jannetwenty

[jannetwenty]

unappreciated(s)

what an excellent title to express this regret. funny how I thought I did my best today but things just seem 'Nah' for THEM.

this is not even a breakup moment though I never know how bad it feels like but I knew this is way too worse than breaking up. not even a good job sign ever show up. really disappointed.

"good job for today. you did great and also strong."

I want to hear these words someday.

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life is hard. it horny

[jannetwenty]

Thu, 9/6/2022 (10:28PM)

I do really love myself but at the same time, I lost control of certain things that stress me out. I hate this side of me so much. REal. I hope I could do better than that but I still think I should always behave with everything around me. Also, I always wish I could change myself. Fuck the 'be yourself' phrase. Doesn't help me at all. Worst, everyone hate when I was myself.

I want to stop. stop all this. I want to stop this pain.

And I should stop drinking strong caffeine.

. like for real. how to be a better person. The diploma isn't complicated yet everything around me made me stressed and guilty. I just want to have a great life without thinking about money and people that keep throwing hate on me.

it either changes or ends it.

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Wed, 23/3/2022 (2:49 AM)

I thought this is my first concern that I wrote here? Actually, I wish to do one after creating this account. It was about my third-semester results. And everything went well because I got the dean's list that semester. So it was my second dean list and I am really proud of it.

That was my first concern (after creating this account) and what about now? Why I still couldn't sleep when it was already late? Well, I got something on my mind.

- I was thinking if I actually should take sleep when thinking I am a child abuser? What if I actually am? I mean things went worst this week. I couldn't keep my mind together. I was not actually trying to abuse them. I give them the lesson they need because their parents won't do anything about their behavior and I really did mad about it. The parents should aware of their kids. I am a student and I easily stress over tasks I need to complete but why the hell do they keep making things more stressful?

Most people would think I am being dramatic when I trying to finish my diploma with some bad behavior kids around? Fuck it. I suffer to keep calm and less the talk but Nah. Things went worst and I hate it.

//to make things clear, it was not that bad. I just felt bad.

[jannetwenty]

Things about me

There are so many simple things about me that I would like to share here.

1. Janne is not my real name. I keep my name and identity secret. My birthdate, nationality, or religion (but I probably give small hints as I write) and I am 20. That's it.

2. My profile picture is not me. She is TWICE's Chaeyoung. A famous Korean girl group. I am a fan anyway.

3. I'm INFJ.

!!!

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Welcome!

As I write there. Welcome to my tumblr blog? Well, I created this blog so I can write something that I couldn't where people that know me might read haha There is something personal too but more to concern? Yes. A lot of concern.

To begin with, I have serious anxiety. My body shakes a lot when I start concerned. That's when I will open this blog and write my concern here. Some might be childish and immature talk but I do and am really serious about some business and it's really disturbed me to death.

There are my family, studies, myself, and things that hit me hard to stay alive. Living in peace. Like for real.

I hope whoever reads my writing, do not judge it. I might cry.