imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

Thank you so much for this token. I will not promise but I will try my very best to keep this on my feet para kahit ‘san ako pumunta kasama kita. :) Even if we’ve just been close for almost eleven months, I felt like it’s been forever. :) Maraming salamat sa lahat CARLA VICTORIA SALANDANAN BUELA. Alam kong hindi ako naging perfect friend para sa'yo, pero alam mo na I’m always here to listen(alam mo namang specialty ko 'yun). Kahit na alam kong wala akong mapayo sa'yo, magsalita ka lang ng magsalita my ears are always here to listen. Even if you’re 6932.96 miles away from the philippines, there’s a space age technology called the internet that can connect us :) Mamimiss ko yung late night Movie/Series marathon natin. Hindi na natin mapapanood ang Season 2 ng Kyle XY ng magkasama :( Wala na akong kasamang magpaint during tardy and free time. Siguro hindi na din mauulit yung paliligo ko sa ulan kasi feeling ko ikaw lang ang makakasakay ko sa ganong mga trip ko sa buhay, marami pang bagay na nagagagwa ko pag ikaw kasama ko. I know that it’s hard for you to go, to leave us, your friends, but I/we understand that you need to go there because it’s good for you and I know that God will send you there with a very big purpose and reason. I know someday you will come back here and if that happens, I will spend a lot of time with you and I will not miss it for the world. Do you remember our first late night kwentuhan? It took us almost forever hahaha and we didn’t able to go to chapel convocation the next morning, but it was very memorable for me because you shared lot’s of stories with me and I am so thankful that you trusted me :). Do you also remeber when we went to Pasay with Karisma, the day when we spend the holiday in Nuvali, the night when we first ate to GeeGee with ate Goldie, the day we watched The Mistress with our housemates, The midnight at the bridge when I first saw you cry that much, the sleepness night that we’re both hungry that we wanted to call Mcdonalds, the moment that I stand what I know is right during your birthday and many memorable moments that we spend together? I will treasure it forever. I am thankful and proud that I belong to your so called "boyfriends" and “alien nation”. Someday, God will make a way na magkita tayo at makikilala mo ang lil sissy ko. One day e will let me go there and have a chance to meet your family and your new friends. I know that will take a long time pero hindi naman ako mainipin e :) I want to say more but tears are starting to fall in my eyes. I know that you know that I treasured our friendship. I LOVE YOU CARLA. Take care and stay who you are, no imbyerna hahahaha. Ingat kayo ni Tita Lory and regards me tou your father. Tita Lory raised a very cool daughter :). MWUAH!!! God bless!!!

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

hello kelso Happy birthday as you know i do this to all my friends so dont feel special this is nothing 😆 🤣 😂 you know it all started last year when all girls going crazy over you (lol ✌️) You said Hi to me like a hundred times over and over but then you probably won't remember cause I honestly don't to.. but then it sticks with me because everyone started talking to me after that.. I was in shocked couldn't believe it.. i guess they like you that much for them to start talking to me, but then you won't believe me when I say that, you reminded me of my bestfriend back to where I came from lol I remember you asking me all the time when I'm gonna quit cause everyone quit on us.. I didn't quit for the record I just change shifts but I'm still here please don't ever hate me fo

r transferring shift 🤣🤣 or you could if you want to 🤣🤣 I guess this is my time to actually thank you for this friendship for all the fun times at work, for giving me a ride.. if you ever need someone to talk to don't call me I'm busy 🤣🤣 you don't even know my number how dare you!! lol who cares it's your birthday do what you want.. I didn't remember your birthday by heart I had to check fb 🤣🤣✌️ no kidding I remembered cause you told me last year and all girls gave you gifts like you're Justin Bieber you could've signed their shirts lol I don't know where I'm going with this post I just want to greet you that's all but then I had to explain 🤣🤣 because knowing you sheeshh you'll probably wouldn't get it.. again Thank you and Happy birthday

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

Jan 30 2021

woke up at 8:25am the earliest since I started working again lol I used to wake up at like 11am or something to go to work at like 1pm but idk what's with today that I woke up early I guess perks of living in a basement.. you'll fucking hear footsteps and a kid jumping around the house like crazy.. not mad tho it's just I never wake up peacefully in this house..it's always something..a fire alarm.. footsteps.. loud fucking noise..idk..but yeah story of my life.. change topic lol I forgot to mention last year by October I guess. He just suddenly disappeared, I mean he didn't wanna talk to me anymore or I don't know what's the deal..he just stopped and I'm like so stupid cause I'm still waiting for him to message me and guess what? of course I had to message him first again.. it was me who did the 1st move again.. like why? I don't understand it..

