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Purlock Holmes and Dr Watson?

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Rowe: The Boy Who Taught Me Love (Before the World Taught Me Grief)

“The saddest word in the whole wide world is the word almost.” - Nikita Gill My Interpretation: Almost sixteen. Almost forever. Almost the one who made it through with me. Rowe was not just a teenage crush. He was the kind of almost that wrecks your ability to believe in “one day” love stories. We were almost everything: partners, roommates, husband & wife, old souls who made it out together. I still taste the version of me that only existed with him - young, seen, safe. I still grieve that girl too. Because almost is not just a sad word. It is a fucking haunted one.

🌧 My First Love. My Forever Ache.

Rowe was not just a teenage crush. He was my soft place to land in a world that kept trying to harden me. Gone before sixteen. But somehow still the measure I use when I say someone saw me. Because he did. He was not just a boy I loved – he was proof I was lovable before the world convinced me otherwise. Not just the surface stuff - the jokes, the sarcasm, & the masks. He saw the bruised parts. The shadow stories. The trauma I had not found the words for yet. & he did not look away. He did not flinch. He never looked at me as if I was broken. He just listened. He just… held it. Held the parts no one else wanted to acknowledge. Held the eye contact with no fear… Held me.

🫀 Almost Everything

Almost sixteen. Almost roommates. Almost the boy I married in a courthouse ceremony we dreamed up between algebra & heartbreak. Almost the one who made it out with me. But almost does not just sting. It haunts… Because it is a word with an echo. & Rowe? He is the echo I still carry in my bones – Proof that I was seen. Proof that I was worthy. Proof that once, even just for a fleeting moment in time – love was gentle to me. He was the kind of “almost” that makes your lungs ache twenty years later. The kind of boy who walked me home, carried my secrets, & looked at me like I was magic - Even when I could not look at myself. We planned everything like it was real estate. The college. The apartment. The secret wedding. The future state I would get to choose after we finished our degrees. The mailbox at the end of the driveway. We negotiated it all - like we had decades ahead. Because we believed we did. But time ran out.

📵 Love Before Phones Were Glue

He once dropped his phone into a cup of chocolate milk. Breaking it on purpose. Just to show that I mattered more. Because I told him I felt ignored when he was always on it. & I will never forget what he said after: “You matter more. That’s it.” I felt so guilty. He refused to let me hold even a second of that guilt. He made me feel safe. Safe to be soft. Safe to dream. Safe to ask for more. He was not performative. He was not possessive. He was love - the way love is meant to be: Gentle. Steady. Uncomplicated in its certainty. When Diana made everything harder, when my happiness felt like rebellion, he never told me to tone it down. He just helped me hide the joy better. We danced in the rain. He walked me home in the dark. He brought me chocolate on my period like it was sacred ritual. He looked at me like I was magic, again even when I could not look at myself. Protected the light I had left - like it was sacred.

🕯 They Did Not Let Me Say Goodbye

He died a virgin. But not before he taught me every single thing I know about love. & when he died - I did not just lose a boyfriend. I lost proof that love like that was possible. Not the Hollywood kind. Not the kind full of red flags wrapped in passion. The real kind. The quiet kind. The kind that stays with you even after funerals you were not allowed to attend. Because no one thought my grief was valid. The kind of loss they don’t write poems for. The kind you’re expected to bury quietly. I was not his wife. I was just “some girl.” They did not let me go. Did not let me speak. I did not even let me cry out loud. I was just expected to swallow the ache & move on. Like he was not my whole universe wrapped in a hoodie & a sideways smile.

🕯 The Ghost in My Ribcage

I still dream about him. Still picture the apartment we would have rented. Still hear his laugh when something ridiculous happens. There are moments I do not recognize myself - & I realize it is because the version of me that only existed with him is gone, too. Because Rowe was not just my boyfriend. He was the proof that I was lovable before the world convinced me otherwise. (Repetitive or is it proof that, that “one love” only comes once & you will forever be haunted by it?) Not a single man since has ever made me feel what Rowe did - That I could be me & still be loved. So yeah, I am still chasing that love. & I have been chasing that feeling ever since. Not because I am stuck in the past - but because that boy gave me a glimpse of what I deserve. & I cannot & will not settle for anything less anyMORE than I already have in my adulthood. Xoxo ♡

Source: Rowe: The Boy Who Taught Me Love (Before the World Taught Me Grief)

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Okay, Tumblr, I did a thing. I finished a WIP.

