imwendyandthisismyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

the memories fade

the ink dries

and the ghost of you leaves through the open window

how strange it is

when your roots were so buried within me

then the rot came

filling up my lungs with moulded spores

infecting everything it touches

but infection passes

lungs are cleared

and mould cleaned away

now there is nothing left of you

i forgot you existed

~ wendy house

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

I forgot y'all don't know who i am so:

Introducing me!

i'm wendy ( she/they )

23

yorkshire

i love reading and musicals

bpd, asd, ctpsd

ive been writing stuff for years and so i'm posting new and old stuff simultaneously.

feel free to reach out! <3

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

you can pretend you hate me

run around

say what you want

but i know you

i have seen your soul

i have kissed your skin touched by moonlight

you cannot run

you cannot hide

from the black tar pit that consumes you

it will catch up with you

and i will watch as you go down in flames

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

you'll never guess where i am

in the passenger seat of your ex's car driving down country roads at 11pm while he sings every song from in times new roman by queens of the stone age is definitely an experience

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

tonight i will miss you in silence

i shall not let your name pass my lips

but under the cover of darkness

i will mourn you

until the first rays of sun bring a new day

then you shall be left in yesterday

i hope this night never ends

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

i'm watching desperate housewives for the first time (s1ep13) and i currently have 1 exact takeaway:

lynette's husband better survive and THRIVE

he is always reassuring her that he's not going to leave her and i love that

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

ill drink my pain away

ill smoke my worries away

ill sleep my regret away

but nothing can rid my love for you

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

lips swollen with kisses i say goodbye

in the throngs of people and the bass of the song

i whisper your name

must we part?

the night may be coming to a close

but promise me you'll see me again

leave everyone behind and close your eyes

hear my laughter and stay

we'll be okay

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

this sucks so bad i'm gonna (remembers suicide jokes are harmful for my mental health) replace myself

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

i still cry about you sometimes

when it's late and i've had a bad day

wishing for a simpler time

where you would hold me

and tell me everything will be okay

you're all gone now

a million words dead in my throat

all of you are gone

and in the dark the monsters return

none to banish them from our house

now they wear your face

i wish i didnt only see you in my nightmares

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

i don't think y'all understand how excited i get when someone likes or reblogs my shitty poetry. i'm like wooo someone understands and it feels so good

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

me when i do something self destructive and it destroys my life

Me when hurting myself hurts

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

in the dead of the night

who can hear you scream

as sleep puts all to bed

with the promise of tomorrow

you float amongst the stars

high in the sky

and beg the moon to hear your cries

and let you stay awhile

instead

all falls on deaf ears

as you plummet back to bed

with the whisper of tomorrow

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

to the woman who picked up the phone

i'm ashamed to say i don't remember your name

though you introduced yourself, it slipped through my brain not to be heard again

i'm sure i wasnt the only person you picked up to that night

that i may blend in with the rest after a while

but for those 56 minutes you were my lifeline

while i cursed the world for the cruel act of creating me

sobbing through pleas to end me

you reminded me i was worthy of breathing air

that i'm not crazy my feelings were valid

and yes it seems to simple to someone else

that this should be a given

but while i screamed down the street at 2am just so someone could listen

you stayed pressed against my ear waiting for me to take a breath to tell me how strong i am even though i don't feel it

genuinely believing that i can get better and it won't always be like this

letting hope slide it's way into my brain when i shut it out a long time ago

thank you

i whisper it on my pillow each night i'm alive so you know i can face the next day

thank you

picking up the phone takes more strength than anyone realises

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

i hope i haunt your halls

that you wonder if that speck of dust in the corner once belonged to me

while you have conversations that feels like de javu

find a spot in this city that isn't tainted by my touch

flying through memories of our years together

do you think of me?

kissing her lips knowing there's not a spot of your body that i haven't claimed

or how your personality are things we built together,

hobbies and favourite activities

nothing existed before me

and everything did after me

in the dead of the night can you hear my voice?

parents finding nicknames for her since daughter was always mine

i hope you can't escape me

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

will i be trapped in silence forever

nothing to hear but my own blood rushing to the surface

i was used to this silence before

until you crashed into my life

making your presence known

now i just feel your absence

and the breeze of none

~ wendyhouse

[imwendyandthisismyhouse]

take me to neverland

lets meet faires

and fight pirates

and soar above the rooftops in the dead of the night

to the second star on the right

and straight on till morning

let's never grow old

and tell stories until the sun comes up

and laugh with the lost boys

let the wind whip my hair

faith and trust

where's my pixie dust

~ wendyhouse