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Calum + black nail polish = dead me

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So basically the Jet Black Heart music video made me cry. And I’m not fangirling, I’m being deadass.

I can’t remember the last time a band I liked put a girl who looked like me in a video.

I’m older than most of the fandom. (I’m 24) So I was into Blink 182 and Green Day and Linkin Park and Taking Back Sunday and My Chemical Romance and 30 Seconds to Mars and allllll those pop punk and punk rock bands while they were dominating TRL and Fuse and maybe I missed it, but this has never happened with a band that I loved as far as I know. So many bands resonated with me musically, lyrically, emotionally when I was struggling. When I didn’t want to be around. When I was praying and wishing for better days

but none of them ever looked like me.

None of the girls in the videos had my dark skin, or thick lips.

None of them had thick, black, tightly coiled hair, or braids, or dreads.

None of them shared my experiences.

It felt like none of them saw me. I was invisible. (no pun intended. Lol)

But today some girls did share my features and for this first time ever, it felt like I was worth acknowledging.

It hit me hard, man. Harder than I ever could’ve anticipated. I didn’t know I cared… I had no idea it mattered as much as it did until I saw those girls in the Jet Black Heart video.

I think I just got so used to white girls being the norm, I didn’t even realize I gave up. To see brown skin in the video shocked me. And even writing this I’m tearing up because this is something I never thought would happen. Thank you so much 5sos. I really really can’t say it enough.

And I know it seems minuscule and tiny but it’s real. God, is it real and it’s beautiful and gut wrenching and gratifying and… Shit. Smh.

I’m not that broken 14 year old girl anymore. I’ve made my strides and eventually those better days came by… I’m battling different demons now (Student Loans, Electric Bills, Rent, Evil Grad School Profs, Parking Tickets, etc) but I know that seeing those girls in that video made a difference for so many black teen girls out there. I know it made a difference for me.

Representation matters. I want to thank Ashton, Michael, Calum and Luke for seeing me… After 15 years of loving Pop Punk and Punk Rock they’re the only band that I listened to that ever has.

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5 Seconds Of Summer + All Time Low 2011>>2015

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(x)

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fake fan

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i never knew I need this till i needed it 

THE EYELINER  👌 👌 👌 [x]

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He didn’t stop laughing for over a minute

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5sos’ 80′s rockstar ‘personas’ in a: magazine article

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My face when listening to money.

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ashton: "we don't say thank you enough"

also ashton: *says thank you every single day*

me: :'-)

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luke the type to give up trying to get his 4 year old daughter to stop having a tantrum so he just lies on the ground next to her and screams with her

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And cooks food that he didn't even know he was cooking.

my whole life is the one episode of Friends where Ross drinks all those margaritas and keeps telling everyone that hes fine when he clearly isn’t fine

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I hate people like this. We get it you vape.

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Luke + being carried {c/c}

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Me with sounds good feels good

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@Luke5SOS: When you don’t know what is even happening anymore