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I've never considered that angle, but it makes so much sense. I'm going to rewatch those movies now in a new light.

equal rights for women will never truly be achieved until we have more female noir detectives

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5 digits, 2012, 118 works, nearly 1.5mil words. Jeez, it's 13 years old!

Just updated my Ao3 profile and realised it’s old enough to legally drive in the US. 😂

Got it in March 2010 and the user ID is four digits long.

Reblog with when you got your Ao3 account and how long your user ID is.

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My favourite cat. Well, one of them.

Kiki’s Delivery Service 魔女の宅急便 1989 | dir. Hayao Miyazaki.

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My soul mate. This woman embodies disappointment, the queen of comebacks.

#dorothy zbornak my relatable queen

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Im a Brit, and for me it was Marine Boy (1969) and Barbapapa, Battle for the Planets, then Mysterious Cities of Gold, and of course, Star Fleet (X-Bomber in Japan), if it can be classed as anime, because it was puppet-based. I adored them all.

That post about death note being "everyone's first anime" (untrue statement) made me curious and now I want to gather data for science

Can you reblog this and tell me where are you from and what was your starter anime?

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I need this.

Resources From The Leftist Feminist Philosopher

Google is so powerful that it "hides" other search systems from us. We just don't know the existence of most of them.

Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information.

Keep a list of sites you never heard of!

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.

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Mrs Pretty was an amazing lady; adventurous, kind, bold. I haven't seen the film but visited Sutton Hoo a few weeks ago. Here's her house, portraits of her and her son, the first bolt found from the ship, the ship sculpture at the museum, and the replica artefacts.

The artefacts are for the most part replicas (the originals are in the British Museum) but the displays are fantastic. Well worth a visit, and they have a display of costumes and props from the movie.

Hello non-existent Dig Fandom! I wrote a fix it fic because I rewatched this film last night and it ripped my heart out and stepped on it.

Rating: T

First Kiss, Love Confessions, Found Family.

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Would love to see these two together as Holmes and Watson.

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I am so with you in this. AI forgets, it misunderstands, it's fecking useless. It can't create with what it doesn't possess, and that is imagination, human nuances, creativity. It can only work with what it has access to. Usually no memory, nothing beyond what it already has been taught, and even with the entire world's literature at its metaphorical fingertips, it DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO USE IT! It repeats itself over and over. It reiterates things that have already been established several times, and it's like talking to the combo of a six year old and a stroppy teen. You cannot convince it that it is wrong. Gods give me the time before AI. Create it yourself and don't waste time with it.

Please forgive me for ranting, but...I am so tired of AI. Just so tired. I don't want Microsoft Copilot, or Google Gemini, or Meta AI, or whatever other energy-sucking, water-wasting, mediocrity-spewing LLM is currently being thrust upon me. I just want to be left alone to create in peace.

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If you like a drama, go read @rectorredux Endgame. It's a well-written Sherlock BBC drama, and the tension is building. Please go read, it needs more kudos.

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Reblogging for usefulness!

So You've Finally Switched to Firefox: a Brief Guide to a Some Very Useful Add-Ons.

This post is inspired by two things, the first being the announcement by Google that the long delayed Manifest V3 which will kill robust adblocking will finally roll out in June 2024, and the second, a post written by @sexhaver in response to a question as to what adblockers and extensions they use. It's a very good post with some A+ information, worth checking out.

I love Firefox, I love the degree of customization it offers me as a user. I love how it just works. I love the built in security features like DNS over HTTPS, and I love just how many excellent add-ons are available. It is a better browser than Chrome in every respect, and of the many Chromium based browsers out there, only Vivaldi comes close.

