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I trust Jitty and Sin and I can confirm all of the above events that they have been going through with their home and family. Signal boosting for sending them both Holiday Spirit‼️🦌

Okay... I'll Accept Holiday Letters...

So, anyone who has followed me long enough knows by now how I get around the holidays. Seasonal depression kicks in, and bad memories of old toxic Thanksgivings and Christmases flood my brain any time I see or hear reminders of them. Plus there's some trauma from living in poverty and having very little around the holidays and the only people willing to exploit my mentally ill mother for work was the Salvation Army who basically pay pennies. And there's a whole lot more I don't like, like the cold, Christmas Carols, etc.

However.

The last couple of years I finally got to have proper family holiday get togethers since the toxic people in the family are gone now, and it was very healing for me. I still despise the holidays, don't get me wrong, they are mostly miserable for me. I generally tell people to not address the holidays with me.

But... I've been going through a LOT this year. Especially the last 6 months with my mother being manic and getting her whole life messed up. I've also been dealing with another family member experiencing psychosis on and off as well that I haven't felt comfortable talking about. The results of the election and things Oregon was voting on are not helping me feel any better, and I fear that winter depression is going to be hitting me like a truck. I can feel it creeping in already now that the weather is getting under 40F. On top of that, my family isn't in a state right now where anyone can feasibly host Thanksgiving or Christmas, so it's a bit of a lonely one this year. Sure, I have friends I can spend time with, but I was just getting used to the family dinners. Overall, this is just going to be a very hard winter for me.

And for once, I'm going to ask people to lend a bit of the Holiday Spirit (tm) my way, because I really need some pick-me ups to get through the rest of the year. Basically all I'm asking for is for people to send me letters of encouragement through my PO Box. Gifts and fan art are welcome too, I keep all my fan art safe. I'd prefer not to get flat-out christmas cards unless the cards are really nice or creative and have a lot of thought put into what's written in them. I could just really use some kind words and there's something that feels a lot more personal about physical letters that I can store away and pull out on a rainy day.

Please note I have a pea brain that can't read cursive very well, so if possible I'd prefer it be in plain print or typed out.

If you send treats they need to be shelf stable and properly sealed, no home baked goods.

My P.O. Box: (Can be addressed to Jitterbug or Jack)

16055 SW Walker Rd #274Beaverton, OR, 97006

And if anyone's feeling generous I do have an amazon wishlist that people should be able to buy and send stuff from without needing to be the middleman. I don't update it much and a lot of stuff is outdated but you should be able to organize it by priority to get a better idea of what things I'm most interested in. You can even add other stuff to the order that isn't on the list and it will still be shipped to my P.O. Box!

AMAZON WISHLIST

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never mind

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I hate how this feels.

adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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'Scathing Critic' Tea Blend NOW AVAILABLE!!!

It's a new month and therefor a new My Magic Grandpa tea blend has become available for the public to purchase! This tea is inspired by Suzie's literature teacher who is also a book critic. But don't let him fool you, what's before you isn't human, as Suzie quickly learns in the comic. With soothing chamomile and mint and a dash of turmeric, this is just the right kind of tea to sip while reading another amateur author's book.

You can find the tea HERE

But if you haven't yet, feel free to check out the other My Magic Grandpa tea blends, and consider getting a 6 tea sample set!

My Magic Grandpa tea blends HERE

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I feel awkward knowing how accurate this sense of disconnection feels.

Harrison Wood Hsiang

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Ho ho ho ho!

This is retail

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I grew up as a bipolar (type 1) schizophrenic with OCD and ADHD that picked up trauma along the way! Whee! :D

I love how my journey has been

Aw look I made an autistic horse and people are saying he's very good rep

Funny, I based a lot of his behaviors on my own but that probably doesn't mean anything I'm just a weird ADHD weirdo

Oh people are suggesting I might have autism now, and I guess I do have a lot of similarities

Time to binge a bunch of autism youtubers to try to understand this better

Oh I just might have autism but I dunno if it's worth testing for

Huh. Guess my friends who have autism very strongly suspect I have it too

Actually I dug up my childhood assessments of behavior and jesus christ that is an extremely autistic child

I better find a way to confirm a diagnosis just to be sure

autism assessment therapist after 1 session: yeah you very much come off as autistic especially in childhood

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He also loves to guilt trip and make emotional threats like it's an addiction.

can't believe there's an asshole out there who believes most queer people only like conventionally attractive body types just because the only queers he surrounds himself with do

*this same person thinks even remotely overweight people are gross and that no self respecting queer person would be into "ugly" bodies. Also sprinkle in some ableism where he thinks autistic people aren't worth being friends with

Wish I could call him out on his BS buuut he's the one that's actually not worth it and it's better I just deprogram the person he gaslighted into feeling gross about themselves now that they're away from him and doing MUCH better

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He really is an asshole and willfully ignorant to how he affects others.

can't believe there's an asshole out there who believes most queer people only like conventionally attractive body types just because the only queers he surrounds himself with do

*this same person thinks even remotely overweight people are gross and that no self respecting queer person would be into "ugly" bodies. Also sprinkle in some ableism where he thinks autistic people aren't worth being friends with

Wish I could call him out on his BS buuut he's the one that's actually not worth it and it's better I just deprogram the person he gaslighted into feeling gross about themselves now that they're away from him and doing MUCH better

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Coming up with the design with @jitterbugjive was really fun. Mr Brookes being a fearmonger is based on my biggest fear: failure. The opposite being success meant it's a "black and white, heads and tails" feeling. Also, I love monochrome with a dash of color.

Originally, he had a pony design that I have buried in my computer somewhere and was named "Checkmate" because he was based on Chess and is still very much inspired by the game pieces.

Also, his name is meant to have a hidden word: rook. Yes, I went full ham on his name and designs as a human and fearmonger. Jitty was wonderful at being the one to draw it out, and really awesome to include my character to fit a role in his major project of My Magic Grandpa. Plugging~ @mymagicgrandpa

See how many Chess references you can find with him when he shows up. ;3

Got an art request to draw Mr Brookes from the Part of the Family patron! Mr Brookes was created for My Magic Grandpa, but belongs to @jestre

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I love women who are unabashedly big.

Women with big laughs, big smiles, big voices, big bodies, and even bigger personalities to match. Women that don’t care if they take up space with long strides and sit with their legs miles apart.

They give big hugs and big kisses, and they have big hearts. Big, proud women are amazing.

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Yeah, it was pretty awkward of him.

Just had a guy pop up in my Ponies With Pockets server acting suspicious as hell about how much he hated 13-15th Doctors. Like he made it his whole personality to just bitch about hating them and it came off as one of THOSE fans. you know, the anti-woke ones.

And we did tell him he's welcome to his opinion as long as he doesn't make it a political issue

But he was really pushing this shit, to a point where he was like "Join my server that's titled WE HATE JODIE AND GATWA" so a mod stepped in and pretty much told him to chill on the hate train

and then

this just in telling anyone they need to maybe not say a thing is fascism now

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can we stop normalizing telling poor people they should be fine if they just eat nothing but fucking beans and rice and ramen and actually admit that it's fucked up people can barely afford to eat even decently well

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The only normal looking one is the purple one and I can't tell if it's a raccoon, a frog, or a cat. The other two look like I need to be over 18 to enjoy.

Uhh

I dunno about you

But I'm not sure they fully thought these gummy shapes through...

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One of my favorites.

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when cats put their ears back they become cursors