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Ivan allowed himself to be pulled on down next to James. He returned hold of the man’s hand and clung to it rather tight. Holding hands wasn’t something they did much and he wanted to take all the time he could for it now.

Ivan hadn’t even realized how little he know of James’ past. Hearing it was just as horrible as his was some how comforting. It was nice to feel a connection through words for once. “Oh yeah?” He asked. “And how were you fucked up?”

“I always loved music, I was pretty young when I started sneaking into clubs. I only did it for the music but my parents got the idea that I was doing it for booze and drugs. So they kicked me out of the house, on my way out I stole my mom’s guitar, I crashed at friends and played music on the streets to get money. Eventually the right person heard me, I got a job had a club bartending and warming up the crowd. I didn’t make much but enough to get my own place, it was tiny but it was something. Doesn’t sound too bad but as you might know I did get into drugs, you must have tasted it in my blood. My first girlfriend got me into it and she died from an overdose while I was passed out next to her, after that I sometimes did things to get money or drugs... things I rather not remember.” James looked down not sure he could face Ivan at that moment. “But I guess it’s not that bad when I think back... At least not compared to others”

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"Wouldn't it be fun to do it somewhere else for once?" James asked almost offended that Ivan seemed so ashamed to be caught with him. Again he knew he shouldn't bother but he did.

"Whatever you want" he said eventually realizing there was no point in starting another fight.

“Ass” James chuckled and playfully puched Ivan’s arm. A soft sound escaped his lips as he felt his lover pull him even closer. “In the kitchen? really? Merr will kill us if he finds out”

The thought of maybe being caught however actually made it all the more exciting. It was never something he’d really thought about but now he kind of really wanted it.

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scxpegoat

Ivan smiled back at him. It was nice to share something as innocent as a smile for once. It was something that seemed so simple and yet was so different from their usual extremes of either fighting or sleeping together. 

“No, I’m not.” Ivan started, adjusting on the bed to get more comfortable. “I was actually raised in the Soviet Union for a while, but I joined the military to get away from home-” He stopped abruptly, clearly not wanting to dwell on the details of his life at home. “-Basically Britain was a ally at the time and so I was sent over there along with other troops. Long story short, I may have tried to desert while I was here..”

James laid down looking at Ivan as he spoke. His past was clearly something he didn’t want to talk about right now and he couldn’t blame him. He was not exactly a fan of talking about his own past though by the sound of it Ivan’s had been worse.

“I’m glad you came here” he grabbed his lover’s hand and tried to pull him down next to him. “I didn’t exactly have the best life before you either, it was actually really crappy. But I guess it’s nowhere near your story”

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scxpegoat

Ivan lost himself in the kiss in attempt to drown out any remains of the argument they had just had. He hated fighting with James- but he hated the thought of being exposed even worse. He couldn’t allow for his relationship or feelings to come to the surface. 

A smirk escaped between kisses. He also pulled on James in attempt to get him as close as humanly possible. “It.” He whispered sarcastically.

“Ass” James chuckled and playfully puched Ivan’s arm. A soft sound escaped his lips as he felt his lover pull him even closer. “In the kitchen? really? Merr will kill us if he finds out”

The thought of maybe being caught however actually made it all the more exciting. It was never something he’d really thought about but now he kind of really wanted it.

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Ivan followed James’ glance down to his hands. It was quite obvious he had managed to make the man nervous. It wasn’t something he had ever seen in James- at least not that he could remember. It brought a small smile to his lips. It would have been a lie if Ivan claimed to not have felt the exact same way in that moment. He was simply better at masking his feelings. After all, it was something he practiced every day of his life. 

“Could you play for me sometime?” He asked. Due to the many years living together, he had certainly heard him play before, but it was mostly as an echo through the walls of his room.

James nodded. “yeah I could” he gave the other a small smiled and pulled on the sleeves of his shirt. Music had always been his escape even since becoming a vampire, he had needed his music to escape the pain Ivan caused him at times.

“how did you end up here? Cause you’re not british are you?” James asked curious hoping that it was something Ivan would be okay talking about. He wasn’t exactly asking for his entire life story, not yet at least.

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“Ugh.” Ivan grumbled. He was sick and tied of the bickering. James was asking too much of him- that’s all there was to it! There was nothing Ivan could do to make it right. There never was. Whatever he did, someone would be unhappy.

“You think I’m not sick of this? I just-” Ivan was about to go on for hours but stopped himself short as James crawled onto his lap. He pressed his lips against the other man’s as his grabbed his hips, pulling him even closer. The only way he would ever let out any sort of feelings for James was through his physical contact. No matter how angry he was over their fighting, he poured every ounce of emotion into that kiss.

James closed his eyes and tried to just enjoy the kiss. The only time he seemed to get any true emotion out of Ivan was when they were kissing or fucking, it was the only times he knew Ivan felt anything for him.

