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My heart is too heavy to bear

It's dragging me down

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#23 Confession

I can smell you on me and I hate that

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#22 Confession

I think they want to drive me back to the days where I was insane and looking forward to cutting

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#21 Confession

I feel like I'm getting insane again

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Anonymously send me

A purpose in life

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I stopped giving a fuck about so much shit it’s a blessing

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Every great loss demands that we choose life again. We need to grieve in order to do this. The pain we have not grieved over will always stand between us and life. When we don’t grieve, a part of us becomes caught in the past…

Rachel Naomi Remen (via hqlines)

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#20 Confession

My wrists are itching

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#19 Confession

I am one year clean & I don’t know how to feel about that

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Writers end up writing about their obsessions. Things that haunt them; things they can’t forget; stories they carry in their bodies waiting to be released.

Natalie Goldberg (via wordsnquotes)

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#18 Confession

I just want to sleep

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#17 Confession

I want to be a cold hearted bitch and ruin lives but I sadly care

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And I hope that we've been good to each other And that even better will happen to you and me

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Breathing is getting hard again

Almost 1am realizations

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I feel an emptiness in my heart That makes it too heavy for my chest

These feelings I get at midnight when I'm alone

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Sometimes my body gets too much for me I want to breathe in till my lungs explode I want to crush my heart in my hands I want to cut off my limbs that feel like a disease is crawling up them I want to skin myself I want to lay in ice till my body is numb I want to close my eyes until I fall asleep

Me and my body