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@therussiancourier your Tuc-Tuc said «hewwooooo» i think

hey masked lovers

i thought you'd apprecriate the accidental screenshot I took while standing half-afk

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hey masked lovers

i thought you'd apprecriate the accidental screenshot I took while standing half-afk

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LOOK AT THE PIN PALS!:3

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That pisses me off.

I can say, uh, unsubscribe or block me, but I like ship HenryJack, okay, bye.

And who's left, thanks, I think.

Honestly. I'm not well versed generally in the meanings of the words proship and comship and the like. But what I've learned is that comship is inc*st and p*do (People like that are fucked up), and proship is an abusive relationship. About proship, I can see that they are often one way. For example, like in the DSAF fandom, many people are against HenryJack, but shipping Davesport, justifying that it's just toxic. I've read posts where people justify that Davesport isn't abusive, just toxic. Uh, well, toxic = abusive and vice versa. I really don't understand. See for yourself.

I don't want to talk much about this topic, especially in a language I don't know well.

It's sad, what is it?

I just want to quietly ship, what I like the dynamics, the same HenryJack (for people who immediately think that I support abusive behavior, then I say right away that I do not support it and do not do it. I'm just saying, for the special ones).

When I see people get aggressive towards people who are shipping HenryJack, that these people are bastards, they themselves are abusers, DaveSport is better, they threaten to cancel, and all sorts of things that sometimes even wish for death (wth). People who are like that, you yourselves are no better, and are you people at all? I don't know exactly what I'm trying to summarize. I'm just saying what's on my mind. I want to be happy and not be afraid of people wishing me shit, that's all. Thanks.

Yes and I want to draw good interactions between HenryJack like people do between DaveSport, like those very happy AU's . It's cool and cute, I want to do the same without fear or oppression.

And those who disagree, okay? Like I said, you can block me.

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// blood warning

God, Forgive Me

I've finished what I started. I got rid of this nagging burden on my shoulders. Did it make me feel better? Was it worth it? Should I have died so painfully? No one deserves it. No father deserves his son to die like that. No sister would want that to happen to her brother. It's painful. It's scary. It's lonely. I can't stand it. Did you really have to force yourself to suffer in order to finally understand the lesson? Without that, you wouldn't have anything in your head, would you, 76? Did it help you find yourself, did it become the "key" that you have been searching for in what seems like eternity? Why, just why? I already had everything I needed, and I didn't even acknowledge it. I don't have to suffer to deserve the title of a human being. I'm an idiot, I'm a jerk, I make a lot of mistakes and I bring a lot of pain to others, but first of all to myself. Through what I do to myself, my loved ones suffer. And I'm tired. I want to rest, I want to be safe. I want to be myself. I don't want to force this person to go through all this for an empty goal. I don't want Clyde's friend to suffer, because who am I to hurt someone he cares about? Who let me play the sculptor of myself? Who allowed me to treat this man so carelessly? You don't owe anyone anything. You are not in debt to yourself, you do not have to torment yourself in order to calm your own soul. I don't have to torture myself to calm my own soul. I will no longer bring unreasonable pain to this person. I will no longer bring unreasonable pain to myself. I am me, and that's just a fact. And does it matter compared to the universe how much I resemble myself from the past, how much I've lost, how many years I've spent on something I don't understand? I'm just a speck of dust, and that's fine. I don't have to worry about such things. I am me, with all the losses, with all the gains, pros and cons. And I don't give a shit what gets molded out of me in the future, because I don't want to disfigure it anymore. I'm just a fucked up man, that's all. That's my whole point. I'm a weirdo, and that's a good thing.

From 76 to Ulysses

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Some DW sketches! I'm going to do more designs in my own style, cuz I really want to draw them all. They're so funny.

Spoilers:

lmao

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I love Peter DSAF very much (no) //srs

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I drew how I feel. It feels like this shit.

I feel so fucked up right now.

I don't feel safe in my own home..

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I don't feel safe in my own home..

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this mf

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i got really inspired and wasted all my night on this

you can really tell that tucker is my favourite.his stupid mug..ugh..

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Please don't put hashtags on dsaf and davesport! And don't repost//reblog this sketch at all ^_^ lmao

spoilllll ig

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i finished squid game.

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@spidefox @chuckchuck228 @pketks <3

@therussiancourier <,’D

positivity train!

if you see this or are tagged in it, tag a couple of your favorite mutuals/blogs and let them know you appreciate seeing them on your dash!

@h0neysugarfree @blueberrylovv @bequiteanddriveeeeeee @cherri-bomb-bomb @eg0mechan1c @fatrexicisback

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