iamlostintheclouds

[iamlostintheclouds]

It’s been a hot minute and looking back at my past posts damn I was so unstable still am just not as bad. I’m still struggling but I know I can get through it even in the hardest moments.

Just remember to stay kind to people and yourself

[iamlostintheclouds]

Love craving food and when you go to make it and get to eat, it just doesn’t hit the way you craved for it to and now you’re full, bloated and disappointed :(

[iamlostintheclouds]

Crying your heart out while forcing silence is so utterly painful

[iamlostintheclouds]

Hehe breakups are the worst

[iamlostintheclouds]

I’m unraveling as the seconds pass

[iamlostintheclouds]

I’d love to stay hopeful but our ‘judgement day’ is tomorrow and all the hints he’s been giving me are not good. To prepare for the worst… I’m not gonna be stable anymore if the worst arrives

[iamlostintheclouds]

If this breaks my heart tomorrow, it will be broken forever

[iamlostintheclouds]

Am I not worth fighting for..?

[iamlostintheclouds]

Left in limbo of whether he wants to stay with me or break up with me

Because my mental health is getting too much for him to handle and uni will have us both busy

He reassures me that he is doing what’s best for me but he doesn’t get to decide that

[iamlostintheclouds]

Apparently we’re not on the same page anymore

Why did the distance change how things were

Now it just feels forced like you only say I love you back because I say it first, you don’t feel fussed about seeing me anymore

It’s getting harder to believe your words of love

[iamlostintheclouds]

I get so scared that you don’t love me like I love you , that you don’t feel the way I feel. But in a way I think that I subconsciously push you away because if you don’t like me like you say you do then it would hurt less.  So when you tell me you love me, make me believe it. The crazy part about it is deep down I know it, I just want to feel fully immersed in it or maybe I just like hearing it from you. But I pray that we work out, that we can genuinely make it together, that we can be happy together and help each other forget all the pass damages from everything that happens in both of our lives. I hope in the end its you and me, I don’t want us to be strangers in this world, when we can be great together beyond measure. At the end of the day I chose you no matter what the circumstances are so at the end of the day chose me no matter the circumstances. 

[iamlostintheclouds]

please don’t forget about me <\3

[iamlostintheclouds]

Feeling loved 🥰 and appreciated 🥺

[iamlostintheclouds]

Crying myself to sleep hits different

[iamlostintheclouds]

Don’t hate me for keeping my boundaries and saying if something upsets me

[iamlostintheclouds]

I’m just done

[iamlostintheclouds]

I FEEL SO STUCK AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO….