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I don't like dogs and I hate that if people find out about that they think I am a bad person.

I am extremely sensitive to smells and dog smell makes me literally nauseous, dogs are incredibly loud, they invade my personal space and jump on me, they steal my food, they destroy my belongings, but I am the unreasonable one for disliking being around dogs.

While I havent been attacked by dogs I dont have particularly positive experiences with them either. At a Christmas party sitting on the floor playing on my phone and my aunt's very large dog tried to hump me every 4 seconds and everyone thought it was so cute/funny, I was wildly uncomfortable and said I was going to go outside unto the snow because I didn't want to be around the dog and wouldn't come back in until they put the dog in another room. My grandmother later screamed at me in the car for being disrespectful and ruining the fun mood. I hate how everybody loves dogs way too much to comprehend why a 12yo autistic child might be uncomfortable being repeatedly mounted by a huge untrained stinking dog and having to push it away repeatedly while all the drunk adults laugh at the situation.

I've also just shown up to an extended family member's house before they got home and was not told they were going to have a massive Rottweiler mastiff mix in the house, and the dog nearly attacked me because it didn't recognize me. When they got back and I was upset about being snarled at and chased to the door by a huge fucking predatory animal in their house I was told I was just "being dramatic" because the dog never acts that way when they're around. Why do people have such rose tinted glasses when it comes to this animal specifically.

I don't like self-proclaimed "dog people" because 50% of them will act like this from my experience. I have nothing against people who just own dogs as long as they recognize that not everyone is comfortable around their dog. If you want an animal that acts like that keep it away from people who don't want it near them.

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Art by Brynn Metheney

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funny face :)

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Hey so that was a great date, yeah, but I don't think it's going to work out. Nono you didn't do anything wrong, and I have indeed had a crush on you since we started high school, it's just... well, I didn't want to bring it up at the time but we kinda got sucked into a portal fantasy midway through. We saved the kingdom over and over, relying on our knowledge of and trust in each other every time, throwing ourselves into the firing line to protect each other and using each others' conviction as a rock. We got married and lived a happy life together until the portal sucked us back mid-battle and you gave up all your memories of our journey in order to save my life right when we ended up back in the coffee shop. Yeah that was when I got a bit weird and went to the bathroom.

Anyway I thought we could push on and make the date work but I have all of these memories of secrets that this you never chose to share, decisions that this you never made, and intimacies that this you never experienced. And it's kind of screwing with the vibe yeah. Also on the date it was really, blatantly clear that you're sixteen whereas I have memories of ruling a fantasy kingdom for thirty years so like... that's a problem all on its own. Anyway this you just feels more like a daughter to me. A daughter with the woman I gave my heart and soul to over and over and received like in return, only to lose her forever on the journey home. On the plus side I can definitely help you with your math homework now.

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a bunch of minority communities have this attitude that goes, like, "those outsiders don't get you like we do. they hate you. we don't hate you. you're one of us. you're safe here, with us." and every time it triggers a virulent antibody response in me. fuck off!! you don't know me!!! and i sure as shit don't feel safe among you lot!!!! it, like, turns a shared oppression into some cult shit and i hate it for that.

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*extremely* rough animation wip

please ignore how wonky that camera turn around was, I'm workin on it :')

It's been a while since I was able to properly work on this music video, so I'm hoping to make decent progress over my Christmas break :•D

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Thought Project: Relapse [pt 1] [pt 2]

Buy Ly Ri a Coffee. ko-fi.com/lyriordan

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i guess i do get pretty feral over bloodywood too. listen to dana dan right fucking now

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guy who wins at poker not by being stoic but by bursting into tears every time he looks at his cards, just full hysterical breakdown every round and you gotta peer through the void of theatre kid problems to figure it out

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Valera Lutfullina, Racing

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happy whumptober

I can't personally stomach the extreme ends of whump anymore, but I'm glad that they existed and continue to exist Examining why I became sad at certain fanfics helped me get around dissociating the second I tried to think of trauma thanks to all the fanfic writers out there

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I've started, deleted, and started re-typing this same overly long rambling essay like four times over now, but since ain't nobody got time for that and I also cannot keep it to myself, have the TL;DR:

Human success as a species is all because of the female orgasm. In order to have the social intelligence to hunt in organised team effort and to domesticate animals, humans first developed it for recreational fucking. Whatever the Big Strong Alpha Male Caveman Fucks Most -theorists want to think, the natural selection for social intelligence started from the reproductive success of the most attentive, gentle, and socially intelligent males - the "she lets me hit because I can do that thing that makes her eyes roll back" -guys.

