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*screaming* vox has no shame💀

Red with Envy

Chapter 21: Yellow Card of my RadioStaticApple fic has been posted!

“Lucifer,” Vox sighed with just a hint of exasperation. By this point, he’d come to realize that neither Alastor nor Lucifer could help themselves whenever they saw an opportunity to outshine the other, and rub it in their face, while they were at it. It was basically a gut response that they had no control over. But still…   Lucifer glanced over his shoulder at him sheepishly. “Sorry.”  The door flew open the rest of the way, as Alastor wrested it from Lucifer’s grip. “Vox?” Vox grinned as he lifted a hand and wiggled his fingers at the deer demon in a wave. He made no attempt to cover himself, because what was the point? “Hey, babe.”  “I didn’t know you were here,” he remarked as Lucifer ushered him into the room exasperatedly and shut the door behind him. “Yeah, well, you know if you let me put a camera up in your room, you might get surprise visits, too,” he pointed out slyly.  Alastor sighed and rolled his eyes. “Nice try.” “So, I’m assuming you need something, Bambi?” Lucifer chimed back in, settling into an armchair against the wall. “Cause I’d have to be in a pretty low place before I welcome a social visit from you.”   “Oh? You can get lower?” the Radio Demon commented lightly, to which Lucifer’s only response was to flip him off.  “I wanted to talk to you about a hotel matter, actually,” Alastor continued, coming to stand just beside the edge of the bed, his

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much in the same way that i think charlie overcompensates with excessive pacifism, i think vaggie overcompensates with excessive submission. i've long held the belief that charlie is painfully, intimately aware of her own capacity for violence, and comes down so aggressively on the side of docility and non-confrontation because she's desperately tamping down on that side of her, the side that she doesn't want to feed, doesn't want to be.

but vaggie is a little different. vaggie knows exactly what cruelties she's capable of, and she is not only declawed by her own shame, she also doesn't trust herself to make any decisions anymore, at least not any decisions that are separate from charlie's desires. so she overcompensates by dedicating her every action and intention to charlie. chaggie would nearly be a 24/7 d/s dynamic if charlie was aware of Just How Much vaggie considers herself in service to charlie. this doesn't mean she blindly supports charlie's every whim, but it does mean that even her dissent is still framed in her mind as another facet of loyalty to charlie's vision, that she might disagree with how charlie goes about doing things, but her ultimate goal is still to always help charlie get what she wants. "i'm supposed to protect you, i'm supposed to never fail you—if i can't help you, what's the point of me?" this startles and disturbs charlie to hear, and rightfully so, since charlie has been seeing their relationship as perfectly equal while vaggie seems to see it as a kind of unspoken vassalhood, which is not something i think charlie fully understands, if it all, even by the end of episode 7

the point being, both charlie and vaggie are holding themselves back all of the time, constantly. while charlie keeps her sharp edges messily tucked away, pretending they don't exist even though everyone can see them peaking out from under the closet door, vaggie is continuously grinding down her claws with sandpaper and then almost throwing up with self loathing every time they grow back, out of terror that charlie might see

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I don't think Alastor will have any romantic interactions in canon. I'm perfectly fine with that. But I DO want him and Vox to reconcile. I need them to make up and be buddy buddy again. Give Alastor his equally sociopathic, geriatric friend back.

They'll still argue, but mainly because they're both petty assholes. I just think they really need a friend that isn't invested in protection, their livelihood, ownership, or work. Just someone they get along with, share a drink with at the end of the day, and tell awful dad jokes to.

They'd be so lame and happy and insufferable and I need to see it.

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"VivziePop highlighted Alastor's duality as a character and described him as being the type of person to own two homes, one a fancy townhouse, the other a rickety hunting lodge in a bayou on stilts." This is from the wiki and I have been thinking about it concerning who Alastor is on the show.

You can see the most obvious show of this duality in his room. The room moves from a rather tasteful room to a bayou where he apparently prefers to eat. There is a combination of civilization and wildness. There is the duality of how Alastor can go from seemingly harmless to a literal monster. He is as close to his human side as he is to his animal side.

The duality of being both predator and prey is something that I feel needs its own post to explore but the best example I can think of for creatures that exist with this duality are cats and how they are predators but also constantly worry that other creatures around them are going to hurt them. The duality of pride and fear can even be seen in this. Cats are known for their pride, but a lot of things scare them.

The duality in how he treats those he owns. We have seen Alastor's relationship with 2 of the souls he owns. Alastor is abusive to Husk while he treats Niffty with care. He drags Husk by his chain for disrespect but lets Niffty put a roach crown on his head and call him the roach king. Someone actually pointed out to me that Alastor is the only person at the hotel who treats Niffty like a person. The difference in his treatment of them is so great that some people started theorising that he doesn't own Niffty. However, it is just more of the duality in his nature. His capacity for kindness exists beside his capacity for cruelty.

Vivzie said that Alastor was a chaotic neutral character but also admitted that she wasn't familiar with the terms. She might have been referring to his dual nature and his existence as both good and evil with no idea which version of him you will get. It could also turn out that he is the type to do good for evil reasons and evil for good reasons.

Alastor is the type of character that is best understood when you understand that he is a character that is meant to hold contradicting traits. When only one side of the character is considered, much of the character's depth is lost.

