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PLS, I LOVE YOU, CAN YOU DRAW SOME STEVE STUFF🥹🥹🥹

(Bonus points if you add some sad stuff w/ his dad😕)

atp I’m just going to make a reference for every member of the gang…soda is next most likely because he has the most asks

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@dudegender

latino!steve randle who tries his best to suppress any instinct to speak spanish because his mom left him when he was ten; why should he honour her by speaking her language?

and he hates that he can’t suppress the way spanish music on the radio reminds him of home

he hates that when he gets mad the first words that come to mind are the same ones his mother screamed as she walked out the door for the last time

he hates that calling soda "cielo" and "mi amor" is as natural as breathing while "darling" and "love" feel clunky in his mouth

he hates that the shepards feel inherently more trustworthy and safe than they really are just because steve's the only one who can understand their banter

but as much as he hates it, he hates all of it, he can't make it go away.

and then there's two-bit, who still curses his father out in italian five years after he's run off

and there's ponyboy, who uses his first earnings to sign up for a spanish class so he can talk to steve

and there's darry, who starts spending more time with tim and now says "mierda" instead of "shit" when he burns his hand while cooking

and there's johnny, who doesn't say much but listens, and doesn't say a word about steve switching languages mid-sentence

and there's dally, who imitates motors by rolling his 'r's, something he learned from steve himself

and then there's soda

soda who was never any good at school but pays attention in spanish class because he wants to have a secret language with his best friend

soda who can hardly string two words together, but he tries, and in ninth grade he asks steve if he wants to walk home together in spanish

soda whose brown doe eyes practically turn to hearts when he manages to coax steve into saying a couple sentences in spanish

soda who bribes curly shepard with a pack of cigarettes into teaching him common terms of endearment only to find out half of them were insults

soda who doesn't say "i love you" but "te quiero", whispered into the buzzing silence of their new apartment

and all of that doesn't make steve stop remembering his mother every time cesar costa comes up on the radio, but it helps. he can't erase memories, no one can, but he can add more. he can dilute the rotten bits of the past with the overwhelming care from his friends.

maybe one day hearing a 'kh' will make him think of long shifts at the dx, helping soda with his homework, instead of "hijo de puta" and a slam of the door.

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something that I feel like is missing from fandom nowadays is the idea that you dont have to have a unified, chronologically/tonally consistent interpretation of your favorite work. your fics dont have to fit within the same version of canon, even if theyre all canon-compliant on their own. your headcanons can contradict each other. be a multishipper. write metas that take two totally different interpretations of the same plot point. write a character as a villain and then write them as the hero next time. write a character as a lesbian and then write them as straight next time! engage in hypotheticals and drop them when you get bored! make up the rules as you go!! have fun with it!!!

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Posting this unfinished bc I'm planning to start over when I don't have artblock anymore🧍‍♂️ anywaysss...PONYBOY‼️

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thinking about mr curtis again, do you think when he took the boys hunting he sometimes took dally too :(

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Bisexual Ponyboy is someone who has the most impeccable taste in girls (head over heels with Cherry the second he met her) and the most god awful taste in men. He had the most intensely toxic situationship with Mark known to mankind and was actually boyfriends with Curly.

His brothers want him to date girls not for any homophobic or biphobic reasons but because every guy he brings home looks like he found them in the trash

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read ms s.e hinton's christmas fanfic for the curtis bros for the first time

im in tears.

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Every time I remember that the gang plays football together, the image of Matt Dillon getting full body tackled by Patrick Swayze plays in my mind and my day gets a little brighter

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the outsiders is such a cringe movie. the acting is horrible and the music is always a thousand times louder than the dialogue. but i eat it up every time. i love it

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Getting Bob rehab and therapy appointments. Maybe a eulogy

what id get the characters from the outsiders for Christmas:

ponyboy- therapy and a really nice journal

Johnny- a chocolate cupcake and I’d wash his jacket

Sodapop- brownies where I add too much cocoa powder and add frosting on top as well. And a girlfriend who doesn’t leave him.

Darry- a really good hug and a professional massage

two bit- marcia

ace- a pretty dress

Marcia- two bit

Cherry- a good nights sleep and a really good hug

Chet- a kick in the face (lovingly)

Paul- a gay flag

trip- a punch in the face

Bev- more cigarettes!!

Melvin- aces number

Sergei- a kiss with his best friend

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soemthing something two-bit mathews going home after the rumble in shock after losing two friends. his mom asks what’s wrong and he means to be break the news more gently but he tells her she doesn’t have to make the couch for johnny anymore and he suddenly bursts into tears unable to hide them anymore

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Ponyboy core

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STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT AUUGGGH GET OUT OF MY HEAD

So big/so small from dear Evan Hansen is so darry coded and in this essay I will-

For ref these lyrics in particular. Someone ask me about this.

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it’s the way that ponyboy is literally just a kid who’s had all odds against him because of his circumstances yet continues to think everything is his fault. he thinks everything he touches dies because everything is fragile but he himself is fragile. it’s the way that a child cries when accidentally breaking a vase. it’s the way that a child cries when accidentally breaking the bones of a baby bird despite trying to be gentle with it. he’s so purely sorry and terrified of what he’s done. and death puts him in the corner, not explaining why his friends and family continue to leave him. and it leads him to believe it’s because he’s been bad. but it’s crazy to think that a soul so innocent is capable of causing something so catastrophic. and that’s why he views himself as grotesquely unlovable. he’s not just any kid. he’s a kid with a curse.

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i love them

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"My best friends brothers essay finale. He got jumped ONCE"

RIP Steve Randle, you would’ve loved posting things Ponyboy said/did on r/im14andthisisdeep

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RIP Steve Randle, you would’ve loved posting things Ponyboy said/did on r/im14andthisisdeep