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Anxceit: Fight or Flight

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"Fight or flight, I'd rather die than have to cry in front of you."

"Fight or flight, I'd rather lie than tell you I'm in love with you."

The waves soared, dipping into the warm sand before washing it away, drawing back into itself. Shells of many shapes and colors were left behind, and others swept right back into the waves to float along the shore. In the distance, he could hear the sound of people laughing while they splashed, kicking at the waves. He peered at them briefly before quickly dropping his gaze to the sand.

Virgil buried his toes into the sand, picking at the thread of his jacket. It wasn't the best attire to wear to the beach. His shorts were going to be scratchy later and he'd surely smell like salt, but the texture of the sand against his skin, grainy yet so soft that he sunk right into it, was enough to make it worth it.

A shadow overcame his own, barely lit anyway as the sun was setting, orange and pinks lighting up the horizon, melting together like a nice sorbet. Virgil didn't look at the figure, tightening his hold around his jacket even as they shuffled and sat next to him.

They were silent for a moment, and even though Virgil didn't peer up at them, they knew simply by the soft smell of lemon drops that he was in the company of a familiar face.

"You ran off today," They murmured, tone low and searching.

Virgil clicked his tongue in response.

They gave a small huff through their nose and then a long sigh. "Virgil, please, won't you look at me at least?"

Virgil didn't move, squeezing at his sleeve.

The other sighed again, softer this time.

They sat in silence for a moment, the waves barely crashing in, merely slithering up to the tips of their toes before retreating.

"I didn't know." They mumble, ever so quietly. Virgil frowned. He didn't know their voice could feel so soft. "I didn't know this was going to happen, I didn't know that everything would fall apart like it did, and in the beginning, I should have known. I should have known it would topple over eventually, but I didn't. I wanted to believe..." He trailed off a little, and Virgil finally glanced at him. His eyes... they looked so sad, so full of regret. Virgil chest tightened and looked away again, unable to keep his gaze into those eyes. "I wanted to believe that you loved me."

Virgil tensed every muscle that would, a shot of ice running up his spine and shilling his nervous system at such a confession. He choked a little on air, and his eyes shot to his, watching his lips, God those lips, curl into a frown. It was so odd. He hated that look on him. For ages, he wished for nothing but despair from the arrogant bastard, yet in that moment, he wanted nothing but his sly, charming smirk to appear.

"...and I know now that you don't."

Virgil's heart thundered in his chest. He opened his mouth to say something, anything. But no words would form. He could only watch as the other began to stand, wiping what sand he could off his outfit before turning.

The waves were louder now, it seemed, crashing on top of each other over and over. He looked between them and Janus, watching his footsteps leave an imprint in the sand, and before he could even gasp out a noise, a rebuttal, his hand was on his wrist with a sudden tug. The other stopped in his tracks, sinking his weight into the sand to stop himself from tipping over, his eyes wide in surprise. Virgil panted, unable to breathe properly with how fast his heart was pumping. Blood rushed to his head, and they stared.

And stared.

Virgil pressed his lips together and then opened them again with a soft plea rolling off his lips before he could even think to stop himself. "No...please don't-" He choked out, his eyes suddenly stung. Did he get sand in his eye? Saltwater, maybe? It had to be the latter. He could feel water running down his cheeks, and his eyes blurred slightly, most likely irritated by the salt. "Don't leave."

He watched as Janus pressed his lips into a thin line and then moved so slow, as if approaching a nervous cat on the street. He slowly sunk onto the sand, Virgil quickly dropping next to him, the shake in his knees giving him little choice.

"Okay," He agrees, and his voice, oh his honey coated tone, it shakes a sob out of Virgil, making him well aware the water dribbling down his cheeks wasn't water at all."I won't leave you, Virgil." He assures him so gently, his warm breath fanning his ear and the fragrance of lemon only ascending as he drew closer. He didn't know why he was so close, but he buried himself into the scent anyway, basking in the soured sweetness.

"I'll stay with you."

"Fuck," Virgil chokes, his voice crackling. He lightly hit his fist against his chest, more so out of utter frusteration than any kind of malicious. "I hate you!"

"I love you."

"Stop!" He sobs, dropping further into his arms. "God, please stop saying that."

Janus held him tighter. "I can't lie to you anymore, Virgil."

Virgils body shook, weakly hitting at him again, but Janus didn't flinch. If anything, he held him tighter. "I love you."

"I hate you!"

"I don't think you do, and that scares you."

"I- I hate you..."

"I love you."

"...I...I love you too."

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Drew Denki <3

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Canon. This is Canon oml

Remus: *goes to whack Roman with a morning star*

Roman: *whips around quickly* Joke’s on you bitch! *holds up a reverse uno card*

Remus: DAMMIT! *whacks himself with a morning star*

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Guys gimme sander sides au/blogs please like ugh I want yummy delicious aus to scroll through and add to my collection

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Featuring flustered sides but eith more color. Bottom one has a few kisses marks ;3

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Guys I need someone to make an animatic with Roman and Logan with the song "Stupid with Love." From the mean girls musical please please 🥺😭 I CANT ANIMATE FOR SHIT

"Smart with math but stupid with love." GRAGHHH GIMME GIMMEEEE

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Me adding this to the list of drawings I'll never do but want to so bad.

