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I wish I could say I made this. Also throw in 🍷

Seriously though.

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I fall in love with everything I also hate everything. It’s very hard to be a misanthrope and a romantic.

Marilyn Manson (via wnq-music)

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Yaaaassss! I say play "shot roulette" and play that old school math game 24. I mean you're turning 25 but still, that game will be hilarious when drunk. Get the roomies (minus meg) to play with you!!! #24challenge

i think i’m gonna make a tipsy video for my birthday! what should i do?

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"Stop and take two steps back"- easier said than done

I can’t for some reason shake the fact that I can’t stop “living in the past” in my mind. I go on a walk to clear my head and for some reason there’s been countless minutes and steps walking thinking about all the things that I could’ve done or should have done and then think about my life now, in the present and how it would’ve been if I would’ve taken a different path and then I think “Ok, all right stop, you can’t think that way because it didn’t happen, why the fuck are you wasting all this fucking time thinking about the way your life could’ve been if you, maybe, on the off chance you would’ve taken a different route rather than trying to figure out what road you’re going to turn onto next!” Yes that quite literally is what I said to myself but really thinking about our next turn is really quite difficult to think about because it’s actually MUCH easier to let your mind wander and daydream about all the “cool” things you could’ve done :maybe you’d be famous,maybe people would like you more, maybe you’d have more friends, maybe you’d have a cooler place to live in, more money in your bank account but then you need to just fucken STOP, take two steps back and breathe cause that was a butt load of thoughts all at once and shit man, you’re mind must be ready to explode. Stop and think, what the fuck does that all matter? Think of what you’ve got right now, seriously, think about it because I promise it’s more than you really thought. I bet you’re saying “I’ve got a dozen really good people around me that actually care about me, I have a roof over my head and it’s pretty fucking dope too, I have a car, have a dog who loves me no matter what fucked up thing I end up being, also I bet you’re like me saying I have a really good job and when I mean really good I mean fucking hit the jackpot with that one and was graced with a boss that lets me have my fun too and go on the adventures that allow me to be the free being I want to be, hell I mean the free person I AM. But, the question still remains: "why am I still not satisfied?” I am pretty sure that’s the question that we all ask ourselves, “why are we still not satisfied and is it selfish to want more?” Some may think it’s kind of childish or maybe even that’s one of the other million thoughts in your head right now. It’s like that kid who has 40 gifts that always asks how many more presents she has rather than being satisfied with the ones she has in front of her. (Yeah I used she rather than he, whys it always gotta be a dude?) Yeah yeah and some people might think oh my god get the fuck over it you’re just being a whiny millennial who is just lazy and wants things placed in front of them without putting in the work. Ya, well guess what I don’t care and I’m proud because my generation is pretty fucking dope. Were are pretty progressive and making life better for those marginalized groups that deserve better and we love you no matter who you love or what gender you are. All right, so there’s that point that had to be made but anyway back to the main point, if there is one here. It doesn’t matter!!! Anyone can be sad, mental health is a real serious thing and it’s ok to admit your current mental health status. Words to remember: it’s OK to not always be OK. Ok off that side track.. anddd now I think I’m back on track. I kind of think it’s a good thing to want more and good to never really be completely satisfied with your life because you’re thinking “maybe I know I can get more out of my life, I’m going to do more with my life, maybe I’ll change peoples lives maybe I’ll just change mine and make it even better than it already is cause that’s the point, it ALREADY IS! I need to realize that but why is it so goddamn difficult? Why can’t I sit here and say I have XY and Z, which is a lot of fucking things that a lot of people don’t have, also I’ve traveled to countries that people can only imagine or see online or in the history books (do they still have those?) I’ve seen things people could only imagine, I mean for fucks sake I touched a crocodile and fed monkeys bananas in the jungle in West Africa and celebrated my 22nd birthday in Ghana when I was in college I mean really, who does that? Look at everybody else in life, all those extremely successful people that you know regardless of who they are, if they are an actor, athlete, digital content creator, a politician, author, friend or family member anybody you can think of, they didn’t just stop and settle once they made it, because if they did they wouldn’t be relevant to us anymore they wouldn’t continually be making strides and successes. They knew that there was so much more to life, they weren’t gonna let these little things get to them, they didn’t just stop and say "ok, this is it, I’m done” Now, I get it, it’s easier said than done I can’t even wrap my head around it myself and i’m the one who is fucking writing this. I’m writing it for me and everyone to see that it’s fucking hard, it’s hard to clear your head, it’s hard to be OK with not being OK, it’s hard to not be happy all the time, it’s hard to wonder what the fuck you’re going to do with your life, but the coolest thing is, wait for it…(cue Barney Stinson) no one has it figured out, not one single person and if they look like they do, they are either kidding themselves or just really good at make believe. Yep, this might just be a venting sesh but it’s my little rant or whatever you want to call it to help me try to cope with the fact that it’s OK to not be fully satisfied. And if there are people in your life who say otherwise, don’t listen to them, ignore them when they tell you you’re good! settle and take what you got and just stick with it and don’t make any changes or don’t add anything to your life or don’t take anything away! And why you ask? Because you know who those people are? THOSE are the boring people and you are not boring. Don’t settle, keep moving, you’re never too old to take what’s yours and mold your life into what you want it to be.

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When life hands you apples, make cider and drink it 🤘🏻

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I want to see the world, and I want you to see it with me

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Actually, I just woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to feel like that anymore, or ever again. So I changed. Just like that.

All People Who Have Changed (via alittlebitsouthern)

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i love women. in the feminist way and in the gay way. happy international women’s day

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