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With that being posted, I do think I should mention devious seems to be doing fine. Talked to her a bit, she’s back on tumblr and said she’s doing “just fine”. Again, I don’t want to disclose too much about her as I feel that’s an invasion of privacy, but that’s it for now.

It sucks to close this blog on such a sad note, but I felt the donation page pinned is important enough to open this up again. I doubt I have many followers who pay attention here anymore, but those who are still here any donations or even just reblogs are greatly appreciated. With that being said, that’s all for me for now. Good luck all of you

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Hi, everyone. I know this is, uh, not typical for me, and I would prefer not to for lots of reasons, but I am kind of desperate right now.

I have been struggling for years to hold an in-office job. The past few I've tried for, I've experienced multiple severe panic attacks on the way to, at, and returning from work, and have been forced to quit or been fired, with the most recent incident being this past September. Recently my docs have diagnosed me with agoraphobia (in addition to the already-known depression, anxiety, and being on the autism spectrum), which they think I've been suffering from for a long time without realizing.

I've applied for help from the state, and for short- and long-term disability, but none of it is in effect yet. I've been trying to doordash to make enough money for rent and other costs this month, but that's been stressful because of the uncertain amount, as well as.. driving around to places and people I don't know. It's been very difficult. I'm also applying for as many remote roles as I can find, as newly-listed as I can. Lots of these roles are fake and/or already inundated with hundreds of applications. So this has been difficult as well.

My family is, at least right now, unable to support me through this. But I really, really don't think I can survive losing my apartment. It is my space. I do not have uninvited eyes on me here. I am free to be myself. If I am forced to move back in with my mom, or worse, to become homeless, I will lose my safe place. I will lose the space where I'm comfortable being loud and silly in my friends’ Minecraft RP server. I want to recover on terms and at a pace that will help me rather than hurt me, and find a remote job that suits me. And I am afraid that I won't make it that long. I am afraid I will not make it past this month.

I do not know what the best avenue for this is, and I worry that I'm asking without having really earned the right to, but I need to ask for your help.

Between doordash and whatever money you can part with, I need to make around $1100-$1200 USD in order to pay my bills and rent.

Please do not feel obligated to contribute. Please also do not contribute if doing so would put you in any financial trouble. I do not want you to sacrifice your well-being for mine. Any help that can be provided is extremely appreciated.

Additionally, if anyone has any leads on legitimate remote work – I have a great amount of experience in clerical and administrative roles in a number of industries (law, insurance, education, etc.). If you know of any opportunities, please, please let me know!

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Forgot to mention this. For anybody wondering her last contact with me and last activity as far as I can tell was her messaging me on tumblr. