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So I’m an ex Mormon and a demiboy now lmao I was wrong

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mormon kids under the age of 18 being told their church is a cult

mormons 18-24 after they go through their endowment ceremony and receive their new name and secret clothing and learn the secret handshakes and passwords and realize everyone around them has been secretly doing this the whole time and now theyre going to be sent away from their family for 2 years where they will literally not be allowed to be alone for 1 second of the day except to go to the bathroom and they have no idea how to get out of what they just got into

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I actually just got told I can’t bring my gay pins to girls camp.

Guess who’s not coming to girls camp 🤷‍♀️

I am wearing every gay pin I have every time I see any of those leaders from now on.

There should be more Punk Rock Mormons. Nearly every problem the Church currently has is because we tried to conform too damn hard. Nearly all the best parts of the Church are a giant "fr*k you" to the establishment.

Aggressive nonconformity would fix so many things.

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Being a queer Christian is just like yes I love God. No God doesn’t hate me. Yes the church is fucked up. No God and the church are not the same thing. Yes I will sing His song until I breathe my last. No your hate will not stop me from doing so. Let me love my God and my queerness in peace, please. 

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People are sometimes surprised to know there are active LGBT church members. How can we sustain church leaders? How can we pay tithing to a church that has done much good, but also much harm?

Speaking only for my self, I sustain the church as it seeks to move into harmony with the perfect light of Christ. I pay tithing to God and expect the Church to be a wise steward and use those monies for ends God approves of.

If our human church leaders fail, by word or action, to achieve these goals in their daily walk, then I try to extend to them the same grace I hope they will learn to extend to me. When I am hurt by their words or actions along the way, I remember this:

“…Whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also. And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain… I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.” (Matthew 5:39-44)

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Okay. I would just like to say. Been going through some church tags on here and seeing a lot of slander against the church especially from ex Mormons. I will absolutely not say that you’re wrong. Or that we don’t have cultist tendencies, bc we do. What i will say tho, is that the church is CHANGING. Is it flawed? YES. Do we have dark moments in our history? YES. Is there homophobia, patriarchy, and member supremacy? YES. Are there things that I, as a life long member, would change or erase if I could? Oh absolutely 100%. but also-it’s getting better. Not a lot, no-but only because it hasn’t been that long. I went into Young Womens Like 6 years ago, and just time alone I’ve seen so many changes churchwide that were made in an effort to improve-so many lessons and policies and doctrines that were changed because they weren’t helping us come closer to Christ. And I feel like that should count for something. We are not perfect, not even close. Too many people have been hurt by us, both in an out. But we are changing, and we are trying. And I feel like we don’t get a lot of credit for that when people say stuff about us.

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If the church is so anti-gay, why do you stay? What is it you like so much?

There are many things about The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints that I really like, things that resonate with me.

I like that our God isn’t silent, that God answers prayers, and wants to reveal new things to us.

I like that as individuals and as a church, we learn and progress, line upon line, always becoming better.

I love the idea that the ultimate goal is for all people to be unified and linked to each other, that it matters how we treat each other because we need each other.

Mormons are really good at building community and a sense of belonging.

One thing that helps is the idea of all truth being rolled into one great whole, including scientific knowledge.

I’ve learned a lot about being a better person, to serve, and to be empathetic.

It’s just that where church intersects with how I was made by our Creator, there is tension. Being gay complicates church for me. Questions that have simple answers for others are complex for me. There’s no way for me to complete the covenant path. I can’t achieve the goals that our religion says should be the purpose of my life.

I don’t think God views being gay as incompatible with the gospel. I’m certain the author of diversity has accounted for it in His Plan. I just wish this church could see it that way.

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Tennis Shoes among the Nephites

Reblog or like if you’ve read the Tennis Shoes Adventure Series by Chris Heimerdinger!

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no planes bro

Wait did I miss it or were there no planes? No planes? Not even a little bit of planes?

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Delighted to report I’ve been flattening my water bottles for years before this :3

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Pause

Young women theme:

Lesbian flag:

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Dang. It makes me so sad to go through the like lds tags on here and see so many ppl who are genuinely hurt and angry at my church. I’m not even like oh ur wrong my church is right, not at all! I KNOW my church isn’t perfect, I KNOW that imperfect ppl are in charge, and I KNOW that we def need to do better at some things. It just, hurts. Bc I love my church, I really do but not for the church. I love my church bc of the gospel it teaches, bc of the message. I don’t love my church bc of the culture, or the policies, or the conferences and weird habits and cultist tendencies and reputation. No I love my church bc it helps me come closer to God in ways I could never by myself. Bc through my connection to God I have found parts of myself and grown and learned and loved so many ways, and I have the promised blessings of being able to do that with God and my family for eternity. That is why I love my church. And that is why it hurts so much to see other ppl who r hurt from my church, bc that’s not what my church is supposed to be about. It’s supposed to be about Christ, His gospel, and love, but we seem to be a bit lost from that sometimes. So yeah. Ig what I’m trying to say is if you’ve been hurt by us, if you’ve been kicked out or alienated or treated like a less than, bc you were queer or “non believing” or smth, I just want you to know I’m sorry. It shouldn’t be like that. You should have only felt love from us. It really really hurts to know that you could’ve been welcomed in but weren’t. And I am so sorry for it.

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So like

Does anybody on the hellsite have a missionary bf or gf bc I have one, and I’m gonna leave in like a year and y’all I’m losing my mind so if anybody has any tips or anything that would be greatly appreciated

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Mission prep today- i gotta change outta my church clothes and then back in for it. Petition to make all Sunday meetings that aren’t church casual dress like cmon now