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@bored-dromaeosaur have you seen this yet?

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Source | Day 149

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little mari

this is js a song i wrote in 10 mins but also basically a summary of my life except for the ending 😭

there’s a hole inside my chest

where all my feelings manifest

sometimes i wonder if any of them are wrong

especially when i hear the doorbell

its little ‘ding-dong!’

i don’t want them to come home

i want to stay as i am, all alone

doesn’t anyone understand that that’s all?

that i’m not just some puppeteered doll

[ chorus ]

mom, dad, can you treat me like

i’m human too?

so i can stop wishing

that this heart’d stop beating

(glass breaking, “ano sinabi mo!?”)

wait, sorry, that was a lie

really, really, i’m fine, i’m fine

i won’t do it again

i’ll just crawl back into my den

there’s a hole in my chest

my feelings no longer manifest

i sit inside my room all day

so, this is the price i have to pay?

music helps, sometimes, i guess

ignoring all the pain i’ve dressed

myself in

inner child? what child, what child?

the one that grew up too soon, knowing touch no longer mild?

[ chorus ]

mom, dad, can i grow up faster?

now i know my injuries won’t be solved by plaster

or prove me wrong, maybe

say that i’m still your little baby

(cooing, vague “mahal kita!”)

wait, i know that’s stupid

really, really, it is idiotic

i won’t do it again

i’ll just crawl back into my den

there’s a hole in my chest

feelings are weak, i cannot rest

as the days go by, so did my cries

for help, but, oh well, no one cares about a stray’s hurt yelp

a whispered plea, unheard and unwanted

left for dead, useless even if created

every interest, a saving grace

yet lulling me more to join those of death’s race

fight, flight, freeze, fawn

every morning is the old, dead dawn

shining behind the clouds the sun rises

and i fall, past the point of crisis

[ chorus ]

mom, dad, today, i put to rest

my soul and its vessel, it’s for the best

sweet rope, take me home

to the place i’ve never known

(“oh, god, what have we done!?”)

hell or heaven, who cares? not me

all i know is right now, right here

i’m kind of.. sleepy..

(“mari! mari! oh, mari.. what did we do wrong..? ano ginawa namin?”)

(a few seconds later, flapping of wings, and “be not afraid.”)

[ context ]

we meet an abused child named mari, a play on the word marionette. we see inside her mind as she ages and as her days get worse, until she ultimately can’t take it anymore and she hangs herself, therefore being “asleep.”

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Because I’ve lost control of my life

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Reblog this post to ask mutuals to tell you their weirdest theory about u

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STOP DOING THIS IN INJURY FICS!!

Bleeding:

Blood is warm. if blood is cold, you’re really fucking feverish or the person is dead. it’s only sticky after it coagulates.

It smells! like iron, obv, but very metallic. heavy blood loss has a really potent smell, someone will notice.

Unless in a state of shock or fight-flight mode, a character will know they’re bleeding. stop with the ‘i didn’t even feel it’ yeah you did. drowsiness, confusion, pale complexion, nausea, clumsiness, and memory loss are symptoms to include.

blood flow ebbs. sometimes it’s really gushin’, other times it’s a trickle. could be the same wound at different points.

it’s slow. use this to your advantage! more sad writer times hehehe.

Stab wounds:

I have been mildly impaled with rebar on an occasion, so let me explain from experience. being stabbed is bizarre af. your body is soft. you can squish it, feel it jiggle when you move. whatever just stabbed you? not jiggly. it feels stiff and numb after the pain fades. often, stab wounds lead to nerve damage. hands, arms, feet, neck, all have more motor nerve clusters than the torso. fingers may go numb or useless if a tendon is nicked.

also, bleeding takes FOREVER to stop, as mentioned above.

if the wound has an exit wound, like a bullet clean through or a spear through the whole limb, DONT REMOVE THE OBJECT. character will die. leave it, bandage around it. could be a good opportunity for some touchy touchy :)

whump writers - good opportunity for caretaker angst and fluff w/ trying to manhandle whumpee into a good position to access both sites

Concussion:

despite the amnesia and confusion, people ain’t that articulate. even if they’re mumbling about how much they love (person) - if that’s ur trope - or a secret, it’s gonna make no sense. garbled nonsense, no full sentences, just a coupla words here and there.

if the concussion is mild, they’re gonna feel fine. until….bam! out like a light. kinda funny to witness, but also a good time for some caretaking fluff.

Fever:

you die at 110F. no 'oh no his fever is 120F!! ahhh!“ no his fever is 0F because he’s fucking dead. you lose consciousness around 103, sometimes less if it’s a child. brain damage occurs at over 104.

ACTUAL SYMPTOMS:

sluggishness

seizures (severe)

inability to speak clearly

feeling chilly/shivering

nausea

pain

delirium

symptoms increase as fever rises. slow build that secret sickness! feverish people can be irritable, maybe a bit of sass followed by some hurt/comfort. never hurt anybody.

ALSO about fevers - they absolutely can cause hallucinations. Sometimes these alter memory and future memory processing. they're scary shit guys.

fevers are a big deal! bad shit can happen! milk that till its dry (chill out) and get some good hurt/comfort whumpee shit.

keep writing u sadistic nerds xox love you

ALSO I FORGOT LEMME ADD ON:

YOU DIE AT 85F

sorry I forgot. at that point for a sustained period of time you're too cold to survive.

pt 2

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We just knew.

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Every single time someone mentions police role-playing in a sexual context I think of this tinder interaction and I instantly become absolutely stricken with laughter

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Happy anniversary to this banger.

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This video made me cry so I wanted to put it here

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This video made me cry so I wanted to put it here

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Happy Pride!

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to the left. take it back now yall. one shot this time

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WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT