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I am so grateful to have such cute instructors 😭😭💙💙

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I have decided to post in Chinese to practice！

大家爱好！ 我的名字是Caner。我是一个大学生。我想学习汉语。我学在METU。我喜欢读书和听音乐。我喜欢打篮球。我不喜欢吃苹果。

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Update|

I am in a healthy and loving relationahip with someone right now. So, folks believe i'll get better.

I feel bad, again

I am extremely affected by transphobia. I can never actually comprehend how someone would want to be with me knowing that I am trans. It is so messed up that I can't even IMAGINE being in love with someone in a healthy way believing that they love me for who I actually am and this person is not a chaser?????

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I feel bad, again

I am extremely affected by transphobia. I can never actually comprehend how someone would want to be with me knowing that I am trans. It is so messed up that I can't even IMAGINE being in love with someone in a healthy way believing that they love me for who I actually am and this person is not a chaser?????

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trying to be trans and a good person

there are predicaments

Whenever I think about this, I usually end up having philosophical thoughts. Is it possible to be both simultaneously?

Since I have always lived with an unavoidable need to prove myself, let me tell you this first; whatever I say in this very text is free of exaggeration and is purely my perception of my life. Of course, you may have opposite views to mine, but it just shows how every individual is unique.

I always felt that I had to work harder because people around me would not support me fully once they learn who I actually am. I was correct to guess. My family is definitely not the worst, but never the best, either. I understand how hard it can be to learn that your child is transgender, or queer. And I gave, am still giving, time to them. I tried hard to educate them, for almost 2 years now. But that was a battle of one, without any support from anyone. I had to retain my mental health, study, and be patient with my family members. It was exhausting. Truly exhausting. I am glad to see changes in their ideas, however slowly they form. I also do understand that using a different name for someone you named can take a while to adjust. I completely get it. But there commence some problems.

Cis people often do not understand the relationship between me and my body, or how I've represented it. And honestly, it is not easy to tell. There are some parts of my body, some words used that makes me feel sick, terrible, and extremely in sorrow. But there are other things that I'm okay with that are usually never anticipated to occur by cis folks. To illustrate, some of the photos from my childhood make me feel really good. People expect me to say that I hate my body, or burn my old photos. But I don't wanna do it, for how I represented myself in the past does not make me any less than what I am, a man.

...to be continued

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I guess i will start simping and just continue being introverted because i can hardly stand transphobia nowadays

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Being trans is annoyingly hard especially in a conservative phobic country.

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The fact that Fazıl Say makes me feel my humanity, reminds me of that I, indeed, have a heart is an irreplaceable merit.

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Gloryhole SHSHDGPĞGLDĞWŞGOVĞSĞF9 I apologise for making this dissGustinGg joke

v important meeting

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I guess transmasc not-so-het guy irl?

Gay😳irl

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Alnıma asıcam şunu

Gay🍰IRL

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Finally someone thinking about some shit I've thought about!!

Gay🏃irl

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Trans irl

Gay😰irl

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chomp

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Ileride ben ve evladım

via

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Reminder.

gen z pls pls pls don’t fall for the millenials vs gen z bullshit that’s being fed to us. nobody actually cares about the stupid things that they’re saying millenials are mad about. they’re writing this stuff specifically to create a generational divide.

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Self reminder: Do not forget this post

Another little question I forgot to ask :)

I am not really familiar with fanfictions and I want to read a damn good one but I have no idea how can I find one suitable for my tastes. I guess you may have some advices. The features I am looking for are:

I do not like romance at all (if there will be I prefer it not to be center and I can't stand so much straight love sorry)

It has to make sense (some are really illogical)

Not too long (I am having a really important exam so I don't have much time to read)

Which websites or apps?

I'd appreciate if you answered, thank youu

✨❤️🌈

Note: I do love Shadowhunters (especially magnus and alec lol)

I always knew this day would come, when someone would ask me for fic recommendations and I would be 100% unprepared! 😖😆

First off, I pretty much exclusively only read Malec fics. Archive of Our Own is my choice site (AO3).

I think my history is over 140 pages now 🙈

Based off of your features and the sheer amount of fics I have read I think the best thing to do would give you some of my favorite authors so that you can go browse their works and find something you like!

I’d also check back on this post because I’m sure people will add their own recommendations that may be more tailored to your specific features 😊

Idk if you prefer Show or Book Malec so I’ll try and give well-rounded recommendations 🥰

Here are some of my recommendations :

⭐️ @cuubism — is a magnificent talent and her works are unparalleled. She has longer fics like Dissolution and Cradling the Sun, as well as shorter one-shots like, Bundled Up, Dear Life, and Two Hands. She also has a couple of series going on as well! I know you said about the length, but I would definitely give Dissolution a shot!!

She writes Show! Malec and is a wiz at the hurt/comfort trope so those are things to consider when you check her out!

You can find her here on Tumblr or on AO3 under the same name. 💕

⭐️ @my-archerboy — writings focus on Book! Malec. She has incredible missing scenes/ continuation one-shots like Pillow! Fight and You should Always have Cake, as well as adorable and amazing AU series like Call Me Maybe and School Daze. She also wrote the Malec training session from the show in her own words which is always a great read!

You can follow her fic tumblr @my-archerboy-fics where she posts all the links to her works on AO3 ♥️

⭐️ @arialerendeair is a QUEEN! She’s written for every trope in existence I’m sure! Haha Her writings focus on Show! Malec and range from canon, canon-divergent, to AU; and fluff to more explicit reads. She’s well-known for her Birthday Bash & BAMF Alec/ BAMF Magnus series which show case our favorite boys being the badass babes that they are.

You can find her on AO3 under the same name Aria_Lerendeair ✨

⭐️ Liguam on AO3 has a fantastic series titled Post 3x10: Erchomai which focuses on Show! Malec, specifically Magnus dealing with the aftermaths of giving up his magic. They are just small 500-1,000 word one-shots and it’s an incredible series.

Some of my other favorite Authors who write Malec, but also other characters from the show and books are @lightwormsiblings (alistoney on A03) has amazing pieces focused on Shadowhunters the show! @khaleesiofalicante has incredible canon & AU fics! @silver-lily-louise, @bytheangell, @sfjessii are all incredibly talented and have amazing works worth checking out!

I’d also check out these works!

A Slight Variation by starkraving

The Right Kind of Love by Onyxmoon

The Eye of the Beholder by Ralf

My Light by dreamerbydawn

There are so many others, but I hope this gets you off to a good start! ☺️🥰