all because I couldn't face my fears. I think about all the heartbreak that happened in my life from my first big break up to my last. Watching someone leave off to school and knowing deep down we weren't going to be together again and crying in my drive way, and once again I find the woman I love heading off to school except my attitude is completely different. We spent our last night together as if it were any other normal summer night. I had work in the morning and tried to fight off sleep and she wanted me to stay up a little longer to talk. I think about how we were looking at houses in the neighborhood and she talked about how she would decorate. I smiled. Then she said "if it's okay with you" because she was able to see a future with me and It was hard to fight back emotions. I woke up the next day and gave her a kiss before work and this time it wasn't goodbye it was "see you later". Admittedly i was saddened but if I had met her sooner this would have never worked. could have never learned and in that moment I am grateful for the immense amount of pain I had felt in my life. It's hard not to believe that the universe doesn't have some kind of weird master plan far beyond my comprehension. She was patient, and kind and came like a thief in the night when I thought I'd never find it. She could find someone else, she could stop loving me and so on and so on. Regardless she will never know how much I love her or the immense amount of joy I feel when I see her smile. In my vision of my life I am waiting for the moment I can put a ring on her finger. Along the way I will become the man I have always wanted to be and live life to the fullest no matter what happens. I will accomplish everything I set out to do and I hope you sad Tumblr kiddos can find happiness. Peace and love

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Squad at sammies play

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Cooking something up

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Sunday Monday adventures

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life rn

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CHRISTMAS WITH THE FAM

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hope everyone had a great christmas. cant wait to share mine with everyone.

hello from max,

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A good friend joe, the man with eyes of fire,who has given me insight on life and has helped me to better understand my journey by sharing some of his own experiences. He is young at heart and that is something I have really come to appreciate about him. I can see truth in his icy blue gaze. To have connected with this man is an honor and a privilege and it has encouraged me to pursue my passion and dream of taking pictures and traveling no matter how scary it is to not lead a normal life and go against the grain. I am riddled with anxiety seeing people I grew up with finishing school,getting married, and having stability in their life as far as careers go . At times I feel like a failure in my own mind but Joe told me my work had touched his spirit therefor I am accomplished. I AM an accomplished photographer, I AM an accomplished poet, I AM an accomplished artist.
I AM the living breathing, everlasting One, therefore I AM great.

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just dropping some casuals

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sitting here listening to paul beribeau and im wondering how did i end up in a place with strangers? i mean, i know the answer but really i didnt expect to actually get up and go. the reality is, i just wanted to go out and do something, experience new people and write about it. i wanted to get out of my shell a little more. everyone was very welcoming and inviting. i simply played the role of a wallflower but sitting there listening is much better than waiting for your turn to speak if im being honest. i never have much to say. even when i do, im just saying things for the sake of existing and contributing, mostly being silly. 

i definitely  deserve the award for greatest gift under fifteen dollars.

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moose

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dec 11, 2016

today was a really good sunday, i woke up early on my day off and did something productive. Not only was it productive, but it was something that i loved. my mind has been cloudy from all the lame heartbreak things, then the grind of life that comes with it. im hear and im cool now though. im back and school and i also have my trip to portland coming up :). cant wait to show you guys.

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highly caffeinated meetings

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little kaydence in the christmas spirit!

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Closer. As close as you can. Closer than the clothes you were wearing, closer than we understand. Closer than a cousin, closer than a woman and man.