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For all those who need this right now. Stay strong! Support your friends and be there for each other.

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Ya, aside from the child of divorce stuff...

As someone with depression? (And diagnoses.) Lots of people assume that I keep canceling things, or just not wanting to go to things, because I don't care about them. Couldn't be farther from the truth!

With a kid especially, how do you explain that you dearly love them but your brain is so gripped by depression that you can't leave the house? Or that social gatherings are likely to cause a panic attack, etc. Etc.

I've been lucky so far that my neice is too young to try to understand, and forgets pretty quickly as long as I keeps showing up for most stuff (cause I'm doing a bit better now) but eventually I'm gonna have to explain and for years she'll just be too young to understand.

We went through a period already where she assumed I'd be leaving shortly after I arrived. I stayed 3 weeks for Christmas, and the first week and a bit, she kept thinking I'd be gone the next day. Which was heartbreaking, and she's not even my kid. (And even though I usually stay for an extended long weekend or more when I can.

So ya. Lucifer's been highly depressed, and Charlie's waning trust and enthusiasm because of all the disappointment probably broke him even more. It's a vicious cycle.

Depression is isolating in a way that is as steep a slope to climb out of as the illness itself. That's why those who stick with you despite it are the best people in the world.

I’m so curious as to why Charlie was under the impression that her dad never wanted to see her, when we saw that he really does. 🤔

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A Due: Affannato Allegrezza

Writer @jaded-quill

Artist @moonsfortunes

Lucifer Morningstar, fallen angel and King of Hell, was in a funk. To put it mildly. It was a state of being that he was intimately familiar with, but it was his first truly bad day since he moved into Charlie’s hotel. In this moment, he desperately wanted to hide in his room. Maybe stay there for a decade or two.

...

The music Lucifer heard was piano, jazz in particular. Even though he loathed the demon who was almost certainly playing it, Lucifer still couldn’t resist the pull. He paused outside the door, just slightly ajar, to really listen. Alastor was a skilled pianist. Not that he’d say that to the demon’s face, but he’d admit it in the confines of his own mind. He didn’t recognize the current piece, but it was definitely swing. It would be deliciously fun to dance to.

OR

Lucifer and Alastor have a tentative truce as they share their love of music, and discover more about themselves and each other along the way.

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Oh my. This hits so close to home.

#LuciAngstWeek2025

Day 2: Outcast/Failure

Just tell him how he needs to be for you to love him!

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Lol, the subtitles on 3 and 4 send me.

Hannibal (2013-2015)

3x11 - “And the Beast From the Sea”

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This really says it all, but I'll try to get my own post up tomorrow. My brain is so tired that just getting my fic up was a major accomplishment.

Moon and Fly are both awesome!

It’s time for the wonderful Eggsplosion event me and quite a few other artist and writers are apart of!

I had so much fun interacting with each and every one of them. They have inspires me soo much I can never thank them enough!

Now with further ado I present A Musical Magic Show, by yours truly. And the wonderful writers who choose to give the piece wonderful stories.

We have the lovely JadeQuill and her tear jerking story, A Due: Affannato Allegrezza, this one got me so emotional and it’s only the first chapter too!

Her Tumbler: https://www.tumblr.com/jaded-quill

And

The lovely FlyWolf, with a mix of humor and major angst has, Something Beneath. There is only one chapter up but it made me laugh so hard. I am excited for the rest.

Fly’s Socials

Her Tumbler: https://www.tumblr.com/flywolfwriting/770580159348768768/egg-plosion-is-here?source=share

Her BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/flywolf33.bsky.social

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I'll have mine finished in time I swear!

Posting Week!!!

Time certainly flies by and boy, do we have some amazing works to share in two weeks!

That's right, everyone who signed up and did the thing is preparing for posting week!! Everyone’s work will be showcased here and links to stories and art will be shared here!!

Several amazing pieces are on their way and we're so exicted to show you!!!

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Quick FYI, Tissandier has not been abandoned. I couldn't write for a while, yay depression!

I tried.

