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Blaming Mercury Retrograde

12.17.17

Waking up at this hour was maybe late to you but normal for me. Hooray! For 12:30 in the afternoon. My mind was settled for this day to be my review day when my Mom and sibling said I need to go with them at the mall to buy myself my top for my upcoming Christmas party.

I got home with a sad face. Oh wait… Yes I said yes to my Mom and sib for their deal and I’m not happy with my decision.

Oh! Mercury Retrograde! I already told myself a zillion times that I should review my decisions first. Here come regrets.

Anyway, y’all know what I can do to save myself from the deathly midterms tomorrow, right? Dang! It’s the last day of midterms. I’ll be missing taking midterms … not.

Ok then, I have to sleep right now. Tiredness is gradually embracing my soul.

Merry Christmas anyway fella! Kudos🙌

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Pressure Makes Diamonds

12.16.17

I woke up so guilty with what I did last night. I’ll be dead to my Mom if she knew this. I know to myself I should have not done that. I am so wrong about it. I just realize its consequences for my future and my reputation, but it’s too late. I can’t go back to the time I want just to correct my wrong. Right now, all I need to do is to face it with all my heart pumping so fast, sweat dripping vast, and legs trembling as if aghast. Do you know what I did last night?

I slept…

…with pleasure and again, I’m guilty.

Shoot! What to do now? This is my fifth time involuntarily sleeping with my notes onh my hand covering my face due to reviewing. Uhm yes (?) I do have my midterms for today and I’m still not ready but I already have all of the plan I need to use the pressure so I can make stuff I should memorize go into my low quality brain cells.

I only have two hours before proper examination. Again, trust me my love, for I already figure out what style, technique, and management I need to use to consume my last two hours effectively.

So, I gave it my best shot.

With God’s grace as I prayed, it all worked well. Boom! This girl was never the last student to leave the classroom for being so slow in taking the test.

Oooooooh! I realized it’s sleep that all I need to face my examinations. Uhmm, but did I ace my midterms? That is what I do not know. *cough cough* I bet not. *cough cough*

Let’s just be optimistic and say that I’m practicing to be fast in taking my exams without sacrificing my grades eh? *wink wink*

Harhar Cherio my friend!

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Anti-social Social Lassie

12.10.17

In line with the YouTube REWIND that’s currently on the list of YouTube Trending which I think is getting worse every single year, I also want to rewind - my week of bumping onto people I know and how I respond to them.

One of the things I sometimes don’t like is bumping onto people I know when going out, for the reason of not knowing what or how to respond. Well, there are times I actually like to but, that’s just seldom. This holiday + weekend, every day of it, I met tens of acquaintances, friends, former to present classmates, family relatives, (crushes, - joke lang hehe) etc. and I found myself noticing my spur-of-the-moment responses to different people I know. Here are my realizations:

If I meet a relative or a parent of a batch mate/friend, I will totally transform to an angel. I will really smile until my dimples turn into deep wells and will “mano” to every single one of them with grace and polite vibes. Well, that’s not fake (I’m not trying to make a show) and I guarantee you. I’m just trying to make impressions and being just polite hehe

If I meet a classmate, there’s a quite huge chance that I will stop as she/he stops too for a small chitchat. Usually, our talks start with “Hi ‘te! Kamusta ka na?” or “Oy! Tumaba ka.”. My classmates were hilarious jokers. Did I really gain weight? Hmmm

If I met a gal friend, we keep it real. We’ll be so true with what we are feeling at the moment by stating what are our emotions, observations, and reasons with existing on the place we’re both standing in. Sometimes, we can also keep it real by doing a social kiss or beso beso and then, walking away. We usually end our conversation in “Sige, chat chat nalang. Ingat”.

