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I hate to get political lmao BUT--

why are we taxing SMOKERS to get art funds? While the world is trying to eliminate smoking cuz it's bad for you (going poorly, vaping is worse etc) arts funding loses money almost by design

Why not tax vapes then too ? That's crazy

My tinfoil hat is on when I say that they don't want us making art

Same reason they want us to stop saying gay unless it's to out trans kids to their parents

Same reason they got the party that used to be based on LESS government out here with their whole chest asking for censorship

"""The arts""" need to have a better way to get money to artists besides making cigarettes more expensive, which are mostly smoked by poor artists

And """""The arts"""""" need a better way to distribute funds to artists outside of the grant system which is honestly an insane model for promoting art making

Don't get me started on how they've conflated arts and activism as a venn diagram that's nearly a circle

They're DIFFERENT

I'd gladly pay a tax to fund the arts but I'm not gonna start fucking SMOKING TOBACCO

Are you fucking kidding me, We want our housing and Healthcare bitch, what the fuck

When and where are we gonna start being valued?

Maybe when and where the billionaires aren't playing checkers crushing our skulls

Of course billionaires don't want us making art

That requires critical thinking, imagination, passion, and problem solving. Oh no, too much of that and we may actually start figuring out how to performance art our way into their houses at night

Or GameStopping our way to fucking their ass(ets)

If we stay at the bottom of the hierarchy of needs, we simply won't even have time to figure out who we are

And the people bootstrapping, pounding their chests and screaming about trans people will have no time to realize they are a little bit faggy

That is, they built their entire personalities on a prescribed, narrow, strict parameter and it has nothing to do with their own true self, and they will find out that there may be nothing there, nothing left that's recognizable once you take away what "masculinity" means, or what it is to be a "man"

they have nothing left to build the Self and the ego simply cannot die without a hissy fit, bursting into flames, threatening everything around it to desperately cling to a fraying thread of their perception of reality

Women who have simply subordinated in exchange for protection, feel threatened when they see someone may choose this life rather than be born into it, and they hate it because they cannot touch the deep truth that they would not actually choose womanhood but then what of the sunk cost of their decades of life invested in womanhood?

The Stockholm syndrome of their place in society, their interface of a personality, the same pre-installed software that was never updated

Because they had to work

Feed a family they couldn't think too hard about having because abortion isn't an option, saying no to that man isn't an option

Because they had to alchemize the void into pride, into identity, when the whole time the call was coming from inside the house

No time for critical thinking, for exploration, for expression

You want to be like the self made man Elon Musk one day

The self made man Donald Trump

They're so relatable how they hate those elites

They're not like other girls

You aren't like other girls

But you're NOT WEIRD! You're special, exceptional, more deserving somehow

Because you played the game exactly how you were supposed to

So daddy will tell you he's proud

So he lets you go to heaven

So you get to retire when your body is too bent and aching to do the things you denied yourself to get there

The ideas you snuffed out because you had to work, they don't come up anymore now that you're retired, burnt out, and wheezing

You never made art

But look, a pink cyberpunk!

It was all worth it wasn't it?

No amount of cigarettes is gonna fix this.

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Saying Rocky Horror is transphobic? U haven't read 1984

What I mean is, I wrote an essay in college for a class called The Language of Thought. The essay was about 1984 and how language suppression was supposed to also suppress thought. If they eliminated "thoughtcrime" then they'd have total control of the population.

The trouble is, (luckily) it doesn't work. You can be fully enmeshed in the Party's newspeak, doublethink, doubleplusgood culture, and still feel a deep sense of longing, dissent, resistance. What is natural to oneself exists regardless of culture, and in fact, the more suppressed or repressed a culture is, it's only bound to result in behavioral or psychological hemorrhaging.

So this applies to : trans people have always existed, before the language of trans existed, which has only been within the last 12 seconds of world history. (First in print in 1960s or 70s, 1990s becoming more widely used, specifically "trans").

So yeah, 12 seconds.

In 1975, Rocky Horror was released and used the term transvestite and transsexual. These are 2 distinct things that I'm sure cishet people wouldn't recognize the difference.

Add transgender and I mean, it all has the word trans in it, so who cares what difference does it make?

