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Something like this?

Crime against me specifically that we've never seen Cas shielding Dean from bullets by protectively enclosing him in his wings.

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I've left social gatherings to go cry a few times in my life. For various reasons. I was always sad when no one came out to find me (I wanted to be alone, but not forgotten). Or worse, they came out to chastise me for my tears. (I had/have caring friends, to be clear. They just all assumed I'd want to be left alone, which is only true to a point when overwhelmed.)

I love RadioApple. I identify far too much with Lucifer. I wouldn't be into Alastor, even if he was a woman, cause he's just too cruel, but I appreciate this version of him so much. Even if his intentions aren't pure, and his words are a little harsh, he's not shaming Lucifer, and he's expressing that people want his company. For me, that would have meant the world.

❤️❤️❤️🦌🍎

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Already broken

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This sums it up pretty well.

Now where are the words of wisdom for someone who got a year of Masterclass mostly to learn from Gaiman and has been too thrown to take advantage of the other great authors on there?

What a fucking waste of money.

Remember: you don’t have to choose.

You can be grateful that we are getting an on-screen, canon completion to Good Omens, AND devastated that the time we had anticipated getting to spend with our favorite idiots has been slashed by 75%.

You can acknowledge how close the series obviously came to being canned entirely and give a sigh of relief, AND weep for the storylines and flashbacks that will be chiseled away or cut entirely.

You can logically accept that a good movie can accomplish a hell of a lot in ninety minutes, and Good Omens will have a massive leg-up because all of the establishing elements are already there and they can basically jump right into the action, AND feel disappointment and sorrow — grief, honestly — for the loss of what we have been anticipating for so long.

Good and bad, light and shadow, joy and pain — they aren’t mutually exclusive. One does not cancel out the other. They can coexist…and sometimes they must. Don’t try to stamp out one side or the other, either in your own heart or in someone else.

Feel your big feelings. Give them space to breathe. Feelings are neutral; it’s what you do with them that counts.

So hang in there. We’re all in this together 💛

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My ladies!

Powerful women being a power couple

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Hannibal 2x05 "Mukozuke"

And after that, Hannibal proceeds to exonerate Will from his accusations.

I mean, he could have done it before, but no. He has to wait until Will proves himself worthy.

He's so proud. 🖤

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This is a brief notice that I am still here.

I won't bore you all with what's been going on. None of it is particularly exciting anyway.

I've written very little, but one reason for that is I was unhappy with something in the fic and couldn't put my finger on it. I've figured that much out, at least, thanks to some slightly delirious inspiration, and it's cleared the path to the end of the fic.

Now I just need my free time, energy levels and health to align so I can get writing again.

I haven't been cheating on this fic with the Hazbin Hotel fandom either, despite the show and music consuming my soul. No, sadly, I just haven't been writing anything.

I've got the itch back. Just need to find the time and energy.

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Oh man, what a beautiful, tragic rendition!

TOTK - Eternal (part 1)

part 2 here

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The scene in the very first episode of Hannibal when Will dramatically says „he’s eating them“, referring to Hobbs victims, with then the cut to Hannibal preparing dinner while classical music is playing is just… comedic. It’s a brilliant introduction to Hannibal as a character bc while everyone else is suffering, is taking psychological damage, Hannibal is having the time of his life.

When watching Hannibal you can’t be shocked or horrified at the subject matter, you have to get over it bc the show is very much using it as a metaphor and using it as a background and aesthetic. Ethics become aesthetics. Everything that happens is horrific but that’s not important, that’s not the point, so they throw it in your face right at the beginning.

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Quick update with no tags that I will probably delete soon:

Have been a little overwhelmed with other stuff. Very much hoping to use what *should* be an easy next week to put some real writing work in. Hopefully get the next chapter done and out.

Especially since the week after that is going to be jam packed with stressful bullshit. Ending with a bridal shower on the weekend that I very, very much do not want to attend. Attached to a wedding coming way too soon (Nov) that omg, is a lengthy Catholic affair that may snap my neurodivergent in several ways brain entirely in two.

On the other hand, whatever I'm writing by then, I'll probably drift off and write in my head for however many hours it takes. That or work myself into a meltdown.

You know, if I don't burst into flames when I set foot inside the church. It hasn't happened yet, but they usually make me feel like I was burned as a witch in a past life.

I'm also hoping the reception can't meet my dietary restrictions so I can just flee to home afterward.

*sigh* it's not even a cool, old church.

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Fandoms deliciously colliding!

It's a c(H)annibal thing…

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Public Service Announcement

Beware Of This SCAM

There is a new(ish?) scam going through fandom spaces. I've been meaning to speak up about my experience here on tumblr, and today I discovered the scam is being pulled via AO3, ff.net and certainly other fan spaces.

It's particularly interesting here on tumblr because they chat with you. Either via bot, or someone with a script and a rough grasp of english.

