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Dear October, it's time to move on and let go -

Dear you, here was the lesson that you learnt over the past few months ,it was hard, it is still hard .You learnt that , you don’t simply forget about someone who was once a beautiful part of your life ,you don’t try to sweep it under the rug or even hide it away .Sometimes , you just need to learn how to let it go and just walk away ,no matter how much love was there . instead what you should do is that , you should be thankful , thankful that you got to feel that way about someone ,thankful that they saw you in ways you did not see yourself ,not many people were able to experience in that way . Be thankful for the way they changed you , thankful for the way they challenged you , calmed you and made you believe in the person you were becoming . Be thankful they were able to crack your heart open ,be thankful that you found this person . Be thankful and walk away but with grace and gratitude. You should be proud of yourself for feeling so deeply and you should appreciate it for what it was . Move on for yourself , not for anyone else but FOR YOU , not because you want to prove to the outside world but coz you have something to prove to your heart -

Now you managed to find someone who sees your value, care about you, who knew and heard all about your past and trauma and yet still love your harder . You should not let this things go ,you should not forget about this, it is special , you should hold onto it and thankful for it .

You will not find a love that is perfect but you will find love that is real ,love that teach you that it were never too much . Love that is light , not too heavy to carry, soft and tender .

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My new favourite person ????

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March was hard , April will be better -

Sometimes we know that deep inside , we are messed up and too afraid to reach each out again in fear of making things worse -

I know we are not in our best of the terms , I know we ended it bad , but everyday has been really tough to be oke , to keep telling yourself that you will be alright soon . I wanted to talk to you , I wanted to hear those voices again , I missing it a bit too much everyday

but the idea of “hey if they want it they will fight for it” hitting my thoughts every time - “if they don’t want , then it’s not worth my time”-

Things will get better eventually because I am a strong woman,I have all the time in the world to build myself up to be a better person , come out of my shell and be a badass bitchhhhhhh !✨🌱brb crying :c

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Bread + Yellow plastic

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March feels like the longest month of the year

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From day 1 till day 3. Ganbatteh my babies !! 🥺✨

The story behind these pictures :

Last week , I saw an advertisement pop out on my instagrams feeds so went through their post like how normal person always do heh and saw they have promotion and I have my eye on this cute gardening kit so likewise just me being me unable to fight against my temptation of wasting money clicked the ordered button 😝so here I go become an instant gardener !

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Sometimes I wish I wasn’t in LDR , sometimes I just wish things were better and easier☹️. But this man is DEBOM (no cringe or joke he is the gem) I am so lucky to have him in my life ✨one of the wonderful things that ever happen and to be thankful for each day 🌼 I miss my boo , can we just make covid stop and let the International border open anytime soon !

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Made General Tso's Chicken for the first time!

heya! since we are in our semester break (which is just only for a week) Pika and me decided to make this dishes . Heard it for the first time few weeks ago when I came across the video on YouTube , looks delicious although I have no idea how it supposed to taste like but it ended up tasted so good . Apparently General Tso's chicken is a newly recreation of Chinese dish in oversea you can commonly find it in Chinese restaurant in America - !

here you go :

~recipe by Masterchef John Zhang ~https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBYpMrCirgM&t=649s&ab_channel=TasteShow

which i mostly changed few ingredients and no proper measurement aaaa sorry hopefully I didnt disgrace his recipe >.>

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🌼It was Aishveen’s birthday !🌼

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Friday 30/4: Learning how to suture 🌼

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First post for 2021 :

Here’s the highlight :

I passed my 4th year final few weeks ago and today is my 4th days of final year face to face

I got a new car !! SURPRISE when I don’t rarely drive (thanks ma and pa)

I moved in to the new apartment with Aishveen and Pika (so far so good other than that I need to make sure not to get distracted and studying instead because of Aishveen :c )

I am in medicine posting (on my 2nd week) and next week is my block exam RIP I need to buckle down and get back to work . Medicine 5th year unlike in 4th year kind of chill but I NEED TO STUDY this has happened before when I got so chill and failed my surgery exam 😰

Still learning to be a nice person for myself and my friends

I need to learn to not be angry and stress when things don’t go my way

p/s : the view is from my new apartment .

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Hi ! isn’t too late to wish happy new year 2021 ?

Hi ! so much has happened in 2020 with the sudden pandemic situation and the new normal lifestyle from where the physical classes changing to online classes , the sudden psoriasis breakout due to spending too much time in the room with less exposure to the sunlight ,gaining extra kg(s) from all the homecooked food and sedentary lifestyle and unexpected rescheduling of the university exam and less clinical year exposure for the medical students . How self ‘’proclaimed’’ depression got in the way due to lockdown and one the factor that contributing to it was living under the same roof with your asian parents .

Basically 2020 was really bad for me even before the pandemic began , consistently feeling sad, depress and helpless .

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we are almost at the end of the year , it’s crazy how 2020 flies so fast , so much has happened in 2020 started with corona virus waves , quarantine and zoom university ! heck we are supposed to finish our 4th year med school around September this year but we are still stuck ,exams got cancelled so many times and we haven’t even finished our clinics for this year !I’ve been stressing over this never ending cycle because all my knowledges slowly evaporate!! I hope things getting better soon - meanwhile here in Malaysia the newly announced CMCO that will be extend up to 4 weeks which means I am home and hello online class ~ seems like god give me one more chances to improve myself so I better use it wisely !

And I have been thinking to actually update my life constantly over here , living at home is tough for me so I want to express my feelings over here - haha not like anyone would actually read it !! Ok see ya soon , I better be studying now !!!

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Saturday 31st October 2020

We went to Jonker walk and I had my favourite smoky duck after so long. We had heart to heart talk. After that we went to a few museums including the gabenor’s house. Wen Xuan was busy working and we had our ‘lunch’ there. Then it started to rain and we were stuck for one hour. After that we walked back to Jonker walk to have some flower tea and Mua Chee.

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// 2020 quarantine challenge - have you made a study schedule to help you study at home?

Based on pomodoro I made this structure for my days studying at home!! I have alarms on my phone for every time I make a switch to a break/different class, starting at 10am (I’d like to start at 9am… I just cant). This includes three pomodoro blocks for every subject I take, every day. I also have a plan for available snacks and lunches, and make sure i stock up on this as well as dinners during my weekly shop. It’s been working really well for me. I don’t think I’ve ever been this productive - I get to stay on top of everything as well as being done by 3:15 every day :)