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05/31(night of 30)/2018— Odd "dream"

Let me start off by saying that it's believed that some of your dreams are actually memories of out of body experiences you have when your body is asleep. When the body dreams, it releases the chemical DMT, the same chemical people take as a drug and is considered one of the most powerful hallucinogens. Many people report having an out of body experience when they take this drug, in fact most people do. Concluding that DMT can easily cause you to leave your body (that's not a bad thing unless it's because you died lmao). Your brain releases a small dose of DMT (no where near the amount people take to have a trip), which is why you dream, and could very well be leaving your body when it's in rest mode.

I was in my dad's old apartment by myself (I think I was trying to find out why I used to steal so much when I was younger). I went over the memories I had there, but they were memories from a subconscious point of view, like I was viewing what I and my father were subconsciously thinking when those memories had actually occurred in my life. I concluded that it was because I starved myself so my dad could eat and I felt like I deserved the money I stole from him, he would get annoyed everytime I asked for the food card even if I hadn't eaten in days (though I wouldn't tell him that, but most of the time he knew), I would steal the card from him so I didn't have to ask or I would get myself something when he had me go down and get him something because he was stoned and wanted munchies or just wanted me to go down and get him some candy or whatever, or I'd just steal food from the store because there was almost never any in the house except for foods that needed other food to be prepared, like noodles and beans and shit.

Then, I was just in the apt by myself, but I was with 2 spirits, both male, one of them was the one I know for a fact resides in that apt, not a kind one either. I've had quite some experiences with that one, lets just say it's gushing with malevolence. I went into my brother's old room, for some unknown reason (or I just can't remember), and climbed out the window (idk why). I pretty much just hovered outside the window, but then I heard the 2 spirits talking back and fourth right by me, it wasn't about good things, very bad in fact, but I don't remember exactly what they were saying. However, I got the feeling that I had to stay and be under their command or just involve myself with the evil things they wanted to do. I tried to play along until I went into the living room, in my head I was planning on how to get out of there. I spilled water on the floor (could be referencing me accidentally projecting my thoughts to leave). When I entered the living room, I flew up and did a flip in the air then floated down, I was playing along with them and for some reason I had thought that would show that Idk, also it was pretty fun, I don't usually fly around in my dreams while I'm aware. I messaged my friend and asked if I should leave or said I was coming over or something along those lines. I also had this plan of "exorcising" the spirits from the house. I think they knew.

Then, foolishly, I waved my phone around with the message on the screen and said I was leaving. As I was, I was drawn back to my old room because I forgot my phone and "needed my charger and all that shit". As I was rummaging around through my stuff (the spirits hadn't confronted me or even appeared to me yet) a cat came in and I started petting it, but I continued to look through my things. Then a slightly bigger, more visible, cat seemingly appeared out of the closet. It pushed a backpack towards me with its nose. "Hm? Do you think I should run away?" In my mind I was thinking it meant run away from living there because I had done that when I lived with my dad. It nodded. "With who?" The cat pushed the back pack towards me harder and stepped closer to me. "Who should I run away with?" 'Run away' It placed it's head against my forehead, looking me in the eyes. 'Run away' It said sternly with this look of protectiveness, nervousness, calming, and knowing, in its eyes. That was all I remember before I was back in my body. I woke up. I checked the clock and it was 3:00am. I thought it over and realized the cats wanted me to run away from whatever was about to happen. Cats are my spirit animal, I already knew that, I should have known they were trying to protect me.

The first cat was fluffy (not long haired, just long short-haired) and had a dark, dark grey tabby coat, it resembled one of my boyfriend's cats. It was a fairly small cat though.

The second cat was a larger, short-haired (not fluffy but looked very soft), medium-dark grey tabby. It's eyes were mostly green, but a green-gold hazel. Just like my boyfriend's eyes, could be a coincidence because it's a common eye color for a cat, it could be because that's a comforting eye color to me, or it could have been him sending the message through the cat, I have no clue. My dad's eyes are also similar to that, except his have way more gold and goldenbrown. I don't think they were my dad's eyes though, and that's because I got a similar feeling to what I get when I look into my boyfriend's eyes, and when I woke up and thought about the cat's eyes he was the first think that came to mind. In fact he was the first thing that came to mind when thinking about the second cat in general, he being my boyfriend.

It's 4:16 now, wow lol it took me an hour to get that all down in a manner that is understandable.

Also why can't you erase the space between paragraphs when you hit enter??? Wtf