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

something happened today that made me realize how much he loves me really without him even knowing it.. out of the blue I felt so sad earlier because my flight was cancelled again for th nth time and I honestly don't know what to do anymore.. I really wanted to go back to my country and live my life again so yeah.. I was so sad hearing the news during that time we were thinking about how am I able to pay a different airline ticket and where would I pay since I don't have a local bank account or something and so my head hurts from thinking already Idk what to do then he offered his Bank account and ask me if I needed help and that he could help me.. he was so willing and so kind to do that.. like i really wanted to cry cause out of all the bad things happened to me he's the only one right.. like it meant a lot to me of course I didn't accept any money from him and the bank account as well cause I felt shy and all that but Still im happy ang Lucky to be that one special person he's willing to give and share everything with. Thank you :)

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

People are asking me how does this relationship work? I know where not official official and most will say that why am I accepting the fact? or would I be happy staying like that? like do I know my worth or something? crazy eh? but guess what this is better than your ordinary relationship.. I'm not saying do the same thing or let down your worth.. I'm just saying it works for us ATM.. how? Tbh idk how it works it just work.. maybe thats the thing if it's meant to be then it will be you know.. you can't force anyone or anything it just happen and it work.. I know most will argue and be that one judgemental friend but if you ask me personally I think I would say LDR works because we both wanted it to work, Love is not a one way thing.. it takes 2 to tango.. and if the other half of the heart doesn't want it to work then it won't work.. unless both hearts are willing to sacrifice.. take time...and effort then for sure it'll work...Before I thought I was the only one who wanted this relationship, like I felt at some point in my life that I've given so much but I don't get any in return, plus I was always the one who needs to understand, needs to be patient, needs to wait, needs to do efforts.. felt like I need to step up all the time.. cause if I don't do anything this will all be over and I don't want that, felt like I was burned out, that I couldn't do this anymore, that it was way to much for me and I thought I deserve more than this, I deserve to be the one receiving not giving, I deserve to be love as well, I deserve to be miss I deserve everything I'm doing for him, Then I realize this is not just all about me, what I want, what I deserve, what I need, it's about him too.. it's about us.. I forgot that his on the other side of the rope doing what he doesn't need to do, giving so much time, attention and effort then I wonder if it's really just all on me and im doing all this just for him and he's not doing anything for me then why is this relationship still working? why are we still in here? why is he still talking to me? then It hit me.. thats why they say it takes 2 to tango.. its working because we both wanted it to work.. we're still here because we both are holding on, we are stronger because we both love each other, we're not committed because we're both not ready and we're both happy.. so technically this is a mutual decision and everything should be mutual because if not then this won't work. Million times I got crazy, about to get rid of him in my life, so much confusion and miscommunication but now I won't be bother becauseI realize, I know and I'm sure we have the same feeling. So for now like what he said to me This wont go away.. nobody/ noone could ever take this away from us :)

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

He's like a baby no wait lemme rephrase that he's like a scaredy cat..haha that's uglier but that's how I'll describe it.. coz honestly idk if he really wanted to sleep beside me and hug me or he's just scared to be alone in the bed? Idk lol here's another miscommunication part of this relationship lol like boii I went on the double bed 1st for IG lol then he follows without even asking if we could share the bed that night, i would actually ask him to take selfies together but never mind..stolen shot wins, nobody would ever believe us anyway if we say nothing happened that night but seriously nothing happened, boii he din't even touch me.. he hugged me a bit but that's it..we rubbed legs, hugs and that's it. but yeah like I said no ones gonna believe that tbh.. but reality ✔ lol tbh I would trade sex for that moment really.. like I like it better.. just us in one room chillin, hugging, laughing is a better moment than anything I would kill to experience that again.. like i guess his presence is already enough.. and the fact that we made it to that level is power boii...I also would love to just stare at him really. also its funny how we always ends up so controversial.. like everyone's making a big deal out of that night we slept together.. shud be a one night stand kind of thing but nothing happened so can't consider.. I wish something really happened and so I can share it with you so you can stop thinking about it but can't lie for that..He probs just respect and love me so much that he rather protect me than hurt me you know what I mean? lol ( if he read this he'll be like wow assuming) tbh even our closest friends wouldn't believe..like who would really? I wouldn't either if I were you guys lol.. I'm that one friend lol..but yeah it was amazing.. fun and another miles stone for this relationship if this is a relationship lol..you'd be the judge.. but I'll say I'm happy, i know in time this will all be worth it.