This was the second one I received. The first was odd, but that one and this had what looked like (read probably stolen) original work on their tumblr. The first one I engaged with about "my OCs" and the bot was more convincing when I rambled about past OCs. This one had, you can see, some odd responses, but at least had put some effort into their page. (Though it's changed.)

Both wanted me to commission art of my OCs from them. This is the essence of the scam. "Do you have OCs? Pay me to draw them!"

I believe, in this case, I got on their radar by liking Hellaverse art.

This one I poked at deliberately to see if it was a human scam or a bot. I wanted to see what it would do.

Each time, outside of ignoring the messages, it was saying I'm broke that it shut down. Although, hilariously, this last time, it tried again after a week.

Though it targeted me through the Hellaverse fandoms, it is in no way restricted to them.

This is the image recently posted to reddit. Note the focus on drawing your OCs. I imagine this scam looks a little different everywhere, but the same theme pops up.

As one commenter noted, for supposedly being enamoured of the author's OC, the message doesn't include a single detail.

Again, this has been a Public Service Announcement.

Watch out for this sort of behaviour in any of your fandom spaces.

Stay safe, folks!

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For future inspiration. ^_^

We see Hannibal calming Will, especially in the earlier seasons where he was spiraling, and later, he stops him from shooting the social worker. I want to see the roles reversed, where Hannibal is in a bloodlust frenzy, and Will gentles him like he is one of those feral dogs he finds on the side of the road.

Pinning Hannibal down, cupping his face if he can, forcing Hannibal to look Will in the eye if he won't, hissing "look at me." Maybe Will biting him in the neck to shock him out of it, resting their foreheads together, exhaling calmness as they share breath. Will petting his hair, whispering things like, "I got you," "we're okay," and "you’re mine."

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Your tags are a lovely suggestion. Sadly, my culture is Canadian with British roots, and poutine, nanimo bars, stew, roasts, and pies were not suitable options for my fic. I tried a roast in my first and stew in my second draft.

Still, I do love the idea of writers representing their cultures. If I ever write a holiday fic where a roast turkey and fixins is applicable, I could write the hell outta that.

You know what's hard to write? Hannibal cooking.

I can't skip the scene. It's way too important, but I'm now itching to change the menu a third time, which means rewriting large parts of it *again*.

Why does everything Hannibal does have to be drenched in layers of meaning? I know it will never be as good as the show, but argh! I can do better!

No, not ortalan, but I couldn't resist the gif.

Seriously, if anyone has advice on cooking "beef" heart in a way that isn't a stew, I'm all ears.

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I'm not upset or insulted or anything. Or criticizing, or whatever.

I found that I both didn't want to argue the merits of the show's symbolism (I don't feel prepared to do so and might even end up agreeing with you) and I realized that what ultimately mattered to me were my own standards, as I stated.

I should have been more clear on that point. That it was a more recent realization. Sorry, my bad!

You know what's hard to write? Hannibal cooking.

I can't skip the scene. It's way too important, but I'm now itching to change the menu a third time, which means rewriting large parts of it *again*.

Why does everything Hannibal does have to be drenched in layers of meaning? I know it will never be as good as the show, but argh! I can do better!

No, not ortalan, but I couldn't resist the gif.

Seriously, if anyone has advice on cooking "beef" heart in a way that isn't a stew, I'm all ears.

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It's true, but that's not the part I'm struggling with.

This is nearing the climax of a captivity fic where Will could still go either way. This is Will's kill, Abigail is joining them for dinner, and it's a mix of celebration, seduction, and that easy sort of intimidation Hannibal posesses. All from Will's point of view. And.. more I can't say.

Jokes will happen, but this is a tense, pivitol precurser to a confrontation in some form. Not necessarily physical, but a fight to the death is not off the table.

Hannibal would have a plan.

But it's ok. The food was the bit I was struggling with the most. Maybe I can proceed more smoothly now.

Thanks!

You know what's hard to write? Hannibal cooking.

I can't skip the scene. It's way too important, but I'm now itching to change the menu a third time, which means rewriting large parts of it *again*.

Why does everything Hannibal does have to be drenched in layers of meaning? I know it will never be as good as the show, but argh! I can do better!

No, not ortalan, but I couldn't resist the gif.

Seriously, if anyone has advice on cooking "beef" heart in a way that isn't a stew, I'm all ears.

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Actually, in this case, it's about what Hannibal intends. The character is theatrical, and symbolism is important to him. There are a lot of ways this dinner could go, but they all have momentous consequences.

So, it's *really* about my own standards, even if it's simpler for me to hold up the show as the standard.

You know what's hard to write? Hannibal cooking.

I can't skip the scene. It's way too important, but I'm now itching to change the menu a third time, which means rewriting large parts of it *again*.

Why does everything Hannibal does have to be drenched in layers of meaning? I know it will never be as good as the show, but argh! I can do better!

No, not ortalan, but I couldn't resist the gif.

Seriously, if anyone has advice on cooking "beef" heart in a way that isn't a stew, I'm all ears.