When it comes to meeting a guy friend, I try to keep it not that awkward. It must be really very awkward especially if I’m with my intrigued family member/s or crazy friends that will ask who that guy was. So, recently if I’m with someone, I try not to smile that deep, not to start with “Hi ‘te!” (Maybe, I can have that response at times.), or not to pause for a conversation. What I’m doing is a nod. By nod, I mean an awkward big nod that means “Hey bruh!”. If you’re one of my guy friends I already bumped into and nodded afterwards, now you know what I’m trying to say. I expected you can decode that. HAHA

If you’re a person of mine that I know, you can verify what I’m talking about by trying to encounter me on public places.

Ta-ta for now. I’m still in the middle of nodding to a guy friend. 🙈🙉🙊

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"My pants are not size 30! Just 29".

12.09.17

Seriously, I think my three days will not be enough for all of my brought-to-home school works. I put five tasks in my to-do-list for today that I said to myself I need to accomplish. With spontaneous family trips and family preparations for the upcoming occasions just lying hidden around the corner, my home works and other tasks to do will be in the brink of death.

Today, I spent my time with my family. We shopped for Christmas and had some mini food trip. Food always follows after me. What a loyal delicious heavenly someone who can be there for the rest of my life. Back with shopping, I want to give a shoutout to the salesman who lowkey insists my size is 30 by giving me size-30 pantaloons with other sizes I wanted to take in the fitting room. I’m only asking for pantaloons that range in sizes 27-29. He is really dedicated with his job being industrious to help customers. I might hire him to be my assistant soon (not).

We got home late at night and I’m so ready to jump to my bed to sleep because I’m super tired but, that didn’t happened. It’s because I guessed I needed a burden to balance my day filled with happiness. Among all of the five tasks, I only finished two of them. So, goodbye now for I still have three to go. 😉

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In my mom's smartphone, I depend

12.3.17

For the nth time, our personal computer is not cooperating. I've got a lengthy list of things I need to do that requires a computer to be completed as soon as possible. I can live without a smartphone but please don't make me live as a student without a computer, please?

This situation is making me feel so lucky to have a desktop computer at home, and of course, parents who gave it to us. It is really indeed hard to run forth to computer shops then, go back at home and do the drill every after school just to finish and pass report papers, research papers, prints, video edits, etc. That's why, I will take good care of our PC when it come back to the way it was before. Will it ever come back?

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Oh, patterns! Today's a sunday weekend, a completion day of my school works. Saw that? So, expect this day to be tiring and hectic borrowing my mom's phone for school works again. What I'm really proud of myself today is that I still managed to be smiling through the stress. That's because I enjoyed my activities today. Just omit the tiring walks and sudden sighs that turns into shouts because of breakdowns. I guess these made me lose a gram of a calories eh? Let's not omit them anymore. 😁

And one last thing! Remember yesterday when I ate an ice cream like a kid? This time, I wore a headband that a seven year old would want to wear at school, to the supermarket. It's really weird of me not to care about others' stare and smiles and giggles at all. I actually want to make them wait for me to change my headband's color into pink as I channel the Chanel Oberlin in me. I'll be fancy and I already knew it. 😉

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First time and I'll do it all again

12.2.17

Photo credits to MCD Virtudazo 📷

To cover up last thursday's missed study sessions because of a holiday, here we are again at school catching up our lessons stu-dying. Looks like our school is really trying to let our midterm examination be before our christmas vacation. It may be a chance for me to be relieved knowing exams are already done on christmas and new year celebration but we honestly are still lacking of lesson discussions. Let's add my reason that I still lack lectures. Hihi. We are now seniors and I can't swap my good grades for a quick relief on christmas vacation.

After school (that's only until noon), we - entrepreneurship project team got a chance to do our interview project. What we did was something that a professional journalist may do and that made me feel like an adult. I also travelled from an end of my province to the other end of the same province which made me feel so independent.

It all hits me right into my face. I am getting so close to the adult world and that's making me nervous.

Am I already fully equipped, fortified, strengthened, , guarded and supported enough to conquer the cruel big bad wolf? Or Am I still the immature innocent red riding hood?

So I ended up eating a large chocolate ice cream sundae not caringd whether stains jump in my pure white blouse or people I know see me this dirty.

I am still a little girl. 🔞

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Chef Jahnella debut (in tumblr)

11.26.17

Today’s a little bit neutral and boring and plain but, I managed to make this day special with my new recipe.

As what my family always expect from this adventurous chef, I make spontaneous recipes from available scratch.

We are pretty abundant with oatmeal recently due to our boredom to eat it in its traditional way over and over again every morning.

So, here comes my new recipe made from oatmeal. *drum rolls*

Hearty Oatmeal Milkshake

Sun was up so, cold drinks like this is just in time. Are you trying to lessen the heat? Cool your butts with my recipe below. Thank me later.

Ingredients

Instant oatmeal

Hot water

Milk (in any form of your choice)

Sugar

Fresh fruit juice (optional)

Ice cream, preferably vanilla (optional)

Chopped fruit of choice (optional)

Procedure

Pour hot water in the instant oatmeal. The water should make the oatmeal ready to eat.

Put the softened oatmeal into the blender.

Add the rest of the ingredients in measurement according to your taste.

Blend until desired thinness or thickness.

Serve in a glass with ice. Enjoy!

In just four basic ingredients and five easy steps, this can be an alternative to quick breakfasts and fulfilling drink for snack time.

That’s all for now. Subscribe to my blogs every weekend for more possible recipes. 🍴

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Hole in my chest and Sudden Emptiness

11.25.17

Today, we had half-day saturday classes.

Munched on brownies with my companion today for health break. I’m longing for moist chocolate cakes last few days. Fate gave me brownies instead. 💁

I’m so tired that right after I got home, I unintentionally slept from the bed that I lay (with nothing but your t-shirt on…🎶😂).

I woke up the next day.

I just realized I’m sleeping more often. Signs of being sad? Maybe it’s just because it’s weekend. You’ll feel strange to read my blogs if they were about my weekdays. Sleep has no space in my weekday planner. Please let me sleep HAHAHA. This time, I have no feeling of guilt. 🌈

“Oh Darlin’ I’m a mess … ”

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From chill out to freak out

11.19.17

“Stop it Jahnella.”

I continued scrolling an online shop, still looking for possible Christmas gifts. It’s past 9 am. I’m still with my pajamas. My eyes were puffy – an effect of crying. You’re asking me why? Emotional breakdowns. I hate myself. I regret taking a day break from everything. I took it carelessly. Illegally (because it kills my plans), I wanted to escape from the tasks I’m obliged to finish. Now, here I am having only this day to accomplish my long to-do-list. Crap, Jahnella. Crap.

I know you’re thinking of me as exaggerated and irresponsible right now. I can’t blame you and I can’t blame myself too(?). I’m from serious no-sleep days (that looks like an excuse I made up just for my guilt to calm down)😂. I can’t wait to be exaggerated (and not irresponsible anymore) on my next blogs (can’t help eh).

I pressed the home button of my Mom’s phone. I started to work my butt off.

One of my tasks-to-do was to make an article. This one’s making me anxious knowing it can be published. I am so scared to be judged. I’m from HUMSS which means writing is one of my study focus and I already have experienced my articles on a (school) newspaper and magazine and all, but, this one’s different. New readers and all.

“Should I stay or should I go now?

If I go, there will be trouble

And if I stay it will be double

So come on and let me know”

This whole entry sounds like a cringey personal journal. I’m sorry and I got to sleep 😴

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Watch me chill out

11.18.17

Last Friday night (Yeah we danced on tabletops…🎶😂), I brought peace to my mind. I opened my planner and listed all of the tasks I need to do for the next weekend, organized it according to its prioritization value, and scheduled everything into places.

I even planned to start my jogging journey every weekend. So, I set the alarm to 4:30 am.

Oooooh *sniff* *sniff* Alas! Here comes Saturday.

Holy guacamole! Sunshine blinded my closed eyes. I just woke up to 11:43 am. My body’s muscles were kind of sore. I hate this feeling. I thought I will start this day right. My body really hates me. Now, my plans are ruined. What an unproductive day!

Oh wait! Maybe this day isn’t unproductive at all. I gave my mom massage and hair services. Yes! This good girl just did that.

