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Hey all! Any of my jancy/stranger peoples still out there? I haven’t been on tumblr in about a year. Miss you guys!

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WE’RE SO CLOSE!

Guys I’m so fackin excited!! Who’s watching at midnight tomorrow?!?! 🙋🏻‍♀️🙋🏻‍♀️

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DRACO  MALFOY

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“We are all broken, that’s how the light gets in.”

— Ernest Hemingway (via goodreadss)

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Looks SO good you guys what do you think?!?

Stranger Things Season Three Final Trailer!

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By popular demand! Here’s Bailey and Leia at just over two years. They have completely stolen our hearts and are such a special addition to our family.

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Yay puppy pics I can't wait!!

:) :)

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WE HAVEN'T GOTTEN PUPPY PICS IN THE LONGEST TIME

YOU’RE RIGHT. And that’s just unacceptable. They actually just celebrated their second birthdays a couple months ago! Stay tuned I’ll post some pics!

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Do you ever fall in love with your favorite band all over again? Sometimes I forget how much the music means to me, and then at random times it will hit me and I’ll get the same feeling in my chest I felt years ago when I first heard them. It’s one of my favorite feelings in the entire world.

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Things about anxiety that suck and I never see anybody talk about

I’m just ranting from my own experience because I’m frustrated. Feel free to rant about your own as well.

It causes freaking digestive problems because when in fight or flight your digestive system basically shuts down but guess what my fight or flight response is activated all the time so some weird stuff happens that I won’t get into.

Sometimes you lose circulation in your extremities so your fingers and lips and toes get numb or cold and it SUCKS

You’re constantly taking short breaths and don’t get any oxygen to your brain so I can’t think at full capacity. Nice.

When you do finally take a moment to fill your lungs with enough air you’ve been going so long without enough oxygen you feel dizzy and it’s very confusing.

Sometimes you don’t even know what exactly you’re afraid of or you do know but can’t articulate it so when people try to help and ask you to talk through it you can’t and you feel like a doofus and get even more anxious

That weird trance you get into during and right after your breathing exercises that isn’t meditation or hypnosis but it’s freaking weird.

When you finally calm down for the first time in weeks or months and being calm feels so foreign at this point you start lowkey freaking out because WHAT IS HAPPENING

Mildly dissociating and feeling nothing but knowing you’re anxious by the way your body is reacting

The chest pains that sometimes make it feel like you’re dying even when you’re not having a panic attack

Being tired like, all the time dude. From fighting your own body and brain. I need sleep.

When people assume you have depression because in many ways it can look similar from the outside but it’s not the same and it’s frustrating because you know you don’t have depression and you can’t speak for those that do

Those days when you’re scared of loud noises like an abused cat

Going partially nonverbal. Like, you can talk and fake your way through things, but the entire time it’s taking up all your concentration and willpower and it would be so much easier if you could just not talk for two days because talking is so frightening or you’re so tired it’s hard to talk.

That feeling near the end of a panic attack where it’s hard or nearly impossible to move and it feels like your body is made of lead

Crying and hiding in the corner wrapped up in a blanket very frightened because you accidentally burned dinner and it feels like everyone hates you now

The start of panic attacks where it feels like this isn’t reality and you have to ask someone if this is real or constantly count your fingers or something.

When you’re about to do something that makes you anxious like talk to a secretary and suddenly it’s like there’s an invisible rope pulling you away and you just nope out of there

Literally walking a mile out of your way to avoid talking to someone because you’re convinced you’ll say something wrong.

Those weird looks you get sometimes when you’re quietly singing to calm yourself down, especially if you’re like me and nursery rhymes and simple songs are what you sing to calm yourself down. Like, an adult walking around quietly singing sing a song of sixpence has to look weird.

Not only can you sometimes tell you might get a panic attack that day, it has a taste. That’s right. A taste. Not just a feeling. A taste.

That weirdly calm voice your therapist uses that just seems… slightly creepy at times. It takes some getting used to. Espeally if your particular brand of anxiety makes you suspicious of people.

That’s all I could think of for now. I’m a mess today. Like I said feel free to share your own.

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I’m so proud of my 2016 self because she was already shipping Jancy BEFORE THEY EVEN HAD A SCENE TOGETHER AND LOOK HOW FAR WE’VE COME.

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Billy(to Mrs. Wheeler): Hey, psycho - we're not gonna discuss this, OK, it's over. Please get out of my Van Halen t-shirt before you jinx the band and they break up.

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*cracks knuckles* time to fuckin blog 

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*Rises from the dead*

HEY GUYS! With Stranger Things less than a month away and grad school (fucking finally) almost over - I’m going to start working on my fic again, All These Things That We’ve Done. I’m not even expecting most of you to even know what it is at this point or care for that matter, BUT. I said I wouldn’t abandon the fix and I meant it! (Disappearing unexpectedly for two years doesn’t count as abandoning right)???

Love you guys and can’t wait for season 3 ow ow!!

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SURPRISE!  — Stranger Things Trailer (x)