So listen

The gay, queer, trans sensibility of camp

The way we understand satire

The way we are superior at doublethink, in fact, and can hold nuance and contradictions

And are more resilient than this reactionary idea that being offensive is "unsafe" or "harmful". Well, to the people who don't get what Rocky Horror is doing, those people are ALREADY dangerous, unsafe, harmful to trans and queer people, and this film isn't FOR them. Never was. That's why it flopped when it came out.

Mainstream society hates that they're the butt of the joke in this movie, the ones not in control

And if you're afraid that this is how cis het people see you, well yea maybe they do

So embrace it

Lean into it and make it camp

The more you think we're "like this" the more fun I'll have making you believe you're right, and the more you'll think we're serious. It protects us... turns the words meant to hurt us and reclaims them. Maybe it does reinforce their shallow ideas but those of us not interested in respectability... go off

Ouroboros

I support trans rights AND trans wrongs

We get to have iconic and complex queer characters who are imperfect. Engage with the flaws and think critically as an adult, without assuming that it endorses the wrongs simply by displaying them.

Even if the movie DOES seem to glorify problematic things (the coercive sex) then YOU don't have to endorse it.

It also brings to mind the same discourse with "baby it's cold outside" where it was so forbidden and unacceptable for women to enthusiastically consent to sex out of wedlock, that I'd boldly claim to reclaim the song as a way to perform this "purity" with a tongue in cheek slew of excuses to an imaginary viewer (God?) To why she was allowed to stay and fuck her man during a snowstorm. Good for her.

People are so sticky for thinking consent is an easy straightforward thing. It can be! It isn't always! Cuz we don't always know what we want and can resist the unfamiliar, the taboo, not because we DON'T want it, but because we're taught not to.

So if I may indulge to reframe the coercive sex Frank has with Brad and Janet, it's like well what if they try it and like it, and they did. Is it an example of how we should behave? Absolutely not. Don't act like that, especially in the year of our Lord 2024.

I don't think it took a whole lot of force for them to be convinced to try on queer sex though. They folded fast. Let's focus on the way symbolically this means everyone is bi and being trans is hot and also Tim Curry is hot. Cishet people need to relax.

And younger queer people also need to relax. IMHO. I get it I love the passion and fervor that younger people have when discovering things for the first time as if the rest of the world hasn't ever made the same discoveries.

Come to your conclusions the way we all had to, reinvent your wheels. I'm just old man yells at cloud, discovering what it feels like to be in my 30s and people in their 40s and beyond roll their eyes at me just as I do to the 20 Somethings and so on. Tale as old as time.

But Rocky Horror isn't transphobic. It isn't meant to be an accurate picture of a human being lol he's literally an alien actually. This is a silly movie. A batshit indulgent movie with a loose grip on narrative to begin with. But transvestite... where did that classification go?

It's not the same as transgender, transsexual, or drag queen.

As we have learned the term trans, has it not erased cross dresser and transvestite? As we blend gender, attempt to erase the binary... I still think clothing, femininity, and masculinity exist. There are subconscious ways even children portray these traits, and in clothing it's an easy way to access them, to perform gender. To access gender.

I was AFAB and I am a drag artist that most often portrays femininity. It's for pay, on stage. I enjoy it because it feels transgressive to my natural gender state (ambiguous). Am I a cross dresser? I feel like one tbh.

If someone only really likes to wear transgressive clothes erotically, is that a transvestite? Sounds like fun. What's the matter with that?

I'm just tired of accusations being made about things like Rocky Horror meant to erase all the good its done in this world to ignite the freak within me, and many many other queers. View things with a critical lens, sure, but do so with enough book learning to realize your history, the context, and the intent. I think intent matters, so sue me. You can't tell me Tim Curry didn't have a blast as that character. Do you think the intent was to be anything less than iconic?

All these coconuts seem to be falling out of trees, and I'm trying my best to know where I exist within the context of all that came before me

Otherwise idk it's a lot of wasted thoughts and words already said somewhere else but better,

ouroboros

Etc.

EDIT:

I watched the remake with Laverne Cox and it's like, see?? This is how you think you could do better? Not to be like U RUINED IT WITH WOKE like no, of course a diverse cast would benefit any production. But my observations:

Laverne and Adam Lambert are the only ones of the culture in that film. They understood the assignment because they're one of us. The rest of them were not. Just homosexual theater kids. If they even were all gay, who knows. They're devoid of cultural context. Plus! As sad as it is when a cis person is cast in a queer role, a pretty person cast in an ugly role is disrespectful. Riff Raff's casting was offensive. Magenta's casting was like, wow she seems cute and sweet, not like a sick freak. Brad was too Chadly. No ugly people make it in the Industry anymore, and when I say ugly people, I mean an LA 6, ya know, still actually attractive but you can at least disguise it.