“I’m sorry, I just want to hear you say it” James mumbled against his lips. “Just once” His arms wrapped around the other’s neck as he pressed as close as he possibly could. “I’ll make you pie”

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"I'm not saying that's the only two options. I'm saying that you act as if I'm just a sex toy when you know that I'm in love with you. And if this is how it's going to bethen please tell me so I can move on and actually find someone that cares about me and want me" James said before getting up.

"We can't have the same conversation over and over again. I'm sick of fighting all the time" he knew there was a way to end the fighting but he also know it would mean they would be stuck in the same vicious circle as now. James knew he would be pissed at himself later but that was an issue for then now he just wanted Ivan to shut up. The younger vampire moved into his creator's lap, straddlinh him before shutting him up by kissing him deeply.

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“I will! If you stop pretending that I am no one! Clearly I must mean something to you if you kept me all this time, I have to be more than just sex!”

James needed to tell himself that he was at least. He wasn’t sure he would be able to live with himself if he allowed himself to realize what he truly was to Ivan.

“And what makes you think you do? Why do you have to mean the entire world to me or nothing? I know I can be a tad dramatic, but this is rediculas.”

ivan was beyond frustrated with James. He was past the point of simply shouting whatever he could to hurt the man. Of course he meant the whole world to Ivan- but he would never know that. He couldn’t.

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"It's a great idea. I'm just... I didn't expect it" James eventually got out looking down at his hands. They were shaking slightly. He couldn't remember being nervous around Ivan before well except the night they met.

"I play a few more instruments actuallty but mostly guitar and piano. And I sing. My mom taught me how to play, I always loved to hear her play and sing so I picked it up. That guitar is all I have left from her" not that the few blurry memories he had of his family was anything to have they hadn't been very nice to him.

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Hearing Ivan’s words actually caused him to drop his jaw. It was the worst reaction ever that he was sure of but there was no other way to react. James was in shock. “I… what?” He asked obviously very confused. Ivan really wanted to talk? To get to know him?

“Yerkov… well… I like it” The younger vampire kept himself from pulling a very bad joke that would most likely have gotten hom kicked out of his lover’s room.

Ivan could immediately tell James was taken off guard- and that was certainly an understatement. It made Ivan a bit uncomfortable that he was this shocked he would do something for his lover, especially something as minuscule as talking. “Don’t make me change my mind.” He said, eyeballing the man’s open jaw.

“Thank you.” Ivan replied before a moment of silence filled the room. It had been years upon years since the man had ever tried to get to know someone before- where did you start? “Um, how did you- what got you into music? You play the…. guitar.. right?”

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"I will! If you stop pretending that I am no one! Clearly I must mean something to you if you kept me all this time, I have to be more than just sex!"

James needed to tell himself that he was at least. He wasn't sure he would be able to live with himself if he allowed himself to realize what he truly was to Ivan.

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“Ivan, don’t you see this IS complicated. You claim you never see lovers fight but when you’re in a relationship you fight? The two of us are the ones that fight, the lovers. Merr and Nix have been together longer than I have lived and they almost never fight” James sighed and got up. As usual their conversations wasn’t going anywhere.

“I love you, so much. And when you’re ready to tell me who hurt you so bad you became are terrified of commitment, I’ll be here. Okay?”

“We fight because you want something I cannot give you. More. And we won’t stop fighting until you realize that.” He spat back. Of course James was going to give up on the conversation. Give up on him. Just like everyone else in that damn household.

“It is not that simple- and stop pretending you know who I am.”

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Hearing Ivan's words actually caused him to drop his jaw. It was the worst reaction ever that he was sure of but there was no other way to react. James was in shock. "I... what?" He asked obviously very confused. Ivan really wanted to talk? To get to know him?

"Yerkov... well... I like it" The younger vampire kept himself from pulling a very bad joke that would most likely have gotten hom kicked out of his lover's room.

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Sighing James tried to think of a way to escape, maybe he should just pretend to fall asleep at least then he wouldn’t have to have sex. Seeing the way Ivan was behaving was unusual for sure but that could mean anything really, or nothing. He knew he shouldn’t get his hopes up, there was a possibility he would be utterly disappointed. 

“Ivan, really I’m not in the mood, we can do it tomorrow” James said as he was told to sit. It didn’t seem like he was getting out of this so instead he sat down waiting for Ivan. He ran a slightly shaky hand through his dark hair actually nervous. 

“No. I’ve been putting this off for years, James. It won’t wait another minute.” Ivan answered before sitting himself next to his lover on the bed. He could tell James didn’t know what this was about so he went on, “You sit there and I sit here. We won’t teach each other until we know everything there is to know about each other, alright?”

He stared into the eyes of the man across from him in search of a reaction. This was certainly something he would never see coming. Ivan never did anything like this for anyone. Ever. “Yerkov, by the way. My last name is Yerkov.”

