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I have gotten everything I wanted but not the way wanted.

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I believe friendships are worth more than relationships.

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I Love You more than myself.

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Stay by my side, even if it’s for a short time.

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You tried, and that is enough. You are enough.

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Relapsing isn’t going to fix anything..

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The problem was never you.

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I love like a dog. Bite like one too.

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The addiction will never go away, it’ll stick with me till the day i die.

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!!! This is a WIP and not at all finished and isn't edited yet, just a rough idea !!!

TW: mention of suicide.

Prologue:

I look down on the street below from the roof of the building. Today my best friend killed herself and to celebrate her, i decided to crash a rich persons party. We use to do it when we were teenagers. Young and free.

A group of teenagers smoking on the corner. Two girls, walking, arms linked close together. Cars lined the street. I like watching people. We use create stories for them.

The group of teenagers, four of them, just ran away from their foster home. I looked back at them and saw two of them bickering. The oldest boy suggested that they went to the poorer side of town, whilst the other boy said they should leave the city. New York city, where dreams are made. Fuck that.

The girls at the end of the street now, giggling after one of them accidentally tripped slightly. Best friends, from two completely different worlds meet.

I smile and think of my best friend. Lottie. She was beautiful and perfect but looks weren’t everything. I’d known her all my life, I knew she was struggling mentally. I knew. I knew. I knew and I couldn’t help her. I couldn’t help. I failed her.

Tears pricked my eyes and I felt a presence next to me. I quickly wipe my eyes and turn my head. My eyes widen slightly. A tall, dark haired, polished man stood next to me. Probably the most gorgeous man I’d seen in a long time.

“It’s a beautiful Night,” he said softly, his voice was milky and smooth like butter. “Don’t you think?”

It took me a second to speak. “Uh- yes. Yeah. I’m just watching the people.”

He looks me up and down. I swallow nervously, scared I’ve been caught.

“People watching?” He questions.

“Yes, I like to make up silly stories about them.” I smile shyly. “It’s just a Little Game i like to play.”

“Sounds fun.” He licks his lips. “What’s your name?”

“It’s Faye.”

“Asher Dixon.” He turns to me and hold out his hand for me to shake. I take it hesitantly.

As soon as I make contact he pulls me in close. I press up against his chest and I gasp in surprise.

He moved close to my ear, his lips brushing me, and whispered. “Faye. Lovely to meet you, darling, but your time at this party come to an end, I’m assuming you know where the exit is.”

I nod slowly and he releases me. He smiles as if nothing happened and walked away.

I wanted to stay so badly, just to spite him, but I didn’t. After Asher walked away to another group of people, I quickly walked out known his eyes were most definitely burning into my back.

Once down on the street, I look up to see if he was still watching me. Our eyes met and he walked out of eyes sight. The entire way back to my apartment my heart was beating out of my chest.

I needed that.

I needed that adrenaline.

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Thank you for reading, please tell me if you like it (or dont) in the comments.

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I will never break the pattern. I am scared.

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How would you guys feel if I posted my wip story?

Edit: it’s posted

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I am going to end up just like my dad.

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I love them but they don’t love me.

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I miss my love.

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I think if i wrote a book i would title it 'I love you, Take care of yourself.'

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Maturing is realising your more bad then good and finding comfort in being alone.

-I love you take care of yourself