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jinx-ism · 4 hours ago

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Jinx & Isha 💙 (based off of JC Leyendecker’s ‘Modern Madonna & Child’)!

#jinx #isha

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jinx-ism · 8 hours ago

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You'll always be in my heart, little one.

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jinx-ism · 8 hours ago

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When Jinx finds out she's pregnant, the first person she goes to isn't Ekko (even though she knows it should be him, all things considered).

No, it's Vi.

Who, despite everything, is her big sister, and she's supposed to know what to do in a situation like this, right? She was the one who welcomed Jinx with open arms when she crawled back from her hideout after healing her wounds from a fall that was supposed to kill her (and almost did, but maybe all the shimmer in her bloodstream was good for something). Yes, it was Vi who defended her in front of the Council, who encouraged her to get a therapist, who's been there for her even when Jinx didn't deserve it - she didn't deserve to be pardoned, she didn't deserve to sit there when Vi married the love of her life, she didn't deserve all the care and understanding that was given to her by her sister.

Jinx doesn't want to burden Vi more than she already does, but she doesn't know who else to go to.

The Kiramman mansion is massive, way too big for the few people it houses, and deep down Jinx is jealous of it all. Vi had asked her to move in but she had quickly declined, the mansion too grand for someone like her. It's strange enough that she can walk in through the front door instead of sneaking in through her sister-in-law's bedroom window like she did in the past.

(The past that's still too alive in Jinx's memory - the past that sometimes burns, burns so bad she's afraid it's going to swallow her whole.)

She finds Vi in the shared study, engrossed in some papers. She does charity work around Zaun now, working closely with Sevika, and it seems to make her happy. She raises her gaze from the papers as she notices movement from the corner of her eye, a smile spreading on her face when she sees Jinx.

"I didn't hear you coming in," she says, and for some reason, Jinx feels bad at that. It's been hard for her to let go of old habits even though it looks like everyone else is moving on, becoming better versions of themselves.

"I'm pregnant," Jinx blurts out, not meaning to start the conversation like that, but she can't hold it in. She watches confusion spread on Vi's face as she takes in her words.

"What?" she says, eyes studying her little sister.

"You heard me," Jinx whispers through her teeth, afraid that someone else could hear them. Caitlyn doesn't seem to be around, and Jinx is grateful for that.

"How long- Wait, when- Wait," Vi stammers. She gets up from the chair she's sitting on and takes a step towards Jinx who is still standing by the door. "Does Ekko know?"

It's like she knows Jinx.

"I found out like, half an hour ago. I don't know where he is," Jinx says. It's true - Ekko works hard with his Firelights, trying to keep the peace between Zaun and Piltover. He always comes home to their tiny, shared apartment late at night, a smile on his face, exhausted but happy.

"How do you feel?" Vi asks, gentle. She reaches for Jinx and Jinx closes the distance between them, almost throwing herself in the hug Vi offers her. It feels safe, like an actual home, and a part of her wants to cry.

She feels like she's Powder again.

"I'm afraid," she says quietly, the words whispered into Vi's shoulder. Vi's hand touches her hair, combing through the blue locks that are slightly messy and overgrown from their short style.

"That's understandable," Vi reasons. She pulls slightly back to see her sister's expression, placing her hands on each side of Jinx's face. "But you're so brave."

"What if I pass on all the crazy?" Jinx asks, the words spilling out of her mouth before she can stop them.

It's really the only thing she's scared of - hell, raising a kid is nothing but scary, but she managed with Isha (well, maybe Sevika helped here and there) and she knows she now has a safety net around her - Ekko, Vi, even Caitlyn - but what if she can't protect the child from herself?

The voices haven't left her, not completely. Most of the time she can manage with them, pushing them to the back of her mind, but there are moments when they take over. She tries to reason with them but they're so mean, so angry at her, reminding her what she has done. Then there are the nightmares, dreams where she loses everything again and again, where she's ultimately reborn as the Jinx she was. Some nights she chooses not to sleep just because she's so afraid of the nightmares, but then the voices come, and she's trapped in her own head, feeling like a lost fucking cause.

"You're not crazy," Vi says strictly, her words pulling Jinx out of her thoughts. She laughs weakly, avoiding Vi's eyes.

"I dunno about that."

"Hey, look at me." Jinx just can't say no to Vi - that's how it has always been. The look in Vi's eyes is soft, almost admiring, and Jinx feels small under it. "You're more capable than you think."

She is capable, but mostly awful, horrendous things. Jinx feels how her mind runs too fast, spewing memories at her - fights, explosions, dead bodies with bullets from her gun inside them. She squeezes her eyes shut, tries to send the images away with pure force.

Vi pulls her against her chest again.

"When I saw you with Isha," Vi starts, careful. She knows Isha is still a sore topic, and will always be. "I knew you'd made a badass of a parent one day. You're so strong, Pow-Pow."

The nickname has stuck despite everything, and Vi is the only one who's allowed to use it. It's childish, really, and Jinx knows she should hate it, but she doesn't - not when it's Vi.

Vi, who gently guides her on the couch and wraps her arms around her in a soothing hug; Vi, who asks without any pressure what she's planning to do; Vi, who offers to be there when she tells Ekko after Jinx quietly whispers that she wants to keep the baby.

#jinx arcane #vi arcane #jinx #vi #timebomb #arcane #by me #this is silly but it's been a brainworm for a few days so i had to get it out #i love protective big sister vi now and forever

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