idontknowwhatsgoingonbut-hi

[idontknowwhatsgoingonbut-hi]

Hey guys! Long time no see, I'm gonna dissapear again but I just wanted to say that recovery is worth it. These body checks are taken today. Halfway through the program and I cannot say I am cured or happy but I can say that my eating disorder is a disgusting liar. I was always too scared to wear these shorts but as you all can see they fit fine. My body is fine. And i finally have the energy to be a good friend and writer and artist. I am far from done with my journey but I am so glad that I've decided to let my eating disorder go. Next step is to actually dare delete this blog and move on, to be healthy and happy and enjoy my lifw because right now everything is still very much a struggle

I still feel fat as fuck so please keep comments telling me that I am fat away thank you.

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my only talents are being fat and pretending I’m ok

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i’m so sorry we have to go through this. i love you guys

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i’m like 102% tired

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REASONS TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE:

why the fuck do you need reasons just be nice to people omfg

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You deserve to eat

You don’t have to earn it

You don’t have to justify it

You deserve to eat

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sometimes i see you fuckers post something and I'm like "omg?" but then i remember we are on a website equivalent to a psychward

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instead of a brain there is a mini haunted house in my head

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My life is just a constant journey to seek warmth. No metaphor. I mean like coats and jackets. Getting under the sheets and standing under heat lamps. Soup.

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I feel like shit today. I just want to relapse but I'm so fkn sick of this

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Progress is dancing to the same song i used to cry to

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”Hating our bodies is something that we learn, and it sure as hell is something that we can unlearn.”

- Megan Jayne Crabbe

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due to personal reasons i have decided not to pass away but become a cunt instead