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I want to be able to wrap my fingers fully around my ankle

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⚠️TRIGGER WARNING, ED things ⚠️

hi it’s been a very very long time anywayz i am back!!! also everyone on ed twt is so fucking nasty and mean for no real reason!! like sticks up the ass 24/7 like calm down and let people exist jfc

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220.8 🤡🤡🤡🤡

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I'm not original. Oof

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can everybody whos an active ed blog in november/december 2020 please like or reblog this??

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Exercise!!!!!!!!!!!!

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any of y’all over 18 and in the 200s too or is it just me? 🙃

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i ate so much food today and i wanna cry because of it.

this was supposed to be my first day back and i fucked it up.

thankful that christmas is cancelled though✨✨✨

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🌸Like/Reblog if you believe overweight/obese anas and mias exist, are valid, and deserve to recover just as much as those who are underweight. 🌸

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i am hungry.

should i eat some yogurt and fruit??

i already worked out.

i feel light headed but it feels good but like i can’t spell or type or function for shit :/

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how to stop binging and successfully lose weight once and for all

i think the biggest takeaway i’ve gotten from all these endless diets is that the ‘restriction mentality’ is the inevitable downfall of basically all of my weight loss plans.

i define this 'restriction mentality’ as that feeling of dissatisfaction when dieting, and that dissatisfaction is what eventually leads to binging or just giving up entirely.

when you’re on a diet, you will eventually end up facing a time where you look at that bar of chocolate and say fuck it. then your brain tells you “hey, you never know when you can have this again. better eat all of it… along with that bag of chips… and a couple of donuts…and how about pizza for dinner?”. you later regret that binge so you discipline yourself even further, which leads to more binging.

this is the inevitable cycle a 'restriction mentality’ will bring you.

so how exactly can we still successfully diet if dieting is an inevitable cycle of restrict and binge?

quite simply, we must satisfy that 'restriction mentality’.

when i had an ed, i had plans upon plans of detailed meals, calculating calories to the fucking tenth decimal. these were all healthy meal plans like salad, or smoothies, or those disgusting shirataki noodles.

what i failed to include however, was planned satisfaction.

i was so strict with myself, i never planned to indulge in anything that wasn’t conventionally considered diet food.

this. this was my downfall.

now, i know i cannot successfully diet without planning meals that allow me indulge. so instead, i have planned indulgent dinners and planned desserts.

yup. you heard me right. this is a diet where i can have dessert.

personally, i am a person who can fast all day but will fail once it hits dinner. i am an unfortunate individual who refuses to sleep if i am still hungry.

so that’s what i do. i planned indulgent savoury dinners alongside indulgent sweet desserts every single night. through the day i basically fast until noon and have a health smoothie for lunch.

this isn’t a specific schedule you have to follow by. if you are a person who can live without dinner but dies without a good breakfast, then just change it up. 

have a full stack of pancakes with a side of bacon. hell, throw in a glass of orange juice too. then later you can diet with restricting health food while feeling satisfied.

another important thing to note to beat that 'restriction mentality’ is whenever that voice comes up and says “i want to eat that. when will i ever get to eat that again” ..you now have that planned indulgent meal so you can respond… “tomorrow. i can have that chocolate cake or spicy ramen or ice cream. i can have all that tomorrow during my time of planned satisfaction”.

and this is basically how i ended up losing 17lbs. sure it took me over 6 months to achieve this. but after losing and regaining those same 10lbs for 3 years alongside an ed…this was godsend.

i’m still on my weight loss journey, i’m nowhere near the end. but for the first time, i no longer have to worry about binging and i’m constantly satisfied.

i know eds tell you that you have to lose weight as fast as you can so you can be skinny af by the next day. but slap yourself back into reality for a moment and realise that’s never gonna happen. those 'ed success stories’ you keep hearing about? yeah well… they’ve either all binged themselves back or are fucking miserable.

do you want to have a maintainable weight loss while feeling happy and satisfied or be skinny and fucking miserable for it?

i know which one i’m choosing. trust me as someone whose suffered through this for 3 years, it never gets better. even when you’ve hit your gw and you look snatched af, you’re constantly moody and irritable with hunger… it’s just not worth it.

…didn’t really mean for this to be a get help or fucking rest in peace post but you get the idea. just be happy. diet while satisfied and happy = skinny while satisfied and happy. 

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ED things

You know its bad when the first thing you notice about anyone is how thin their legs are and if they have noticeable collarbones or not. Then compare yourself to them all the time and fall down a deep pit of self-hate

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