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currently having the WORST WRITER’S BLOCK i’ve ever had..like..i know where i need to go, but the scenes and images aren’t coming to me fluidly..not at ALL.

it’s like i’m trying to write in a different language; i kind of know what i want to communicate, but the actual act of getting them onto paper is marred by stumbling through inconsequential lines—entire paragraphs, even—and not feeling the creative juices flowing AT ALL despite having the motivation to write.

i’ve never felt like this before, like I was so disconnected from writing that I couldn’t even picture scenes in my head much less transpose them. have i become a stranger to the act of writing completely? if so i blame my goddamn phone

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absolutely obsessed with his aura here

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Life cycle of our Sun, from beginning to end~

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please send me all the pics you have of these guys its for research

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Hera and the Wedding Dress

Just saw a post saying there was no point in Hera wearing that wedding dress when she confronted Wulf.

There was every point.

A major part of Wulf's motive was vengeance for not only his father's death, but Hera's "arrogance" in rejecting him. His father's death and Hera's rejection were intertwined in his head, the anger for one fuelled the anger for the other.

Wulf had no reason to duel Hera, except for vengeance.

Hera needed to make Wulf make a bad decision, and to do that she needed to push all his triggers. She needed to get his anger levels rocketing up to one hundred.

And how was she going to do that?

By riding up to him in a fucking wedding dress.

The minute he saw her in that dress, he was spitting vinegar.

Hera knew Wulf's motivations, knew his flaws, and knew the best way of making him make a bad decision, and she acted on that.

That dress was psychological war play.

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Ginkgo Trees (Fukuoka, 2024)

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i want the sun to swallow me whole

to bathe in a warmth whose name will escape me come morning

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if you're trying to get into the head of your story's antagonist, try writing an "Am I the Asshole" reddit post from their perspective, explaining their problems and their plans for solving them. Let the voice and logic come through.

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GO WON TTYL PRACTICE

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There’s a level of confessional that only occurs when someone is driving you home late at night

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hi heres the entire twilight movie as a stamp

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Had to buy this zine!

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when watching the video for Ethel Cain’s “Punish” I was reminded of this piece from the soundtrack of High Life (dir. Claire Denis, 2018).

the entire film has sweeping overtones of sexuality and the scene where this piece is used was by far the most impactful for me when i first watched it.the way it’s edited is evocative of “Punish” with startling cuts that feel like your eyes are being flayed with light and Juliette Binoche’s waist-length hair. 

I believe both Stuart A. Staples’s and Ethel Cain’s works deal with perversion as an externalized internal force (if that makes any sense). In other words, sexuality is often deemed a haunting presence which we’re taught to associate with shame and distance ourselves from to the point of separation. Sexual gratification is so squandered that it’s almost an alien entity, something especially clear in “High Life”'s deep space setting.

Both tracks frame the pervert’s point-of-view and eerie vocals abound as their distinct femininity is not only reminiscent of siren calls, but also the subconscious: another voice that either dissents or echoes the grotesqueness being centered. Seeing as the “fuck box” scene is an act of masturbation and “Punish” uses associated language: “whatever’s wrong with me/I will take to bed”, “only God knows”, “shame is sharp” I believe both pieces provide a striking perspective on themes surrounding the alienation and perversion of sexuality (be it by science in the case of “High Life” or societal deviants in “Punish”) through the use of horror and production choices that amplify a haunting atmosphere. 

The exploration of human sexuality and sexual depravity is so foreign to many that it can literally feel like you’re an astronaut trying to make sense of a whole new world, and in the latter case just as horrifying. Both “Punish” and “High Life” aim their focus at the cosmos in order to look into those ideas head-on, to stare straight at the sun and ask what perversion is, how it operates, and gives us the space as viewers and listeners to do the same from the perspective of the sexually deviant.

Overall, I am greatly fascinated by both tracks and the visual components that accompany them precisely because they look into black hole of the repressed subconscious and pull from it unsettling but gripping glimpses into what lurks in such unexplored depths. 

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Heaven - [Taemin]

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i cannot stop thinking about that goddamn hippo