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a tender glimpse beneath the surface

❝ i'll always protect you. ❞

❝ i never meant to get this close, but now that i have i can't let you go. ❞

❝ i live for the moments when you look at me. the rest of the time i'm just existing. ❞

❝ i don't like how you make me feel. but i like not being around you even less. ❞

❝ i wish you wouldn't look at me like that. when you look at me like that i...it makes me wanna do things i shouldn't ❞

❝ there's no line i wouldn't cross for you. don't you realize that? ❞

❝ i did this for you. no one else. ❞

❝ i don't like it, but i'll do it for you. ❞

❝ i wonder how much of myself i'll have to give to you—how much i have to lay bare—before you realize how much you're taking. ❞

❝ i'm not trying to fix you. i'm just trying to be your friend. ❞

❝ i'm not um, real good at thank yous. or sorry's. but if you ever need me, i'm there. i owe you one. ❞

❝ i've seen you at your worst and i'm still standing here. ❞

❝ you've seen me at my worst but you're still here... ❞

❝ you can be mad at me, i can take it. i'd rather you be angry than shut me out. ❞

❝ i'm not angry, i'm just scared. ❞

❝ i know you love me, but do you like me? ❞

❝ do you think i'm a good person? ❞

❝ do you think i care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference? of course i'm helping you. ❞

❝ tell me what i can do to show you how i love you. i will give you anything you ask for. ❞

❝ you don't have to keep apologizing. just be here. day in and day out and prove that you're gonna keep showing up. that's all you have to do. ❞

❝ i only sleep well when you're next to me. ❞

❝ i don't want an apology i just want to understand. ❞

❝ i could actually use a hug right now. ❞

❝ i want everyone else to go away, but you can stay. ❞

❝ i actually do care what you think about. you're probably one of the only people whose opinion matters to me. ❞

❝ you always seem to know what i need. ❞

❝ you always seem to know just what i need to hear. ❞

❝ i want you to call me when you need someone. i want to be here for you. ❞

❝ you're the one i wanna call when i need someone. ❞

❝ seems like i always want you around when everything feels all fucked up. guess that means something. ❞

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I love personalization. I love stickers on water bottles and on laptops. I love shitty marker drawing on the toes of converse. I love hand embroidered doodles on jeans. I love posters on walls. I love knick knacks on shelves. I love jewelry with goofy charms. I love when people take things and make them theirs.

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TWENTY SOMETHING . . . sugawara koushi + reader

˖° “lay right here and we can waste away // trace the corners of your pretty face // all I know is that with you there's something // and that we'll never slow down // don't freak out // don't stop now babe // we're only twenty something”

                     twenty something, nightly 

warnings/notes : smau shot, gn reader, teacher fic (of course), suga is a hs language arts teacher, reader is a hs science teacher, suga just looks like he would send you poems, self indulgent as hell I'm sorry

gen taglist

@phoenix-eclipses @wyrcan @yogurtkags @bakery-anon @crypt-0rchid

@hyunteru @kameyyy @nekozaki @angelichwv @a-girl-cant-decide-on-a-name 

@localgaytrainwreck @standcom @bokutoko @loveyislost @shortcakebaby 

@wakashudou @jadebat7 @cherrysurf @softpia @thesmithslvr17

@arwawawa2 @massacremars @hibiscy @Arminswife12 @lolyouresilly

@2dmenfr

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hey pumpkin pies <3333 i dont think i mentioned this before but im doing an insane science course and so every sem is like absolutely diabolical and timeconsuming and crazy buttttt~ the sem ends, end of april for 3-4 months of summer so i'll be writing then, and until then i have wips im looking forward to sharing

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ive been really into pictures with stupid dimensions lately i just think really vertically long canvases are pretty

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im adding this to my locksreen rotation HOLYYYYYYYY

Forcibly released myself from the confines of art block with a colour assault

You should read Akatsuki no Yona

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BLEACH X The Apothecary Diaries

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Pre-debut svt ★ Spill the feels era

Carat Revival 2025 [Week 4] - evolution / growth week

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something with moodboards that occasionally bugs me is when its with ppl theres RARELY ppl of colour in the board itll be like a garden cafe aesthetic with like straight hair, blonde hair, even seeing like some colour to the hand holding a cup would make my day, i'd love too see more of ppl who look like me or just ppl of colour in general that would be amazing esp bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE mood boards

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komori fluff, genderneutral and disabled reader (but komori calls u grandpa jokingly (theres context for that)), 942words

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"my life's over."

it's all you greet komori with as you enter his apartment, throwing yourself and your grocery bags on his couch. he whistles as he enters from the kitchen, originally prepared to greet you with a kiss and a domestic 'welcome home'.

by the window, his parrot is sitting, repeating 'it's over' over and over again. komori tries to shush her while holding back a laugh, and the parrot shoots out a "don't laugh!" on your behalf. you groan out miserably as komori throws himself onto your bum as he heaves out a deep sigh, "now what has caused my beautiful, youthful pumpkin to expire earlier than their peers?" he says dramatically, but his choice of words only rub salt into your wound and you repeat the same, pathetic groan from when his weight first hit you.

