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Kxxxxxxx

YOUKNOWWHOYOUARE : Part II

Ivy Sirena

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Jack, Jack, Jack. We are so much older now. From what I see, you look happy. I’m so fucking happy about that. I’m drunk out of my mind and I’m laying on my roof and I’m thinking about the ice cream and your roof and Daughter and the football field. I’m so happy you’re happy now, Jack. I’m 21 now. I’m so much older and it’s kinda funny to think back all those years ago. I care for you my friend. I cherish our time so much. They tore down the old school. I think of you with happiness.

we are older- and yet, memories persist.  Sometimes I want all of them gone and forgotten, but, my god, what an awful existence this would be without the knowledge that sometimes, when I think of someone I love, they are doing the same in a parallel, faraway place.  I (very) often look up at the night sky and time travel, in my head, and lay down on that field again before an overwhelming feeling of existential sadness pours over me- and it’s not my familiar existential crisis where I think about how small the earth is, and how powerless we are to the will of the universe- I miss you to fucking hell, K

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Not where (I know where) but why?

a bunch of reasons, mostly cuz we had to get out of Central Oregon tho

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I wandered, last night, through a dark house full of familiar people.  Once familiar.  Always familiar.  I saw J***** for the first time in years, and we spoke like it was not years that it had been.  I saw S***** and she still dressed the same way, which comforted me.  I saw A****.  When I did, I took her by the shoulders and said “oh my god, it has been so long, I have missed you”.  She pushed me back and said “I’m sure you did; just like when we walked to the park and you never even looked at me.”  I remembered that day, like it happened, though it did not.  I remembered how sorry I was that I overlooked someone so kind.  

And when I woke

I still felt sorry.  

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I have been blessed with a Spotify artists account.

I would greatly appreciate it if anyone were to listen to my electronic, witch house inspired music

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(via https://open.spotify.com/user/19w695g2wehg7t9xlqtskpmnz/playlist/1O6jy4R3gTfWODnQO5uAXs?si=_bP4lu7hQGyTAPscrZiHfw)

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(via https://open.spotify.com/artist/3KwgSR7vmUbkumi5zGBV9F?si=kR5e6ScPSxyDlVN7_oTQxQ)

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please help out <3

hey y’all! my names ali im 19 , queer, an artist. im not doing well with my mental health lately and i’m seriously considering dropping out of my college program or going down to part time status. i have been paying tuition, rent , groceries etc.. through OSAP (ontario student loans/grants) and if i drop out, 

1. i will need to start paying back the  money i was given within 6 months of my withdrawal

2. i will need to start paying rent /groceries etc.. with my own money. 

the other issue with this is that i have never been able to keep a part time let alone full time job because of my mental health. i tend to need to take extended periods of times off and this doesn’t go well with employers. and even if it does, i don’t get many hours.

anyways, if u would like to help u can buy me a ko-fi  ______________

https://ko-fi.com/alibrown#

or help out directly through paypal.me ______________________________

https://www.paypal.me/goblingirl

even just one kofi , or a small paypal amount , can help out in the long run.

if u would like a doodle /commission piece in return for ur kindness , please message me <3

(3$-15$) : small or medium doodle

(15$+) : medium or large doodle 

THANK YOU IN ADVANCE  i love u all <3 

_ REBLOGS HELP 2_

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(HellPopStar)

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and the music is old

it is an artifact of the aforementioned time 

What's the new music inspired by?

the summer of 2015 was unlike and will be unlike any other time in my life

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What's the new music inspired by?

the summer of 2015 was unlike and will be unlike any other time in my life