There are probably many people out there who are considering switching over to Firefox but are maybe putting it off because they've got Chrome set up the way they like it with the extensions they want, and doing all that again for Firefox seems like a chore. The Firefox Add-on directory is less expansive than the Chrome Web Store (which in recent years has become overrun with garbage extensions that range from useless to active malware), but there is still a lot of stuff to sift through. That's where this short guide comes in.

I'm presently running 33 add-ons for Firefox and have a number of others installed but disabled. I've used many others. These are my picks, the ones that I consider essential, useful, or in some cases just fun.

Adblocking/Privacy/Security:

uBlock Origin: The single best adblocker available. If you're a power user there are custom lists and scripts you can find to augment it.

Privacy Badger: Not strictly necessary if you're also running uBlock, but it does catch a few trackers uBlock doesn't and replaces potentially useful trackers like comment boxes with click-to-activate placeholders.

Decentraleyes: A supplementary tool meant to run alongside uBlock, prevents certain sites from breaking when tracker requests are denied by serving local bundled files as replacement.

NoScript: The nuclear option for blocking trackers, ads, and even individual elements. Operates from a "trust no one" standpoint, you will need to manually enable elements yourself. Not recommended for casual users, but a fantastic tool for the power user.

Webmail Ad Blocker: The first of many webmail related add-ons from Jason Saward I will be recommending. Removes all advertising from webmail services like Gmail or Yahoo Mail.

Popup Blocker (Strict): Strictly blocks ALL pop up/new tab/new window requests from all website by default unless you manually allow it.

SponsorBlock: Not a fan of listening to your favourite YouTuber read advertisements for shitty products like Raycons or BetterHelp? This skips them automatically.

AdNauseam: I don't use this one but some people prefer it. Rather than straight up blocking ads and trackers, it obfuscates data by injecting noise into the tracker surveillance infrastructure. It clicks EVERY ad, making your data profile incomprehensible.

User-Agent Switcher: Allows you to spoof websites attempting to gather information by altering your browser profile. Want to browse mobile sites on desktop? This allows you to do it.

Bitwarden: Bitwarden has been my choice of password manager since LastPass sold out and made their free tier useless. If you're not using a password manager, why not? All of my passwords look like this: $NHhaduC*q3VhuhD&scICLKjvM4rZK5^c7ID%q5HVJ3@gny I don't know a single one of them and I use a passphrase as a master password supplemented by two-factor-authentication. Everything is filled in automatically. It is the only way to live.

Proton Pass: An open source free password manager from the creators of Proton Mail. I've been considering moving over to it from Bitwarden myself.

Webmail/Google Drive:

Checker Plus for Gmail: Provides desktop notifications for Gmail accounts, supports managing multiple accounts, allows you to check your mail, read, mark as read or delete e-mails at a glance in a pop-up window. An absolutely fabulous add-on from Jason Saward.

Checker Plus for Google Drive: Does for your Google Drive what Checker Plus for Gmail does for your Gmail.

Checker Plus for Google Calendar: The same as the above two only this time for your Google Calendar.

Firefox Relay: An add-on that allows you to generate aliases that forward to your real e-mail address.

Accessibility:

Dark Reader: Gives every page on the internet a customizable Dark Mode for easier reading and eye protection.

Read Aloud: A text to speech add-on that reads pages with the press of a button.

Zoom Page WE: Provides the ability to zoom in on pages in multiple ways: text zoom, full page zoom, auto-fit etc.

Mobile Dyslexic: Not one I use, but I know people who swear by it. Replaces all fonts with a dyslexia friendly type face.

Utility:

ClearURLs: Automatically removes tracking data from URLs.

History Cleaner: Automatically deletes browser history older than a set number of days.

Feedbro RSS Feed Reader: A full standalone reader in your browser, take control of your feed and start using RSS feeds again.

Video Download Helper: A great tool for downloading video files from websites.

Snap Link Plus: Fan of Wikipedia binge holes? Snap Link allows to drag select multiple hyperlink and automatically open all of them in new tabs.

Copy PlainText: Copy any text without formatting.

