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Saving my family from losing everything.

Two weeks ago though, my stepfather, who is the soul provider right now, got sick. We figured it’d be okay. But then a few days ago, it got worse. We rushed him to the ER and they told us he has an infection in both his feet. After they did some tests, we found out that the infection is MRSA. 

Brad is diabetic and unfortunately, his body has trouble fighting off infections. They tried a strong course of antibiotics and it was helping but not enough and not fast enough. Last night, he had to have surgery. They amputated a toe on one foot and had to reopen an incision on the other from where they’d taken two others last year. They scrapped the infected bone away and hopefully that will save them from having to take more of the foot. 

Brad works on a family farm with his brother. They milk cows and sell the milk to a local factory to make into cheese. Because of the surgery, his brother Barry has to hire help to take care of things. Barry has to use the money Brad usually receives to pay the help. It’ll be at least 6 weeks, if not longer before Brad can even think of going back to work. 

We now will be living off of his $600 social security and the little bit of food stamps we qualify for. We have a $200 light bill, an internet bill, a cable bill, a phone bill, gas expenses since we live 15 miles from the nearest town and 30 miles from the hospital Brad is in. 

I hate asking for help but we really need it. Even if its only a dollar or two…any thing helps. 

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You mean the problem I've suffered with for 10 years? The one that has my body littered with scars? I'm not "romanticizing" self-harm. I do treat it with respect. The fact that you want it to be something hidden away under the rug, never to see the light of day, is why it's an issue that causes may people their lives. We treat it like this secret disease never to be spoken of. Since I've started speaking of my self harm, I've learned to be STRONGER and have started getting help. 

Next time you're going to accuses me of something, make it something real. 

Stiles was always the strong one, out to save everyone else. So many people forgot to look past the sarcasm and sass to the lost and lonely little boy that lost his mother, that watched his father turn to alcohol, that had to see his best friend turned into a monster and all his friends almost die. 

Not even Isaac remembered to see the broken boy under it all. He did know that Stiles was different. Something about the way he was acting that day, the way he seemed so quiet and distant. 

It was late, almost midnight, when Isaac went over. Standing under the window, he listened. He heard crying but nothing else. Until he heard the hiss of pain and the scent of blood, Stiles’ blood, hit his nose. It was a scent he was all too familiar with. 

The bedroom window was closed but he didn’t care. He bound up the side of the house and wrenched it open. Sitting there was the broken little boy with a box full of blades, cutting into his creamy pale skin. 

Isaac’s heart shattered as Stiles’ looked up at him, frightened and more alone than ever. He walked over, careful not to startle the boy, and took the blade away. 

He saw it now, the marks on his body that everyone had been too self absorbed to see before. His shoulders, his hips, his thighs, and now…now his wrists too. 

Isaac pulled the weeping boy into his lap, running a hand over his head. He tried to soothe the tears, to calm the fears of the boy but he knew this wasn’t something he could fix with a few sweet words and soft touches. It was a start though. 

Looking into Stiles’ eyes, he asked something he was afraid to know. “Why now?” 

It took Stiles a few minutes to gather himself before answering. His voice was quivering as he did so. “Because, I can’t save anyone. No matter how hard I try, everyone I love dies. One day, I’m gonna try and save you, but you’re gonna die too.” 

“You can’t save everyone all the time but you save most of us. If it weren’t for you, Scott wouldn’t have made it through the first full moon. He’d have either died or submitted to Peter and helped wipe out the town,” Isaac told him with honest conviction. “Yeah, I’m gonna die someday and no you won’t be able to save me. I’m hoping that it’s surrounded by my grandchildren when I go though…” 

After that night, any time Stiles seemed to be pulling away, Isaac would sneak into the window and kiss his scars and remind him of all the good in the world. 

One day, he stopped going over just because Stiles was upset and because he just wanted to see him, hold him because he could. 

One day, he fell in love. 

One day, he hopes Stiles will fall in love too. 

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 if anything could summarize me completely, this is that

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"So, what’s with the buzzcut?"

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why is it that everyone can be an asshole towards me and that’s perfectly fine but the minute i have had enough an act like an asshole its all of a sudden not okay

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mythological species: werewolves

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Twilight has moved to Beacon Hills. 

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PSA:

I'm sorry guys, I have no Isaac muse anymore. 

So this will no long be a roleplay blog. 

I will however post edits and such here occasionally.

I'm really, really sorry...

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This is hella old and I had like....serious delusions of grandeur 

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I'm not a dog, dumb dumb. 

ISAAC WHERE DOES ALEX KEEP THE CANDYYYYYY

"She keeps it beside her bed. And doesn’t share. Bitch." 

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Actually, I was calling her a bitch since she doesn't share with me. 

ISAAC WHERE DOES ALEX KEEP THE CANDYYYYYY

"She keeps it beside her bed. And doesn’t share. Bitch." 

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daniel sharman + dancing.

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If I receive 5 ✖, I'll post a photo of my mun.

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ISAAC WHERE DOES ALEX KEEP THE CANDYYYYYY

"She keeps it beside her bed. And doesn't share. Bitch." 

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littlewolfbrendanhale replied to your photo: Look at that cute face. You should be following...

I was gonna ask you why we’ve never interacted, that just doesn’t seem right… wanna plot? lol

I would love to!