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You begged for help and were ignored

And even though the fans adored

You were done and you were bored

Of living life tallied and scored

Youd been used battered and gored

Nothing left from which you've poured

Into this world for whom you've roared

You soared and roared and tore

Through the sky into the deep

What we had we couldn't keep

Darkness of time and space and death

More comforting than breath

And still I fucking miss you

I will see you soon

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If you think your life is meaningless just have a look around

At all the small connections made and all the friends that you have found

Have you found someone to turn to or are you all alone

Because you even if you are alone you still always have me

Because I can truly see

I can see your suffering and I feel just the same

Your pain is just like mine

So let it go and say goodbye

Here we go, we now can fly

When we're found we'll be decayed

All we have do do is jump what's wrong are you afraid?

You won't be when we land

Come on I'll hold your hand

Wft bro

let it go

Don't cry

I'm right here why won't you fly?

Fuck it stay here then, now...

watch me jump into the clouds

Just another in the crowd

Watching standing staring blank

As I'm falling

Sink, sank.

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Even when I'm holding this razorblade

If you ask if I'm doing ok

I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say

So I just say it's been a decent day

Switch up it change the subject and ask about you

And pretend I'm not coming unglued

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Day by day I'm fading away

Becoming less than nothing

Searching for faith outside this cage

And my feet are tired from running

The past catches up and takes my breath

I fear there's nothing left

And I'm so lost I need some help

But help will never come

Nobody can save me

That parts up to me

Can you see where I'm coming from

This pain that's inside

Getting harder to hide

And yall just look away

I'm screaming and pleading I'm down on my knees

Waiting for the end

I push and I pull but it won't bend

Hardened inside like steel

I open my eyes to the world outside and my future isn't real

So don't get mad and don't be sad when I have left this place

I've given you warning time and again

And held on as long as I can

But I'm getting close to cutting this rope

And finally letting go

I can't fight

With this loneliness

The pain wont go away

I can't fight

With my demons

They're just too strong for me

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What would you do if you were lonely

And nobody was there

What if your one and only

Decided not to care

Would you sleep soundly in a dream

Of a love that's meant to be

Or would you lie awake and cry

For the love that passed you by

Would you let your feelings fade

Like a loved one passed away

Or would you hold on tighter

For a tomorrow that is brighter

Could you see yourself alone

Let your heart turn into stone

Could you move on to someone new

Though your heart is black and blue

What would you do if you were lonely

Because I am lonely too

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Listen Here, Bitch

Your words fall on deaf ears

They drip down your chin as drool

Lubricating your stiff cock

Hardened by the illusion of power

The fear you use to control

Your voice booms in my ear

Hands grip and shove

Landing blows across my body

But the harder you push

The louder you yell

The bones that you break

Won't break my resolve

I am a warrior

Your abuse is the battle

And each time I survive

Confidence grows

Like lilies on the field where we faught

I will not break

I am not glass

I am strong as steel

Your insults

Your threats

Your acts of violence

Each failed attempt to crush me

Under the weight of your rage

Opens my eyes

To the strength in me

Real strength

Not forged by brute force and cruel words

But the strength of will

Holding fast to my morals

My kindness

My gentle touch

That you shall never again feel

And never once gave

I am strong in my tenderness

You are weak in your cruelty

And your words fall on deaf ears

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As a poet and writer I have always struggled with the endings. Not knowing how to finish, droning on long after all has been written that needs to be said. And it isn't a problem solely in my writing. I struggle in life to end things. Keeping the current storyline on life support, ignorant to the fact that it is long since over and done with. Its dog-eared pages ready to be closed and stuck on some dusty shelf only to be thought of from time to time when some random thing stirs a memory of it. Endings are hard. Beginnings are terrifying. But both are necessary.

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The words upon our pages touch

and break my heart

as my eyes have kissed each one goodbye

And I mourne the final word

of the final chaper

Of the end.

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The Night Stands Still

The night stands still

But darkness wanes

As dawn betrays

The constant stars

Their light decays

In the sun

I prefer none

Highlighting brightly

The passing of time

Before my eyes

But the night stands still

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Do away with foolish dreams

For a dream is not always as it seems

And may turn to nightmares and midnight screams

Let your tears drain the hope from inside your mind

Hope is a fallacy, and I was blind

So I must resign

And do away with foolish dreams

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You gave your best to the past

We all knew it couldn't last

Now you walk around

Wearing the crown

Of not giving a shit

And I'm the one taking the hit

Should have been with you then

Instead of a friend

But that chance was missed

And the moment we kissed

We were done

You can't have fun

You gave up your soul

To your ultimate goal

The ultimate high

But you said goodbye

To the past and the drugs

But you can't get that rush from kisses and hugs

Nothing completes you

Life depletes you

Running on fumes

Through the empty rooms

In your mind

And you can't seem to find

Motivation or will

Or something to fill

The void that was left by dope

It's like you've given up hope

You're soulless and broken

I may be outspoken

But at least I have passion and love in my heart

I'm not your spare part

I can't fix what you've lost

And the hurt that you're causing me has a cost

Wasting your life on a phone

Waste every dollar we own

On your new addiction

Your latest affliction

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What if we overshot

Our chance was a thought

All urges were fought

And time forgot

We're pretending to be but we're not

Our moment was never caught

Not a line but a dot

On a scatter plot

And this is the result that we got

You stay in one spot

And you give a little while I give a lot

Going through stages of cold and hot

Time isn't borrowed but bought

And for naught

If all that you are turns to rot

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From crushing lows to insane highs

Life is a mentally ill surprise

Some days he dances and some he cries

He'll be this way until he dies

He can medicate and rise

Or be found in a bathtub covered in flies

It takes courage to drop the disguise

In a world so quick to criticize

Lazy, moocher, these are lies

Now I'm not saying he's a prize

It might be hard to recognize

But he tries so goddamn hard, you guys

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Trapped in Hell

Clambering to be free

Swimming in a sea

Of murky waters

Tread on the bones of daughters

Sisters, mothers, wives

Razorblades and knives

Hunted like a fox

Pockets full of rocks

Drag me down

I'm drowining

Crowning

This is my rebirth

Foot touches earth