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nesta & cassian

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to my nessian stans: is it just me or do geralt and yennefer from the witcher give off major nessian energy?? yennefer and nesta are so similar to me and if geralt wasn’t so brooding him and cassian would be so much alike

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i would absolutely LOVE for someone to spoil acosf for me and all the nessian scenes i cant wait

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Nesta was different. As if the Cauldron in making her… had been forced to give more than it wanted. As if Nesta had fought even after she went under, and had decided that if she was to be dragged into hell, she was taking that Cauldron with her. 

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“You were sleeping so sweetly,” she said. “Dreaming” He touched her tender mouth. “About what?” “Come closer, and I will tell you.” But he forgot. He kissed her, and became lost in the exquisite sensation of his skin becoming too tight for his body. He murmured other things instead.

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Patrick Swayze in Dirty Dancing (1987) 

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seeing a lot of posts lately regarding nessian and how nesta wasn’t treated poorly by the inner circle or rhysand/feyre... i’m sorry but did we read the same series LMFAO??? it’s not even an argument that nesta got way worse treatment from the inner circle than feyre ever did when they were dealing with their respective trauma and do you know why? because feyre was rhysands mate and because of that, she got special treatment for literally everything when her sister, who is experiencing the same shit if not worse, is treated like garbage for not fitting into their perfect little family circle. and don’t even get me started on mor and how’s she one of the most selfish characters in the series, using both cassian and azriel as rebounds and crutches for her own decision of choosing to not come out with her sexuality. she doesn’t even like cassian OR azriel and yet she feels this entitlement to them and god forbid cassian ever express feelings for nesta in front of mor. so yeah in conclusion, i believe in nessian supremacy.

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A Court of Silver Flames | Coming January 2021

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“But I’m the Queen of Faerie,” I shout, and for a moment, there is silence. Then everyone around me begins to laugh. I can feel my cheeks heat. Tears of frustration and fury prick my eyes as, a beat too late, Cardan laughs with them.

— The Wicked King, Holly Black

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Okay so this is kinda useless because I can’t remember where I found it but I read a one-shot recently where Nesta finally went to an IC dinner or party with Cassian and wanted to leave so he went with her and the whole IC was CRUEL towards her “making” him leave and Cas stood up to them and then Mor apologized and made an attempt at amends. It was an apt representation of how mean the IC is towards Mor, Cas defended Nesta, and at least Mor tried to apologize. But I can’t remember who it’s by.

i read this fic yesterday actually omg!! it’s by stardustsroses i’m pretty sure, if u search nessian on her profile u should be able to find!! i’d try to link it but i’m on mobile right now haha

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Your latest post about feysand stans baiting nessian stans into reading their fics/looking at their aesthetics is *chef's kiss*. I always check out the Nessian tag and they've recently been bombarded with Elriel fics and Feysand fics that barely mention Nessian. Like please, we don't wanna see that. Tag it properly

exactly!! just tag your posts correctly, it’s that easy!! there’s nothing i hate more than going into the nessian tag just to see nesta hate, stop disrespecting the queen and get out of her tag y’all are just messy

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stop tagging nessian on feysand posts we don’t care about feyre and rhysands crusty asses

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nessian only valid acotar ship

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i NEED a nessian fanfic where cassian finally gives mor and rhys shit for how they’re treating nesta pls someone make my dreams come true

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thoughts on sjm possibly making nesta apologizing to the circle even though she was exiled? feyre seems to force her to do things even though nesta clearly doesn’t belong. i don’t like that everyone expects her to join their group, they expect her to be ok after the war and seeing her father die in front of her eyes, and expect her to be like them. feyre’s always been the brave one, elain’s the people pleaser who will fake a smile but nesta isn’t and i love her for being so raw and realistic.

I… feel a bit icky about the idea of Nesta apologizing to the inner circle.

I think that it would be kind of Nesta to apologize to Feyre for her behaviour during those hungry years in their cabin. It would show a lot of growth in her, and it would surely be a little knife against her pride. However, I do feel like Nesta’s actions speak much louder than any apology she could say to Feyre, because even though Nesta always pushed Feyre away, she was the one that went out in search for her sister when Tamlin took her. Nesta shows Feyre that she loves her, and that she is sorry for the way she treated her youngest sister. An apology would only be a reflection of that - I think what really counts, and what Feyre should damn well keep in mind, is that her sister risked her life to save her.

In my opinion, Nesta has no need to apologize to the inner circle. She owns them nothing. I get it, I do. In her eyes, it’s their fault that she’s lost her humanity. It’s their fault that her father is dead. It’s their fault that she’s… different. Remember how much Nesta hated the Fae even before her sister was taken. Remember how afraid she was of them. She will put Tamlin, Lucien and all of the Night Court in the same bag. She doesn’t give a flying fork who’s better than who - and I get that.

All in all, I won’t mind if Nesta shows Feyre that she’s sorry. Is an apology necessary after she risked her life for Feyre’s? Well, like I said, her actions speak louder than her words, and we know Nesta has trouble with voicing her emotions. If Feyre can’t see how her sister is trying, then I say it’s Feyre’s own damn fault.

I actually despised the way Feyre treated Nesta in the last book. She was judgmental, rash, hateful and even cruel at times. She treated Nesta as if she was an inconvenience - something to be dealt with. I don’t care how many times Feyre defended Nesta in front of Rhysand - to me, that just makes Feyre a hypocrite. But I mean, let’s not talk about Rhys’ and Feyre’s characterization in acofas because both went miserably downhill for me. My point is, Nesta is in pain.

Nesta is in pain.

And no one can look past this wall that Nesta built around herself - not even Cassian. Except for Elain, and at times Cassian, the others’ reactions when it comes to Nesta is look at her as if she’s the problem. Why aren’t they trying?

Fuck, why do they all coddle Elain and leave Nesta out in the cold?

I will say this: when someone is as broken down as Nesta is, they don’t don’t know the difference between a hand that’s extended towards them and a hand that’s ready to snap their neck. For her, everytime Cassian tries to reach out, her mind instantly goes to hell, because instead of thinking he’s trying to help me, the only thing she can think of is, he feels pity and feels obligated to help me. And to someone as proud as Nesta, you can see how that would only add to her pain.

She asked for none of this.

She simply wanted her life back. A life that was taken away from her without her permission. Hell, first, her mother who never spared her a second glance perished right in front of her, second, she lost her house, forced to live in the cold, hungry and helpless, and was looked down by everyone else. Third, she lost her sister, faced dangers to save her, only to be captured and then thrown into a world she never wanted to know? She was violated. 

Of course she is in pain. Of course she’s enraged.

Now add to all that suffering Feyre scowling at her, judging her coping mechanisms when Nesta doesn’t know any better with a hint of her sister’s new perfect little family looking at her like she’s a beast that needs to be leashed.

Add to all of that, being exiled from somewhere she doesn’t even consider home.

And she’s supposed to thank Feyre? To say, “Oh, my, thank you, really, that’s all I ever wanted, to be forced to deal with feelings I don’t understand and be dragged to only fuck-knows-where with a male I have confusing feelings for.”

???????????

Nesta owns no one an apology.

If she wishes to say, “Feyre, I’m sorry I treated you the way I did.” Fine. 

But more than that? I will not accept it.

What I would like to see? Feyre apologizing. Rhysand apologizing. Cassian trying a little harder, without pushing her too far. The inner circle respecting her boundaries, for once. And for Nesta to be extended a hand without being forced to take it.

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does anyone have any nessian fics where cassian defends nesta against rhysand/the rest of the inner circle??? pls i’m desperate

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—It was yours before I could ever admit it and yours it shall ever remain.