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

I posted it on my FB story and he replied "because Kilay is Life" - like what does that mean? he hated me because of that? or he's joking?like of course he's gonna tell me its not what he meant.. or this is some kind of miscommunication again..but boiii..why does he have to say it? idk.. I replied "I know you love it you don't hate it" as a joke and he said "assuming" like what have I done to deserve that? like why is he saying shits to me? like in trying to make it less hurtful but he's stabbing me deeper..like boiii can u at least watch your mouth for a second..like I don't understand..I know its probably an inside joke for him its just that im not in the mood for that or something.. but you know me i can't be mad at him for so long..lol so I just change the topic of our conversation and I was gonna try and convince him to buy me a phone case and I want him to buy the exact same for him so we're matchy but I guess he fell asleep already and ignore the f out of me.. These are the 2 cute case choices..

I know he likes black and he works at the Nike store so he would surely love it.. the good thing about him is that he let me decide on my own and he let me do what I want..like if I wanted a phone case and I wanted it matchy its all up to me..like if I wanted to get him a gift without a reason he'll just gladly accept it. he's not using me or anything its just...he's just letting me take over..like anything with me is Okay/Fine I guess he trust me that much or something idk..but I'll let you know if he got me that case or what not.. let's not overthink..and let lose hope because anything can change with our boi lol..

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

June 21, 2020

I'm so happy when he's asking me to do stuff for work or like revising/correcting grammar, that way I know he's trusting me that much, because you know.. work is personal and the fact that he's asking me to help him is a plus.. like I can't explain it but you get the gist of it right?.. like I know even how much his salary is.. or like how much money he has on his bank.. idk I feel so happy, I know, I know I get it.. it's a small thing..but it is big for me.. TRUST is a big word and not all can trust you but the fact that he's telling me anything under the sun.. I know he's trusting me and I'm so happy with that.. also that's communication its better than nothing.. i hate it when he's not answering my message and what not lol so if he needs me for work I would grab the opportunity just to talk to him lol not obsessed tho..really lol.. also I remember he told me that I am the special person in his life and I don't believe that at 1st but now that he's sharing personal stuff with me boiii I realized all of it all of a sudden..He's right.. I am special cause you wouldn't do that to anyone not even family members sometimes you don't trust them, but hey yo gurl knows everything..so I Guess I have to trust his words too lol..

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

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[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

here's the thing.. they always say you can't sleep when you're excited.. I was like that before but now I find it easier to sleep, the thing is when its over I can't believe it's over so I can't sleep thinking of what just happened how it happened what could I've done better, I always pray that this day would come after like what couple months of not seeing each other.. I'm glad even for 2hrs or less I can make it possible.. I'm so happy I couldn't even explain the happiness inside.. he has different aura when I saw him earlier.. the guy who couldn't contain happiness is what is saw..now I can't sleep..geez but yeah this is for sure one for the books.. amana keep it in my memory.. lol

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

June 19 2020

someone decided to visit me today 😀😀😀 Boii I was so happy like genuinely happy for a couple hours.. I bet he is too cause boii everyone can see it in the photo.. here wait lemme show you..

okay so now tell me? is he happy to see me? lol the only thing I don't understand is why deny it when I asked? like what would you get from hiding it from me..its not like I'll gonna bite u or something..just saying you know.. he just keeps on saying nothing when all the photos says different.. I believe the photo sir lol you can't hide the fact lol I'm glad the photo says otherwise...because boii I know now.. there's gotta be a secret message somewhere that he's tryna send me and I'm tryin so hard to figure that out this past couple months but hey hey yo girl is gettin better at it.. so yes I'm happy it turned out his happy too..of course don't ask him cause he'll say otherwise even though lol or whatever it is I'm happy his happy :) Thanks earlier for today :) you don't have to say anything.. i get the message 😘😘😘

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

so far so True.. the best of 2020 is this thats all.. this pandemic I don't understand but looking at the brighter side of life I'll give it to 2020.. It gave me hope, taught me how to be tough and tested my patience 😀😀😀 you don't even know but still I'm happy given all the facts this pandemic cause..