Ok,hear me out:

Roman wearing this suit.

Y E S Y E S Y E S he'd look S O fucking good in that!!!

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GUYS I found Patton you guys

Here he is <33

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Same, same. I see you

ohh i am becoming an aromantic gray fullbuster truther i fear

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Fairy tail notes:

-I know gender and queer sexuality isn't explicitly spoken about in fairy tail but can I just say like they would be the most accepting and loving guild?? Like I wanna say the entire universe would be like owl house where people are just gay and no one blinks an eye??

-i feel like Gray shouldn't end up with anyone lol Gruvia is cute and I do think Gray loves juvia, but I feel like it ends up being a more familial love, he doesn't want to go on dates with her but he'd protect her with his life and cares for her On a deeper level that he doesn't quite grasp, but knows its not romantic. He loves her, but not in the way she wants, and eventually that he would want too. Grays character is a character I want to hold in my hands because it's much more complicated than some might think, I feel like he just gets dumbed down to just someone who is cold, when in reality he is one of the warmest members.

His love language is protection, he isn't great with words and prefers to show it through actions and much subtle fashion, an unspoken love because revealing how much he truly cares for someone scares him.

Juvia loves him unconditionally, but I want her to branch out, to distance herself because loving Gray only hurts them both. GIVE ME ARO GRAY. Give me Aro Gray who realizes just because he feels sexual desire but no romantic doesn't make him a pervert, or that he automatically has to love who he fucks. Gimme Aro Gray who communicates this to Juvia, and Juvia doesn't understand and takes it wrong but then Erza/Mira talks to her and she gets it, and tries to distance herself a little to help get over Gray and maybe she takes comfort in a fellow guild mate (...lisanna...) and MAYBE JUVIA SHOULD BE WITH LISANNA, THERE I SAID IT.

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do you plan on writing a sequel to the twins separated at birth story?? I loveeeee it

I absolutely am! Cooking up some drawings for it too :3 may just be little snippets for a bit, my motivation is always all over the place <33

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"spam liking will get you blocked" spam liking will get you a kiss on the mouth

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Experimenting with digital art so I drew protective Remus (idk what I'm doing shhh)

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Twins separated at birth, with Roman and Remus.

Remus was raised by his dad, Ethan Reyes. A man who is rough around the edges, likes a cold beer at 11 A.M., and works as a mechanic. He tried his best with the kid, and he taught him that the world would give him nothing, and he had to work for everything he got. Never let yourself be the prey, always the predator. (And remember that Dad is the Apex predator, so don't piss him off).

Roman was raised by Catalina Mendoza, She's a fashion designer and much more successful than their father, who owns a local car shop. It makes decent money, but they live in some apartment in a dodgey neighborhood while Roman lives in a two story house on the Upper East side with a swimming pool. He was raised with the softness of his mom, giving him everything but always away for work. She's very loving and spoils him rotten to make up for her absence.

So, as Roman relocates once again so his mom can work in Florida, he attends a public school for a few courses, as the charter schools in the area have waiting lists far too long to bother. Roman didn't mind. It wasn't a bad school by any means, though. His first day is odd. When he arrived, it seemed like people were staring at him...confused.

He didn't understand and concluded that it's because he's the new kid so far into the year. He was used to it, he supposes. Either way, he went about his way, questions peeking up his throat as he walked into the office, and the front desk attendant looked him up and down, that same puzzled look on her face.

"Remus?"

Roman frowns, pinching his eyebrows together. "Uhm...no ma'am, I'm Roman, Roman Mendoza. I transferred-"

"Ah, yes," She interrupts, still eyeing him oddly. "Your papers arrived early this morning. Here's your schedule, I apologize, you have a...striking resemblance to another student."

Roman blinks a little. "Oh, well, that's alright," He says, taking his schedule as it's handed. "Have a wonderful day ma'am."

And as Roman walks through the halls, he hears whispers, the name Remus continuing to spread. He ignores it, heading towards his locker and opening it with ease, emptying a few items of his inside when it's suddenly slammed shut. Roman jumps, staring into a pair of mismatched eyes, a large scar trailing down the left one. He's awfully intimidating, a black turtle neck pulled all the way up over his adams apple with a yellow trenchcoal over it, draping all the way down to the floor. Roman frowns as his lips curl into a smirk.

"Boo." He sings before leaning against his locker, blocking his way. "Why do you look like you just crawled out of some preppy golden gated community? I know people say you're scary but this is a new low."