his parrot flies to sit on the armrest of the couch and she pecks your hair softly, "over? over?" she asks, and you sigh, "yea, omi, over."

sakusa still havent forgiven komori for naming his rescue parrot after him; first off, he'd yelled, its a girl. second, i'm not a fucking parrot.

sadly for sakusa, his reaction had made the joke even more fun for komori.

he starts dragging his fingers through your hair, "now why would you say that?" he coos.

you lift your head briefly from where it's been smooshed in the throw pillows to lay on your cheek instead. a pouty scowl is inhabiting your adorable face, "i'm old."

komori snorts, "yea, i'm turning 30 this summer," he says. you roll your eyes, "not your age i'm complaining about."

he pretends to realize, "aah, the more you know. what makes you so much older than me? are you more wise?"

"i picked up my compression stuff package," you say as your face scrunches up in what seems to be a traumatic memory.

komori lights up in excitement as he eyes the bag of groceries, the package neatly nestled between vegetables and bottled tea. "that's amazing! it got here so fast, too!"

"the store clerk striked up some conversation," you say solemnly, like your life really had been passing before your eyes and you were now ready to greet the dead. omi jumps onto your shoulder and settles, but not before her beak had nibbled through your jacket thoroughly. komori waits for you to continue.

"the package is plastered with the store's logo. it says senior-sam all over it..."

komori thinks he knows where this is going and braces for it by biting his lip, holding back a smile as best as he's able.

"and she asked so kindly if i was picking up the package for my grandfather..." you wail the last word and hide your face in the pillows again. komori fails spectacularly at taking this seriously and bursts out in a loud laugh.

the package had been ordered in his name, since it'd been his valentine's present for you. omi straightens up at his laugh and repeats 'be quiet' until she flies to her window perch when he doesn't comply.

you let out sobs and komori's hands play with your hair, "they called me old then, didn't they?" he tries, though he knows it wont work. your age complex had gotten so much worse in step with the progress of your disability.

you move your head again to pout up at him, your underlip jutted out adorably, "no! the contents were for an old person they insinuated! and the content's for me!"

he smiles at you and leans down, only to hear you cry out in pain from the new weight distribution. he makes his peck on your forehead quick before he sits back on your ass, "i use compression, too. so does omi 2 and a lot of the guys i know."

he'd thought about ordering the compression things on a sports side to avoid this happening, but you needed gloves and shoulder support in specific sizes that were mostly available in the senior shops, despite his best efforts.

you roll your eyes again, "yeah! duh! you're professional athletes! im just not functioning right!"

"listen grandpa," he says sternly, though his smile never leaves him, "i'll wrap myself in constant and complete compression if it helps you feel better,"

you open your mouth to interrupt but he quickly puts a finger in front of your lips, "and yeah, you might have old man needs, but i love my little wrinkly baby."

the hand used to hush you starts pinching your cheek and you cant help the smile that threatens to spill despite your furrowed brows.

komori's humor always lightens the heavy weight on these subjects. some conversations need deeper talks and you've never felt invalidated by komori when it's serious, but even you can admit that rationally, this isn't a thing to worry too much about. you swat his hand away with a harrumph, "you're not helping." you say coldly and he raises an eyebrow, "oh? would a treat from your favorite bakery help?"

he'd bought the pastry on a whim on his way home because he knew you were coming, and now he's glad he did. your eyes light up but you pretend to think it through. you're about to answer when omi comes flying, "treat? treat! treat!" she states and make both of you laugh.

"well, you said the magic word. go get some seeds and my mountain of pastries and i'll put the groceries away."

"aye, captain." komori says as he gets up with omi on his shoulder. he freezes halfway through the living room, "wait... mountain? i only bought one."

halfway up from the couch you fall back down dramatically with a "noooo!" but you're not able to stifle your laugh at his fearful expression. you hear him sing a tune to omi as he moves around the apartment.

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Name moodboard for Rosalind Requested by anonymous

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Comrades I’ve just discovered that my crush who wasn’t even my crush for more than a day or two who I just thought was cool and got to know more IS FOR RHEBSTREETS 🌊🤸🏼🌊 he has a GF ANDDDDDD A SIDE CHICK OR WHATEVER 😃😃😃😁😁😁⁉️⁉️⁉️🌊🚶‍♀️💭 how amazing how fantastic how spectacular even 😃😁😁😃😃😁😃

he wasn’t even my type too like r u kidding me 😭😭😭😭 irionicaly he is still among the COUNTABLY MOSLTY NORMAL guys in my program which is so 💀💀💀💀💀💀 I’m so disappointed and apparently we may be able to figure it out bc the source who confirmed it told us to go looking since we r “so good at stalking” which is actually crazy bc I haven’t had a talking stage since like 2-3 years ago and I shut it down WUICK 😭😭😭 and so I live thru my friend who is battling a talking stage every week and gets advice from me SO WE THINK IT CAN BE SOMEONE FROM OUR PROGRAM???? anyhow I’m just flabbergasted guys free me

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❀ anime/manhwa/webtoon/paint girls.

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This has legit felt like the longest week ever

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DANDADAN