Give me an actual "hear me out." Fuck out of here with the palatably fuckable.

Would I pay to see it as a stage play? Yes, I'd see Laverne do anything. Was it a money grab? Absolutely. That's all this industry has left.

God, do I have to start writing screenplays? Fuck

It's up to me to reinvent the wheel!!!

For my next essay I'll be discussing the Addams Family theory and philosophy, the intersection of kink, indulgence, and Zen Buddhism

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Fine. She's got me. She's unskippable.

Edit: except Femininomenon that still sucks

I just wish I could go 24 hours without being forced to hear her songs. But good for her.

Happy for her, I think she represents positive things and is doing a good job.

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I'm gonna get absolutely canceled for this but I just have some questions

Why does she say "can you play a song with a fucking beat" not once but three whole times? My brother in Christ did you not write the song? Is the white man in the Booth not listening to you the first time? Is it a cry for help?

Why is she a midwest princess but I only heard songs about the Only Two Cities in America: Hollywood and Manhattan?

Don't get me wrong I love good branding and having a costume theme is so fun. Its a great way to get the cis girls in drag for the first time other than Halloween and their own Wedding.

I think the way she flips her hair is mesmerizing. I enjoy how she looks like she has definitely been a regular shadow cast of Rocky Horror. She even references the "Touch Me" song. I love how she got local drag to open and I hope queer pop stars continue to do it.

I personally got one of the most rancid migraines after the concert and I've never felt more Not a Girl and Not Young in my life and I went with someone older than me who was right there with it keeping up and having an emotional response to the music

I can't help but think since I'm demisexual I'm missing out on an entire layer of experience with pop music. If it doesn't make me horny, it feels like I am smell blind in a field of ripe flowers. Is that what people get out of this?

Am I out of touch? Am I jealous? But if I did what she does I'd be dysphoric I think. I think that's why I didn't get picked to open. I'm too much of a monster and I like it that way. I don't think I actually serve cunt.

I just pull ribbons of blood out of a cunt with thorns tearing my flesh as I walk

Different genre

Different gender

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The mean girls musical is on my shit list

Granted I didn't know it was gonna be a musical and there's nothing more jarring

It's like biting into what you thought was a cheese puff and it was actually caramel or some shit

That oatmeal raisin of a movie is another money grab remake that I imagine is only marginally worse than Wonka, but doing the same vampiric suckery, draining the nuance out of a perfectly refined original film

This orange juice after toothpaste of a film trying to be camp which is inherently un-camp

Casting was physically accurate in that i believed the moms and daughters were related, and emotionally unbelievable in that there is no way that baby faced Ellie Kemper Jenna Fisher lovechild could pull off what Lindsey could

That girl has prey eyes, she is not a predator

Regardless of the absolute shit-the-bed the lipsyncs were in terms of "there's no way that sound came out of that mouth shape in this acoustic space" the composition was objectively bad, and I don't need to consult my composer autist to confirm this

Did I watch the whole thing

Of course

If I had seen it as a high school play I'd probably be snapping and wagging my fingers but also there is far too much sexualization for a high school to be performing

I'd like to see Avantika again though, I think she carried. I feel like she could have pulled off Cady to be real. It takes a smart diva to be that fucking stupid at least that's my desperate hope because when I looked her up I saw she played a lesbian once so that's hot for her

I had no idea that cool mom's real name was Busy Philipps. Great drag name. Good for her though she kicks ass but also didn't carry the pushover mom vibe cuz I remember her as someone who'd I'd be grateful that she kicked my ass into a locker

Wild that I only knew Renee Rapp's name because of that tiktok the straight woman made abt being outraged that her Man Friend got them kicked out of a lesbian bar

I thought she did well with what she had (been forced to work with). my partners only critique was that the OG Regina was hotter and more terrifying but I think Renee's got the big teeth of a hard bitch and I like that at least

Anyway this gets the Misses The Point Award

Maybe I just think screenplays should be banned

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I have a migraine

I started watching Bottoms and I quit

I think it's corny and makes lesbians look toxic and I thought I was a lesbian and I guess if this is what it is I'm not that

Who's to blame for me not relating to that movie, me being something Not Quite A Lesbian or just Bad Writing or is it the Migraine

I stopped watching and switched to Yellowjackets and I'm already having a much better time

Wish I had better takes but my brain is too soft to tolerate and I'm operating on intuition

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The "are straight men not allowed in lesbian spaces" discourse:

What we are leaving out are: bi women and their boyfriends, pan people, non binary people, gay men, or other reasons a man may find himself allowed in a specifically lesbian space. We are not talking about the overall umbrella of queer space. We are talking abt the Lesbian™️ space. The lesbian still exists. And we aren't talking about the discourse therein.