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Isabelle Lightwood in every episode [10 - The World Inverted]

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scxpegoat

“Garrett.” He repeated. Of course. A beautiful man could only have such a beautiful name. James Garrett. Oh he could say it all day. James Garrett… Ivan Garrett- No. No he couldn’t be thinking like that. That was ridiculous. Impossible. And yet.. something about it just sounded so right..

Ivan heaved a sigh before plopping onto the nearest piece of furniture. “But why? Why does it have to be so complicated? Things are easier the way they are now. You never see lovers fight but relationships- ugh. People in relationships always have something going on. Commitment leads to trouble.”

“Ivan, don’t you see this IS complicated. You claim you never see lovers fight but when you’re in a relationship you fight? The two of us are the ones that fight, the lovers. Merr and Nix have been together longer than I have lived and they almost never fight” James sighed and got up. As usual their conversations wasn’t going anywhere.

“I love you, so much. And when you’re ready to tell me who hurt you so bad you became are terrified of comittment, I’ll be here. Okay?”

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Ivan simply smirked. Of course James could not expect what was coming. The man had never received anything but sex and mixed signals. He would never see it coming. A gift with more thought put into it than anything Ivan had ever thought about in his life. He put more thought into his lover’s present tonight than any pie he’d ever faced. This was quite unlike him.

“Shhhh.” He hushed, almost dragging the man along behind him. His steps were a bit too eager. The man was just about hoping up the stairs and down the short hall. He stopped in front of his own room and even held the door open for James, something he had never done. With a gesture to the bed he instructed a quick, “Sit down.”

Sighing James tried to think of a way to escape, maybe he should just pretend to fall asleep at least then he wouldn’t have to have sex. Seeing the way Ivan was behaving was unusual for sure but that could mean anything really, or nothing. He knew he shouldn’t get his hopes up, there was a possibility he would be utterly disappointed.

“Ivan, really I’m not in the mood, we can do it tomorrow” James said as he was told to sit. It didn’t seem like he was getting out of this so instead he sat down waiting for Ivan. He ran a slightly shaky hand through his dark hair actually nervous. 

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ewanmckenzie

   Ewan had been expecting James for a short while now, he had been told by his friend Merrick in England that one of his coven members was going to stop by and possibly even stay for a while to allow his head to clear out from some fighting that has been going on between him and his creator. Unaware of how stable James would be around humans, Ewan and Lila had closed down the club for the day just to make sure that no accidents happened, while they tried their best to blend in.  With Holly at school and Luke out doing God knows what– he eventually heard a knock at the apartment door. Ewan got up from the couch and made his way over towards the front door and opened it. “– Ah, James. Welcome. I am Ewan. I hope yer journey to the states has been smooth.”

"I guess it was yes. I just stopped by in Canada. I have a friend there, he recently had a run in with the Volturi, I just wanted to make sure he was okay” James didn’t know if that was possibly too much information for someone he just met. But Merrick said that this man was trustworthy and a very good man and talking about Jay kept him from talking about himself and Ivan. Eveen if he was currently finding ways to avoid it he knew that eventually he would have to talk about it whether he wanted to or not. “Merrick told me you run a club with your wife, is it the burlesque club downstairs?”

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negatiio

                ‘ are you james garrett? ‘ she asked, leaning against the open door frame as she glances over his features. his appearance matched a description jay had given her ONCE; she was sure she could put a name to any face she saw even if SHE HADN’T met them. jay had always been descriptive when it came to describing people. ‘ he’s out hunting. you’re welcome to stay && wait for him if you’d like. ‘

"Yes I am. I’m guessing you’re the girlfriend, Erin right?” He asked looking her over. She was definately as gorgeous as Jay had claimed. “Yeah sure, if you don’t mind. I can check in on my way home otherwise” It did feel a bit awkward. “How long do you think he’ll be?”

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graviikinesis

 “He has taken a fair bit of psychology courses- as well as law- and I believe he can help you. Besides, getting out of the country could be good. And while your gone, I could speak with Ivan. Hopefully get something through his head.” He paused for a short second before adding on to his sentence. “Hopefully it wont be the wall.” He said quietly.  “If you don’t want to go, that’s fine. I just thought a vacation would be nice, and it’s a new environment. Ewan and his family are very polite people. You will have nothing to worry about. They own an apartment with a club of sorts down below. You could have a whole apartment to yourself if you wish to be alone. It is a place to stay while your there if you choose to go.”

"Try not to punch a hole in that wall” James said even though he was pretty sure that Merrick would never go that far even if he was definately capable of losing his temper. “I don’t think it will help but I do appreciate that you want to give it a try” honestly he was hoping that the other vampire would get through to Ivan but he doubted it. He doubted anyone was capable of that.

“Okay, I guess I can stop by in Canada on my way. It’s been a while since I saw Jay” Ivan would definately not be happy that he pulled another disappearing act but it did seem like the best choice at the moment.