Roman flushes, his frown deepening as he glances between him and his locker. "I don't know who you are. Could you please get off my locker?" He huffs, rolling his shoulders back, wanting to appear taller and more intimidating against the stranger. While he's quite short in stature, something about him rubbed him the wrong way. The others' eyes flash with confusion, his eyebrows drawing in, and he stands up a bit straighter and looks him over.

"Huh." He murmurs. "You're not Remus."

Roman was beginning to get really sick of being compared to this Remus character. "I could have told you that." He huffs out, moving to open his locker again, snatching his bag out before closing it again. "My name is Roman. Roman Mendoza."

The other teen hums and looks him over once more before turning on his heel without another word. What an odd place.

It continues on all day, people avoid him like the plague. Even teachers seemed to sag in relief once he's proven not to be this "Remus" person. At lunch, to no surprise, no one wants to be near him, and he ends up at a table alone. It was a strange, lonely experience. He can't remember the last time he ate lunch alone. He's used to being popular, always having people around him. And yet, everyone's so caught up in thinking he's this some other guy!

He sulked at his spot, stabbing at his lunch forcefully when someone sat across from him.

"You're not gonna kill it anymore than it is Rem, it's already dead."

The new voice snickers, and Roman groans, tossing his fork down. "For the last time my name is not-" He pauses mid sentence, his heart quickly pulsating far too quickly at how cute the person is sitting across from him is.

He's kinda scrawny, long damaged black hair and deep purple tips that fall over his shoulders a little in a messy, mullet like cut. His eyeshadow is dreadfully dark and far too emo but God, his sharp jaw and dark, cold blue eyes make up for it. Roman felt every ounce of frustration die on his tongue and he choked a little while kid eyed him weirdly, his shoulders having tensed up as he began raising his voice. He looked him over once, twice, and then a third.

"You're not Remus."

Roman scrunched his face up, the frustration quickly bubbling to again. "I'm aware." He complains.

The others cheeks start to tinge Pink and he quickly moves to stand up. "Ugh- uh- fuck sorry," He stumbles out, grabbing his tray but Roman's has had quite enough and stands as well, grabbing his wrist.

"Wait! Ugh please introduce me to this Remus character! I've been compared to him all day and it's driving me insane!"

"Aw, well I am so very popular!" Comes a nasally voice from behind. A rough hand is placed on his shoulder, squeezing hard enough to make Roman hiss. "Now why don't ya let go of my friend there huh?"

Roman immediately let's go of the other, and he tucks his arm away in his hoodie pockets, rolling his shoulders forward to hunch into himself, his eyes darting from Roman to behind him. Roman yips as he's grabbed and turned and oh.

It's like...staring into a fun house mirror.

His doppelganger has the exact same facial structure, same eye color, hair color (though his has some Grey streak in it). Though, his eyes are accompanied by some purple eyeshadow and black eyeliner, a crazed look in his eye and he's slightly paler. Not to mention, he's clearly growing out a mustache and a bit of stubble.

He seemed to realize the same thing as Roman did because his eyebrows furrowed a bit and he let go of him.

He looked him over and raised an eyebrow. "Who the hell are ya?"

Roman swallowed a little and glanced around. The cafeteria grew much more quiet now aside from some chatter and hushed whispers. He caught a few stares and they quickly looked away. He stood tall anyway. "Roman. Roman Mendoza. And you are?" He demands, crossing his arms.

Remus snorts a bit and mirrors the action. "Remus. Remus "none of your fucking business". Now listen here Romane-"

"Roman."

"Whatever," He waves his hand. "Ya ever put a hand on this bitch over there," He points a finger over to the adorable emo who rolled his eyes at Remus' protectiveness, shying away from the attention. "I'll fuckin' kill ya. Got it?"

Roman scowls. "Who do you think-"

"Oh well hello kiddos!" Chirps a new voice, chipper and sweet, a taller fellow right on his tail with a dark blue sweater vest and rectangular glasses on the tip of his nose. He's holding a few different things in his arms, a book, a notebook, a folder, etc. He stands tall behind the chipper one, who's wearing a masculine cheerleader outfit, his curly hair bouncy and his eyes bright behind his circular frames.

"We doing okay over here?" The sweetie chirps, looking between Roman and Remus. Roman opens his mouth to voice that no they were not doing okay, but Remus swoops in before he could.

"Course' we are toots." Remus grins, his teeth a bit yellow and he dips down a little to Pattons Height. "Just a fun discovery ya know? Never knew I had one of those doppelgangers. Can't say we're anything alike though, this ones too prissy."

Roman grits his teeth a little. "Why you-"

"Well," Patron interrupts once again, taking a step away from Remus and one towards Roman. "I'm going to be showing our new student around! Explain a few clubs and whatnot if you're done here?"

Remus smirks, smug as he looks Roman up and down before lazily strolling over to Virgil. "Yeah, we're done here."

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I feel like Remus and Jinx from Arcane would get along great

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Yes, I love this, Lucy would have one of those poofy princess cat beds

Like this but bigger probabaly

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Gray is Lucy's big brother and I will die on that hill.

The best fairy tail duo >>>>