EPUBReader: Read .epub files from within a browser window.

Tab Stash: A no mess, no fuss way to organize groups of tabs as bookmarks. I use it as a temporary bookmark tool, saving sessions or groups of tabs into "to read" folders.

Tampermonkey/Violentmonkey: Managers for installing and running custom user scripts. Find user scripts on OpenUserJS or Greasy Fork, there's an entire galaxy out there of ingenious and weird custom user scripts out there, go discover it.

Browsing & Searching:

Speed Dial 2: A new tab add-on that gives you easy access to your favourite sites.

Unpaywall: Whenever you come across a scholarly article behind a paywall, this add-on will search through all the free databases for an accessible and non-paywalled version of the text.

Web Archives: Come across a dead page? This add-on gives you a quick way to search for cached versions of the page on the Wayback Machine, Google Cache, Archive.is and others.

Bypass Paywalls: Automatically bypasses the paywalls of major websites like those for the New York Times, New Yorker, the Financial Times, Wired, etc.

Simple Translate: Simple one-click translation of web pages powered by Google Translate.

Search by Image: Reverse search any image via several different search engines: Google Image, TinEye, Yandex, Bing, etc.

Website Specific:

PocketTube: Do you subscribe to too many YouTube channels? Would you like a way to organize them? This is your answer.

Enhancer for Youtube: Provides a suite of options that make using YouTube more pleasant: volume boost, theatre mode, forced quality settings, playback speed and mouse wheel volume control.

Augmented Steam: Improves the experience of using Steam in a browser, see price histories of games, take notes on your wishlist, make wish listed games and new DLC for games you own appear more visible, etc.

Return YouTube Dislikes: Does exactly what it says on the package.

BlueBlocker: Hate seeing the absolute dimmest individuals on the planet have their replies catapulted to the top of the feed because they're desperate to suck off daddy Elon sloppy style? This is for you, it automatically blocks all Blue Checks on Twitter. I've used it to block a cumulative 34,000 Blue Checks.

Batchcamp: Allows for batch downloading on Bandcamp.

XKit Rewritten: If you're on Tumblr and you're not using whichever version of XKit is currently available, I honestly don't know what to say to you. This newest version isn't as fully featured as the old XKit of the golden age, but it's been rewritten from the ground up for speed and utility.

Social Fixer for Facebook: I once accidentally visited Facebook without this add-on enabled and was immediately greeted by the worst, mind annihilating content slop I had ever had the misfortune to come across. Videos titled "he wanted her to get lip fillers and she said no so he had bees sting her lips", and AI photos of broccoli Jesus with 6000 comments all saying "wow". Once I turned it on it was just stuff my dad had posted and updates from the Radio War Nerd group.

BetterTTV: Makes Twitch slightly more bearable.

Well I think that's everything. You don't have to install everything here, or even half of it, but there you go, it's a start.

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Oh, God. He'll be brilliant as always.

EXCLUSIVE: HBO‘s Harry Potter series has cast another key character. Tony and Olivier Award winner Bertie Carvel (The Crown, Dalgliesh) has been tapped to play Cornelius Fudge in the high-profile TV adaptation, Deadline has learned.

Carvel is believed to be recurring as Minister of Magic Cornelius Fudge. In the film series, he was played by Robert Hardy who appeared in four consecutive movies starting with Chamber of Secrets.

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I'm one of them. I'm an elder of the random community. I've been a gamer for over forty years, a con-goer for roughly the same, a cosplayer decades before cosplay was even a word. I've been writing for roughly the same length of time, but I've only been writing decent stuff since 2009. Without us, you wouldn't have a fandom. Battles have been fought, purges survived, and technological changes weathered. We are still here. There are NO ages limits.

how are you gonna be 31 and posting fandom content bro leave it to the teenagers

People 10 and 20 years older than me are writing your favorite fanfics, and drawing your favorite characters. You'd have no fandom without the people you think are 'too old' to have hobbies.

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Cat dad is back and updated! RIP Pancake, but this is the sweetest. So glad they're around.

This is so wholesome