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wow i was googling suicide methods ranked by lethality and i found an article about game of thrones deaths ranked xdddd

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guess who should not have to deal with panic attacks because they already are on

☆~medication~☆

guess who just had a

☆~panic attack~☆

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guess who just had a

☆~panic attack~☆

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Nobody understands so I’ll just keep it all to myself.

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Does trying to get better even make sense? It’s so much work. Too much. It’s easier to just kill myself. It’s not like anyone would care that much anyway

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i can physically feel myself falling back to the hole i managed to crawl out of

i can't believe i actually thought i could be happy

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me @depression: This is so sad, Alexa play I Don't Need You by BFMV

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Does trying to get better even make sense? It's so much work. Too much. It's easier to just kill myself. It's not like anyone would care that much anyway

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The thing is I know what to do to stay clean. I could go and let this urge pass. But I won't, because my knife is nearer. And I think a part of me doesn't want to fight this.

I want to feel like I'm in control of at least something. I want to feel anything other than wanting to die and this constant numbness. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I just want it all to end.

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Do you think repeating "i cant relapse" in my head is gonna make me stay clean tonight?

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You know, i feel like I'm trapped here and everything in life is out to get me and I just want out and death is my only escape. But all those people telling me that killing myself and ending it all isn't the answer are just taking my only way out away from me and it makes me feel even worse

Would you really rather have me suffering here than finally finding peace in death?

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Oh great, this is such a good evening to feel suicidal again

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Your time's up. You had your chance to kill me, but you didn't so now back the hell off, it's my time to shine.

Me @ my depression

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HONESTLY: REBLOG THIS IF YOU HAVE EVER SELF HARMED IN ANY WAY, SKIPPED A MEAL ON PURPOSE, BEEN DEPRESSED, FELT ALONE IN A CROWDED ROOM, HATED YOUR BODY, HATED YOURSELF, FELT LIKE YOUR NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR BEEN TOLD YOU WERENT, CRIED YOURSELF TO SLEEP, FELT SUICIDAL OR BEEN SUICIDAL

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Can someone like please come here and kill me? I really don't wanna do this anymore

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So I had like three good days. Why couldn't I stay there? I knew this would come back, this always comes back. Why did I wake up today? I'd much rather stay unconscious.