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Apocalypse boyfriends… they consume my brain

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Suddenly realized my favorite part of malevolent is John telling Arthur where to go when they're walking around and it got me thinking. So like. John doe gps voice when?

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I had more crab god ideas. >.> Still going back and forth on the robe, I wanted it to be more drape-y. Then poked around at what Hastur proper would look like with this same theme.

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Doodled this yesterday while listening to the end of episode 43

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another malevolent doodle dump and some hcs

(I may have a problem)

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how long do you think it took for John to forget the poems?

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I have an old art tablet without pressure sensitivity I'm trying to learn to use so have a poorly made meme

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Malevolent doodle dump! since im still SHAKING from part 43

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found a cute inspo idea about this dynamic but it'd be equally likely johns pissed at arthur as he is protective of him

couldnt find the actual source past Pinterest if anyone knows 🙏

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the ramblings of a lunatic

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Johnny Truant is the character ever actually and yall are missing out. He has mommy issues and TWO kinds of daddy issues. He lied his way into working at a fish canning factory at age 13. He goes on long-winded stream of consciousness rants about vaguely disturbing but largely irrelevant topics. He does too many drugs. He has tons of casual sex with women but all of them think he’s sweet. He saw a stray puppy on the side of the road and immediately fell in love with it. He only has one friend. He thinks he’s being haunted by a demon but he probably just has PTSD. A pretty girl said 6 words to him and he immediately considered ‘petitioning all major religions in order to have her deified.’ His only hobby is organizing and annotating an academic manuscript written by a dead old man about a movie that doesn’t exist.

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"You can't adapt House of Leaves into any other medium, it has to be a book or it doesn't hit the same" okay but have we tried a musical yet. we should at least try a musical.

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Something silly

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I just remembered a conversation I had a while ago with a friend who's studying medicine. It was about fatphobia, I was trying to explain how doctors fixated on weight loss instead of looking for a cause.

He asked how he should approach this, then, since it's not something that can be ignored in someone's health.

Here's what I remember:

'Fatness is not sudden. The patient lives with their weight day after day. But something changed in their health and that's why they came to see you. You need to focus on that change, because that's what causes them distress.'

So, next time you're at the doctor, and they want to make it about your weight, remember this. Focus on the thing that changed, that hurts worse than before. Say, yes, I'm aware of my weight, say these are long term changes, but you need them to focus on short term, now, because I'm suffering.

(One thing that works for me is to say 'Yes I've been making an effort, I lost five pounds' and then they shut up about it and can get to the real problem.)

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I need you to understand my vision

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Everyone is so weird about people who cry easily. Fellas, is it evil and manipulative to *checks notes* have an involuntary stress response?

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I will start sobbing violently no one look at me

Poem by Natalie Wee