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

A simple "Goodnight" means so much to me.. it's like I Love you in a different language idk, because I guess he wouldn't often say that so when he did, I blush like a stupid girl.. see how bad this takes me? idk anymore.. my mood swings killing me, today I'm literally fine but tomorrow who knows.. actually any statement coming from him is like a Love letter for me,his every word even bad turns into sweet melancholy romantic quotes, idk everything about you is Love, cause I can't find anything to hate about you,most when I'm over thinking I'm trying real hard to find that hate but guess what I din't ever win cause until now everytime you say Goodnight I feel your bedroom voice whispering in my ears,feels like you're always beside me saying you love me.. imagination maybe, but it helps me keep my sane, knowing you're always gonna be there for me..so now I guess Goodnight is a secret message you're trying to tell me..and I just realized this now.

[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

one day I'm hoping you can read this and understood what I really meant, this Day that I can't sleep and its 6:30am I realize that I have so much Love to give and I wanted to give it all to you but somehow you've manage to refuse it all the time..every fucking time, I'm not mad at you in fact I've told u many times that I understand u and your feelings, I do understand thats why I'm always ending up like this, to be fair you're not here to defend yourself so I'll defend you..you're a good guy nothing wrong with that and if anyway I pressure you please let me know and I'll stop because thats the least thing I wanted to do to pressure you, you know I Love you from the very beginning and I know you told me a hundred times that I'll end up hurting, I wish you didnt say that, but you did and I chose to Love u still. Idk why? how?when? what? no reason I just love u period.I always think about you, how have u been? are you okay?what are you doing at the moment?,crazy right?but reality check its in me and I can't do anything about it.. all the memories we had are the best ones but I've been wanting more, I'm speaking from my heart right now.. I guess I always wanted more..not that I'm expecting anything from you.. I just wish we have all the time in the world for me to show you how much I could give.. but your not even giving me the chance.. I don't know what language to use anymore for you to understand that I am here, I am part of your life now And whether you like it or not I am here.. I am the only one here, you should know that by now, I am always here, to Love you, to Guide you, to Help you in any possible way, I'm not asking anything in return, I just want you to acknowledge me, think about me,contemplate and ask your self who am I to you? if you lost me would it be okay? if I die would you be happy? if I let you go would it make u feel better? because I've known you for so long I know the answers but I just want you to think deep.. you're always trying to push me away and I don't understand why but I'm still holding on the day you said you Love me too, and the same day you actually open your heart to me.. I would never forget that day, the happiest days of my life Im sure it was yours too. I'm writing this all down because I wanted you to know that I love you so much and I'm bursting love atm and you wouldn't wanna talk to me I honestly wanted to tell you all this today but I don't think its the right time, I miss you so much lately and I think I'm going crazy but who cares right now? no one not even u..people keep asking me how can bare all that? I answer simply because I love you period. someday hopefully you understand what love really means and how to use it and if that day comes I hope I'm still here to witness it. it's getting tougher everyday but I'm still choosing Love over anything.. so I guess you're right this will never going away.

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[imyourforeverbestfriendarmygurl]

My Twin Beshie (lol)

It started 2012 i guess, he's friends with TOFTGA, and dint know him at all at 1st. he became my breakthrough friend before when we did my 20th birthday friends awards kinda thing back in 2013 and used to call him Macho ( I kind off still do sometimes), So TOFTGA is our common friend and we got introduced by accident, when TOFTGA decided to invite other friend which is them to his house while we're having a project meeting, thats the 1st time in history I got to know him,so to make the long story short, He decided to go home early because he has 7am class and so nobody wanted to go home yet so I had to tell him I have 7am class too but i'm staying and so he said what's my class and told him about it figuring it was the same class were in... from then on he became my attendance signer if thats what you call that idk really, but he's always signing my name in attendance if I can't make it to class lol such a good guy thanks broo.Then overnights at TOFTGA's apartment everyday I think Idk, then yeah. He became my Twinsies when he actually trusted me and shared stories about love because we have the same drama, the only difference is he the guy and I'm the gurl and so whenever we're sharing stories at each other we can def relate. He is a good guy by the way the only thing why I wouldn't date him is he's giving up at once.. theres no sense of chasing for him.. like he wouldn't console you plus if he doesn't understand you he'll threw u out.. you know? patience bro.. patience.. also i wouldn't date a friend if thats what you wanna know expect for the other guy lol (you are the only exception) lol also just to let you know this guy is so romantic, can play guitar, can write a song for you and all that jazz..I'm not trying to sell him lol he just had his heart broken recently so i can't do that to him but like i said we twinning in so many ways and thats one of it. He probs doesn't care about this post because I'm being cheesy and all but I just wanna let everyone know about my friends so there you go lol