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masc charlie my beloved. her and her little suits and preferring to be called handsome over beautiful. being more of a gentleman than half the men down in hell. not liking wearing dresses. holding doors open for vaggie in classic gentleman fashion. SAVE ME MASC CHARLIE!!

oh yeah and im back from my hiatus bitches 😚

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trying to spread the xana agenda 💕

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To celebrate the completion of my longest fic yet (115,106 words - how the fuck did that happen???), I thought I'd share all my current Hazbin Hotel fic plans! (Yeah, this is partially so I have a written list, cause I keep adding more.)

Red with Envy

Obviously, this is still my AppleMedia WIP, and I have no idea how long it's going to end up being. I have a rough idea of the next 5-6 chapters, but I'll be honest, I don't know where it's going after that. (And no, that is NOT a good ending point; there is a very big issue that will need to be solved, I just currently have no idea how that will be done.)

Cherri Bang Fic

I'm writing a fic for @cherribangevent but I can't share much about it. All I can say is that it will be StaticApple.

A Killer Internship (working title)

This will be another long RadioStatic fic, that will start when they're alive and go into post-Season 1. In life, Vox (then Victor) interns at a radio station under Alastor, but his eyes are set on the prize money for catching the local serial killer. The two men become close, and Victor struggles with some of the things he's feeling for his boss (it's the 20s, so yeah, we're getting internalized homophobia from Mr. Gotta-Be-the-Perfect-Son - daddy issues thrown in for free!), but eventually the shoe drops, and Alastor realizes that Victor's gotten too close to learning the truth and their goals are not compatible. Years later, the old friends reunite in Hell, and Vox is determined that things will be different this time when he approaches his old mentor for an internship under a new name. It's a fresh start, and it has to go better than how things went on Earth - right?

Virgin Sacrifice

This is a StaticApple fic that also takes place when Vox was alive, and it's not as smutty as the title makes it sound. Vox is the leader of a devil-worshipping cult, and he's decided to attempt a summoning. It may be risky, but he has several virgin followers that he's convinced to offer themselves as a sacrifice. Except when Lucifer appears before them, he's not interested in any of them. He's only interested in Vox, and he's... not what Vox expected. And now there's a risk that Vox hadn't anticipated - that he might actually be falling for the devil. Side note: This fic has the potential for a sequel, depending on demand, which would take place with Vox and Lucifer meeting again after Season 1. But there would be a strong possibility for that going in an AppleMedia direction cause Alastor is demanding, and he'd have to be involved.

Cruel Mercy

This is another long AppleMedia fic, and is the one I have the least planned for currently. Vox miscalculated when he attacked the Hazbin Hotel. He'd thought he'd be able to destroy Alastor and his little pet project once and for all, but instead he's ended up at the wrong end of an angelic spear. Except, Little Miss Bleeding Heart wants to offer him a chance, all he has to do is join the Hazbin Hotel. It's the last thing that Vox wants - or perhaps the second to last thing because he also doesn't want to die. So, he agrees. Vox joins the Hazbin Hotel under the constant supervision of both Alastor and Lucifer, and if this is what mercy feels like, it's suspiciously similar to torture.

And that's all I have right now! (Hopefully all I'll have for a while, cause it'll take me forever to get through all of these.) Right now, I'm just focusing on Red with Envy and my Cherri Bang fic, but I'm so excited for all of these.

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Val and Vel are the masters of promoting unhealthy beauty standards to the masses but they are no match for their CEO. Warning for skinny people being fat shamed.

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Blitz understood the assignment.

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i tried drawing on my phone and created something truly beautiful

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They really gave off huge Married Couple vibes in this scene for me, I can't quite explain why

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Let us FEAST!!

Red With Envy

Chapter 18: Blue in the Face of my RadioStaticApple fic Red with Envy has been posted!

Vox breathed a sigh of relief as he stepped into the room. Despite Lucifer having said that he was ‘turning in’, he couldn’t help but notice that his bed was still made and that there were tools and materials covering the surface of his workbench, as though he had just stepped away from it. “What are you making?” Vox asked, nodding towards the desk.  “Oh, um, just tinkering, really…” Lucifer only spared a half-glance for his work station as he walked over to sit on the edge of his bed. He’d removed his hat and coat and had his shirt sleeves rolled up to the elbows, showcasing his dark forearms with the way his hands braced flat on the mattress on either side of him. He fixed his eyes on his legs as he kicked them slightly, his lips pursed uncertainly.  “Right,” Vox muttered. He gave a sigh as he walked over to sit beside him, putting just a couple feet of space between them. “Is this about what Alastor said?”  Lucifer’s legs stopped swinging. “I don’t know what you mean,” he said quietly, gaze still fixed on the ground.  He scowled. “Come on, Lucifer, you have to talk to me-”  “I don’t have to do anything!” he suddenly snapped, glaring up at him with his eyes shining red.  Vox recoiled. He was suddenly very acutely aware of the power difference between them, of just how easily Lucifer could squash him like a bug. And a small part of him suddenly understood where Alastor’s defensiveness with the other man came from - desperately searching for any foothold he could have to gain any kind of advantage over someone who so clearly outclassed them both.  The anger vanished from Lucifer’s expression, though, the second he saw the look on Vox’s face, immediately replaced by chagrin. “I’m sorry.” He shook his head before dropping it into his hands. “I’m sorry.”

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happy new year 🎉

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