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I do find people attractive but i’m just not attracted to them.

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Today started out a not so great day because I wanted to do things and I didn’t and I was colder than I have been in a while and it was on and off raining which I don’t like. But then I got to leave work early and the sun had just set and the sky was clear and blue and the moon was out and I was listening to an album my friend recommended and when I walked under a lamppost it lit up and, sure my nose was cold, but the ends of my cigarette warmed my fingers. Something something about Autumn and something something about not every day ends as it starts and bad days can become good days.

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Oh when you're 15 and unknowingly ace and think you have some sort of moral superiority over your peers having sex

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Can’t ever read a normal ofmd fic. There’s always someone pissing.

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I tried to make a playlist for CJ because he's living in my head rent free and it's just turned into a collection of the sluttiest county songs. The vibes are there but I fear I'm listening to too much Wheeler Walker Jr

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SEX 👎

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Was thinking of something important, things derailed, and now Izzy is demiromantic in my head

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Never really understood the whole "I love this character - I'm going to torture them" theme in fanfic until ofmd

Izzy Hands deserves all the love and tenderness and care and soft things in the world... someone beat him up for me

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You still feel the same level of attraction towards everyone... it's just no attraction

the bi/pan to asexual pipeline is so real

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Good news: discovered an asexual anthem

Bad news: listening to car seat headrest attracts male manipulators

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Recently found out aegosexual literally means sexuality without self and this is why etymology is one of the coolest things out there

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Realising a lot of aces don't enjoy shipping/fantasising feels so similar to realising allos were being serious about wanting sex

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Tony is totally serious about his rivalry with Barnes. He would love it if he lost in their colleges' annual football match. The fact that their friends were friends, and that Tony was kind enough to sleep with Barnes a few times over the years didn't change anything.

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“You’re a pervert.”

Barnes grinned. “Oh, am I?’

“Uhuh,” Tony nodded, “you’re gonna become one of those creepy old men staring at girls in cheer uniforms.”

“Didn’t realise you were a girl.”

“It’s not a good look, Barnes, sniffing around me just because I’m in a skirt.”

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Book review - Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu

2.5 ⭐

The main fall out of this 19th century gothic novella was that it was just too short.

The novella follows Laura's comprehensive narration of how Carmilla came to stay at her family's secluded home. She recounts her fast friendship with their guest while alluring to the reader that more sinister things are happening, things that she herself were unaware of at the time. All comes to light when family friend General Spielsdorf arrives and tell his own story concerning the death of his niece and ward, Bertha.

For me just over 100 pages does not do this story justice. The insta-love trope didn't work on me and Carmilla's almost instant intensity, alongside Laura's slight discomfort, didn't hit the spot. It wasn't down to what Carmilla was actually saying, nailing the erotic nature of devotion, obsession, and the selfish side of love, but the time and pacing of her saying such things. I would have liked to see more development before such speeches.

The gothic nature of this book stems from classic ideas of temptation, unholiness, and physical consequences, something I believe doesn't strike the same amount of fear into people today. This is less of a criticism of Carmilla and more to do with my frustration of not fully being the intended audience to such stories and not being filled with the intended horror. However this attitude also leads to dissatisfaction with the resolution of the novella - how can one be content with the ending of something that wasn't bothering them in the first place?

I rate this novella for what it does, pushing against stereotypical depictions of women, and presenting an emotional and sexual bond between Carmilla and Laura. I think it's hella cool that this was the OG Sapphic vampire novella and I enjoyed Laura's narration surrounding her conflicting feelings, caught on the edge of repulsion and attraction. I sorely wanted more, more development, more seduction, more terror, and unfortunately my unfulfillment is what led to my rating.

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Work 5 in the 'Stony as Olivia Rodrigo songs' series.

'Obsessed'

These thoughts were going to kill him or, at the very least, ruin his relationship.

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Taking obsessed from the GUTS bonus tracks and making it gay. I'm just saying, obsession is a queer theme so this is less 'Bucky is a jealous boyfriend' and more 'Bucky can't get Tony out of his head even when he's in bed with his partner'.

Less of a Stony theme for this one but still within the series. I discovered the bonus tracks recently and couldn't get the idea of Bucky being totally obsessed with Tony out of my head (probably because I am a winteriron fan before everything else)

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I’m just saying Paralysed by NF has some big Draco feels.

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The houses when crossing the road

Gryffindor: Sits in the middle of the road until a car comes and sees who moves out the way first.

Ravenclaw: Times it perfectly so it looks like they're gonna get hit but crosses between cars. Or just waits for no cars.

Hufflepuff: Finds an actual crossing.

Slytherin: Allows Huff to take them to the crossing so as to not get hit.