And so, I spent my night staring at the ceiling wall reflecting. I also did some procrastination by online window shopping for Christmas.

Hmmm. Guess what’s my gift for you? 😉

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Sacrifice. Suffer. Struggle.

11.12.17

I lied.

My last blog sounded like as if I'm going to make myself a good night sleep. Well, after I found out I still have a ton of things to do, my heart pounded so fast, I started to do one and ended up waking up early in the morning. Tadaaa ✨What a three hours of sleep. I jumped out of the sofa (so shy to broadcast that I accidentally slept not in my bed and I woke up not in my bed😅 (I miss my childhood😭)) so fast to check my to-do-list and continued working. With that, I would like to share that I'm jealous of everyone sleeping. 😫

Anyway, this day is offered for all of my school works. for the sake of my school works. in the name of my school works. It's not impossible if I'll be soon found dead on the spot with my school works. 💁

(and) Oh! I miss our personal computer. I got to do some of my school works at a computer shop today because our PC is currently suffering from blue screen of death. Pity me 😕

Other details -- stuffs that explains how it helped me get throughout today doesn't need any discussion but an acknowledgement. So, I would love to give shoutouts to my strong coffee and double bags of tea that's ready to be sipped in my ceramic hot beverage container anytime, and of course, gadgets I borrowed from my parents and siblings as substitutes for our sick PC (mine's so irritatingly slow). Without such, I can't make it through (the rain😂) chaotic and convulted different school works.

| I think I should learn how to love doing school works soon so that it will never be called sacrifice anymore (ne?). Will I ever? |

If you're wondering if I got the sleep I want. It's a NO. This day is not enough for my school works to be honest. I'll be a midget forever 💩

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I JUST CONFIRMED SOMETHING!

11.11.17

“Hindi ba masyado ka nang matanda para magpakumpil?” (“Isn’t it you’re already old to be comfirmed?”), one of the people who was together with the priests asked me. I was annoyed. We are in the church waiting for the people to prepare so the mass can start. His question left me thinking if there’s something illegal with joining the confirmation rites at the age of seventeen. I was also thinking if that’s just an insult to me for not giving time to receive the sacrament of confirmation when I was younger. I am really annoyed. So, I told him “wala kang pake.” (“you don’t care.”) in a somewhat rude tone. I forgot that I’m wearing my gala uniform with our school’s logo patch. At that moment, several nuns from my school looked at me as if I have to turn into a rock. A sudden chill started to embrace my feet until it reached my cheeks. What’s worse? My adviser heard it as well. What will just happen to my grades and my conduct scores? To make this worst, the Bishop stopped from talking to someone and then, turned to my direction. My body secreted a massive amount of cold sweat enough for that akward liquid to drip all over my face and armpit and hands and feet. Involuntary shivering starts. I know I’ll die anytime soon.

Then I heard someone said “Go!” as a signal for me to start the mass with the introduction. With that, I woke up from my daynightmare. Thank God! ✨

The true story was that I only smiled to the question of that person and he ended our conversation with “Joke lang.” (“Just kidding. ”) After that, there’s no thing such as tension really happened.

I started the introduction for the mass. I am one of the commentators. This is my first time. What have I done? It looked like I’m only a mess for my companion. Thankfully, she’s kind to endure my irritating ignorance.

I confirmed that I can only lead millenials’ party. I can’t be part of the church’s ceremonies but, I wanted to learn how. Maybe someday soon I will. Well, that’s my reason why I said yes for me to be the mass’ commentator.

The highlight of this day was me receiving the sacrament of confirmation in the power of the Holy Spirit. That is me above. Just don’t mind my name in wrong spelling. Everyone keeps doing that especially at Starbucks. Finally, I am now fully baptized. 🎉🎊 This signifies maturity and coming of age. May this really lead to my firm profession of faith in my strengthened Christian life.

I also confirmed that this is really indeed a tiring day. I only got naps. Are you one of us too? Welcome to the No Sleep Club.

Enough with that. I need to sleep so bad now. Bye 💤