Before my writer's block, I signed up for a fic/art exchange as my first foray into Hazbin Hotel. I wanted to be done Tissandier by then, but it didn't happen.

On the plus side, the discord group for the exchange is full of hype, and I got my muse back. 9k into what might be a 14k fic.

Also, have ideas, inspiration, for Tissandier again.

The Hazbin Hotel exchange fics will come out after Christmas, and the plan is to move back to Tissandier properly when I'm done (before ultimately diving even deeper into Hazbin).

Plus side, I realized what was bugging me about the chapter I got stuck on, and the final result should be much more enjoyable. Only 3 or 4 parts left to go. Given I've been averaging 4k+ words a chapter, it's entirely possible I get it finished before spring. Though Jan and Feb are often a struggle. Canada in the winter, am I right?

Anyway, more chapters will be coming. Don't let the Hazbin fic discourage you when it drops. And sorry about the wait.

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I am gonna make it through this year, and the next four, if it kills me.

I will outlive this fascist sonuvabitch if it's the last thing I do.

I'm going to survive to see things get better and drag as many people as I can with me and that is a THREAT.

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Something like this?

Crime against me specifically that we've never seen Cas shielding Dean from bullets by protectively enclosing him in his wings.

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I've left social gatherings to go cry a few times in my life. For various reasons. I was always sad when no one came out to find me (I wanted to be alone, but not forgotten). Or worse, they came out to chastise me for my tears. (I had/have caring friends, to be clear. They just all assumed I'd want to be left alone, which is only true to a point when overwhelmed.)

I love RadioApple. I identify far too much with Lucifer. I wouldn't be into Alastor, even if he was a woman, cause he's just too cruel, but I appreciate this version of him so much. Even if his intentions aren't pure, and his words are a little harsh, he's not shaming Lucifer, and he's expressing that people want his company. For me, that would have meant the world.

❤️❤️❤️🦌🍎

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Already broken

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This sums it up pretty well.

Now where are the words of wisdom for someone who got a year of Masterclass mostly to learn from Gaiman and has been too thrown to take advantage of the other great authors on there?

What a fucking waste of money.

Remember: you don’t have to choose.

You can be grateful that we are getting an on-screen, canon completion to Good Omens, AND devastated that the time we had anticipated getting to spend with our favorite idiots has been slashed by 75%.

You can acknowledge how close the series obviously came to being canned entirely and give a sigh of relief, AND weep for the storylines and flashbacks that will be chiseled away or cut entirely.

You can logically accept that a good movie can accomplish a hell of a lot in ninety minutes, and Good Omens will have a massive leg-up because all of the establishing elements are already there and they can basically jump right into the action, AND feel disappointment and sorrow — grief, honestly — for the loss of what we have been anticipating for so long.

Good and bad, light and shadow, joy and pain — they aren’t mutually exclusive. One does not cancel out the other. They can coexist…and sometimes they must. Don’t try to stamp out one side or the other, either in your own heart or in someone else.

Feel your big feelings. Give them space to breathe. Feelings are neutral; it’s what you do with them that counts.

So hang in there. We’re all in this together 💛

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My ladies!

Powerful women being a power couple

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Hannibal 2x05 "Mukozuke"

And after that, Hannibal proceeds to exonerate Will from his accusations.

I mean, he could have done it before, but no. He has to wait until Will proves himself worthy.

He's so proud. 🖤

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This is a brief notice that I am still here.

I won't bore you all with what's been going on. None of it is particularly exciting anyway.

I've written very little, but one reason for that is I was unhappy with something in the fic and couldn't put my finger on it. I've figured that much out, at least, thanks to some slightly delirious inspiration, and it's cleared the path to the end of the fic.

Now I just need my free time, energy levels and health to align so I can get writing again.

I haven't been cheating on this fic with the Hazbin Hotel fandom either, despite the show and music consuming my soul. No, sadly, I just haven't been writing anything.

I've got the itch back. Just need to find the time and energy.

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Oh man, what a beautiful, tragic rendition!

TOTK - Eternal (part 1)

part 2 here