And I'm not arguing that humans unlocked the key of ultimately becoming what we became all thanks to Most Clever Men Finding Ways To Trick Passive Females Into Sex or some shit, the process was mutual. It was also women domesticating men into being more prosocial by selectively breeding the most skilled dick warlocks.

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What are essay videos of horror movie you watch

oh my god yes, i have like an entire collection of them on youtube

how media scares us: the work of junji ito

what are we afraid of? societal fears reflected in film

the art of texas chainsaw massacre: making daylight scary

the importance of horror (why horror movies don't suck)

the grunge & ringu: what makes japanese horror creepy?

the vvitch - art of terror

how horror movies for kids dominated in the 90s

the shining analysis - tension, atompshere & mystery

creating suspence in a horror films

the art of scream: horror logic done right

wolf creek: australia's most infamous horror movie

why cosmic horror is hard to make

color theory in horror movies

society and queer horror

horror theory: the uncanny valley

the childhood horror of coraline

control, anatomy, and the legacy of the haunted house

elements of horror - don't look

the girlboss-ification of the horror genre

elements of horror - how eyes are used in horror movies

thai horror is so underrated

the history of insane asylums and horror movies

slender man (2018): misunderstanding ten years of the internet

the true history that inspired folk horror (part 1)

the true history that inspired folk horror (part 2)

the true history that inspired folk horror (part 3)

the history and evolution of jump scares

the complete history of horror movies

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another gravity falls animation! :3 hope yall enjoy!

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caving expedition in the body of a fallen angel

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how do you consistently draw the same character without it looking weird or off every different time?? also how do i coordinate faces, i always make the eyes too far apart or too big or too small or make the mouth too close to the nose or chin edge. If you have any advice I'd really appreciate it since it looks like you have your art shit figured out 🙏

Oh man SO so much of it is just practice, and you're not alone! I honestly think everyone struggles with a sort of "generification" of their characters' features the more they draw them, even seasoned professionals. There's a tendency to just sort of average everything out into an unrecognizable mush over time, and it takes a lot of conscious effort to push back against that.

Here are a couple tips and tricks that I've found to be helpful over the years:

Make turnarounds and model sheets. There's a reason animation/game studios do this, and it is because we are all still bad at drawing a consistent face. Despite being gainfully employed. What are we, graphic novelists?? We wish. Anyway it's a great way to familiarize yourself with your character's face from multiple angles, and it gives you a single source of truth to return to anytime you need a refresher:

Gather real-life reference. Anytime I'm designing a character I'm pulling together a ton of reference of actual people who look, to some degree, like the character in my head. It's always a collection of analogues, never just a single person, but it can be a great cheat sheet for understanding how your character might move, emote, etc:

Make a 3D model. I know it seems daunting, but with the advent of programs like Blender and Nomad Sculpt it's becoming remarkably more accessible. Heck, even James Gurney was sculpting maquettes out of clay for Dinotopia back in the day! It doesn't have to be particularly detailed—just a sort of proportionate lump will do—but it's another great way to have dynamic reference that you can rotate and light accordingly:

Practice, practice, practice. Make expression sheets for your character! Either right there on the spot, just start drawin' expressions, or you can slowly collect drawings of your character that you like, as you draw them, and compile them all in one place for your own reference. Need to draw your character's head from a weird angle? Maybe you've already drawn it before and you can copy your own homework! Doesn't count as stealing when the call's coming from inside the house 😎

I'd love to pretend there's a magical point where you can just immediately rotate your character's head in your brain like some sort of photorealistic apple in a twitter meme, but a lot of the time it's reference, hard work, and whole lotta repetition. 😐👍🏼