Cracks knuckles

The straight woman in question lacks nuance and u know its not in good faith when she says "I get it BUT"

The "but" stands for butthurt

The whole problem is that what was decentered or simply erased from the conversation was THE MAN being disrespectful and entitled. The reason that anything happened at all was cuz : ObViOuSLy he made himself a problem.

Treat every gun like it's loaded.

That's how women, queer people, poc, every minority thinks about cis straight white men. Potentially dangerous. Safety check.

He probably wasn't dangerous! But people who acted like him have ended up dangerous. If you're showing the same symptoms I don't feel safe, right? Come the fuck on diva, death of a thousand cuts from these guys

Top comment on her tiktok was "I'm so tired"

What I do at *my* event is take a note from the euro model and have a door picker deadass turn people away if they don't pass a vibe check

And what is that vibe check? Rejection. Maybe it's a witch hunt model too where if they drown they're not a witch, oops. Better safe than sorry though

Interesting metaphor to draw tho cuz you know how like the witch trials actually happened

And the worst thing to happen to a man is he gets rejected

So look, rejection isn't easy for EITHER of us and especially not for my fawn response having ass

Rejection therapy is a real thing

But my event is a queer, trans, kinky space and if you can't handle rejection you have no business interacting in this space.

That's not just safe space that's fortified.

I want a system where the trash takes itself out. The people r butthurt cuz they couldn't get in?? Probably their first time experiencing rejection or lack of belonging. Enjoy the novelty, babes. The deliciousness of experiencing marginalization as a snack. Cissies love it, they go make a tiktok and go viral and make the news.

But a Black enby gets turned away at a "regular" (not queer centered) club, they don't make news huh

The problem with the queen who says "we as lgbt need to do better" here's how I'm gonna put words in your mouth as a favor. What you mean by that is:

We need to do better and install door pickers permanently. Do better at rejecting ignorant disrespectful entitled straight people, specifically. I'm not saying all straight people are all those spicy adjectives all the time. I'm saying those types of straight people, the ones who got mad, lack the understanding and respect necessary to be welcome in those spaces. You showed your ass, just like when we hear a "not all men" we know you're That Kind of Man to Watch Out For.

I hate to "kids these days" about it, but conflict and rejection and resolution and acceptance are not something that many people are equipped to handle right now. It doesn't seem like conflict resolution happened in person that night at the cubbyhole. Miss thing took to the internet and let a bunch of pfps pop off in the comments. Did learning happen? Or did defensiveness dig her heels in? Well either way she and her man aren't going to a lesbian bar ever again.

There's hope for her to learn maybe but her little man friend I think is gonna dig heels, stay defensive and butthurt, and throw the dyke slur around. Because the worst thing that can happen to a man is that he's rejected. And he isn't in the spotlight, he's all protected in his privacy huh, when its his fucking fault. Now the ladies are doing all the work communicating, as usual

But with therapy, maybe in a few generations... rejection won't feel like death anymore

Conflict won't feel like death anymore

When people ask a question it'll actually be in good faith because they wanna be humble and learn

And then! We'd welcome anybody with open arms

And gender will finally be dead

Or some shit

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It's happened again

Someone on drag race copied my idea

I had a vagina on the back of my head in 2014

Yvie wore all yellow fur after I did, when i shaved my head on stage

Aquaria had the orange mullet after me but then again I told my stylist do me like Bowie

But look, vagina on the back of the head is a big chunk of lore for me because when I was proto-drag, aka Kay-T, I made a project in Unity that was called "reconstructing deconstructed reclining nude"

You walk down a tongue runway and can fly thru a sea of boobies into a vagina on the back of a giant's head.

Someone in my class, cuz it's art school, raises he/him/his hand.

"What about the horn" he asks.

I look at my professors inscrutable face and she seems just as Iost. He continues,

"I feel like it would be more recognizable as a vagina if you included the horn"

Now This Vagina Horn has haunted me for a decade

Because here are all the implications:

1. Does this man know something about my anatomy that I don't? My fawn response is kicking in

1a. That's impossible, and Kay-T has no trauma responses, pull yourself together

2. When he thinks of the vagina does he picture a cross section of the entire reproductive system like the Dodge Ram logo, and the horns are the fallopian tubes?

3. He said one singular horn. Is it the clitoral hood?

4. Is it like a trumpet horn, or a French horn, should I have included a sound?

5. Does he think when people say "horny" that there is a literal horn?

6. Does he think everyone can get an erection even if they have a vagina?

7. He's only seen trans or intersex porn?

7a. Good for him

8. The vagina horn is so crucial to this man that this shape of gaping red flaps was not clear enough to be a recognizable reference to the vagina, and forgive me I use the term colloquially when I really mean the vulva

9. So I've indicated a vulva, so if we zero in on the vagina specifically, this is simply a hole. Where would the horn be inside a literal specific vagina

10. Is he thinking of the movie Teeth? But teeth is in the title, he'd surely know that it's teeth in the vagina not a singular horn

11. How much time has passed?

11a. Ten years

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Did you know that Saltburn was originally titled The Talented Mr Ripoff?

Can you imagine how much worse of a situation culturally we'd find ourselves in if they casted thimothy like they wanted to

I think there's more to me being upset about it than not getting anything out of horny boys

It's not punk rock to self compare to John waters, it's something you have bestowed on you, this was not earned

"It felt plagiarized" was a thought before I even knew about the Mr Ripley movie, which I did watch today (with a migraine) and it was fantastic and written by a lesbian apparently, so I hate to say I told you so but,

How did saltburn manage to run that movie through a sieve and toss out the gems

[Straight white rich people talking abt gay people, of course they'll miss the point]

The only time I had a real response during saltburn is when I was triggered at the loss of his alcoholic dad , and then it turned out to be a lie? What a fucking insult

So he's just an empty psychopath? Is he really that hot, is that the power that Male hotness has? We're in Danger fr if he's some kind of bi king icon

It's written by a fucking rich woman about rich people, casting an actor who irl lost his addict mom as a kid to play someone who pretended to lose his addict parent to manipulate silly innocent rich people

Good cinematography does not inject a believable or even identifiable motivation into the characters the same as Good CGI doesn't make Avatar not colonizer propaganda

It does seem to lull an audience into an entertainment flow state, in combination with shock value sex shit

Which seems like the sex shit was not even as shock value as something like the torso vagina from brand new cherry flavor, which is just queer coded body horror (which ofc I cherish)

Saltburn is just another glossy package of the type of queerness that straight people want to gasp at

Which brings me to:

At The Wake of a Dead Drag Queen

Can you guess what could a drag queen possibly die from? What's the most derivative thing you can come up with?

Yes AIDS still exists, but let me go verify with Google that prep existed once we had flip phones tho

2012

So granted the iPhone came out in 2007 but nobody had it yet, especially not poor drag queens, probably til 2012

The phone was the only clue I had to the time period this play occurs

So the point is

Why do we need another dies of aids story?

So straight people can continue to think of aids when they think of gay men? And why do they need to think of gay men when they think of drag for that matter?

You don't need to have aids to have a captivating sympathetic relatable story that humanizes a queer person

You don't need to be catty, bitchy, and hypersexual to be a drag queen. Even my straight man friend doing tech for the show was like "this seems oldschool" because how could you live in this city and see a drag show and think that this narrow ass view is still it?

I'm sick of stories about us being like you put the gutter bumpers up at the bowling alley so you could shoot whatever shot you want without risk

We queers are lords of the gutters and we are striking

Neither of these stories are for queer people because they don't believe queer money exists apparently, which... consider giving us money

but you'd hope queer people love good writing, at least, even if homosexuals and straight women could do without when they could just see dick on screen and have a nice time

If you don't need good writing to sell tickets then sure, ask ChatGPT to make a homosexual story for the straight eye

If you want examples of good movies that are queer, and decidedly not homosexual,

Everything Everywhere All at Once

Barbie

And,

Poor Things

Oh, and of course, The Talented Mr Ripley

Coming up next, I defend why these are all queer if not on their face but in subtext, by asserting that since I'm queer and I liked the film, they must be queer films. In this essay I will--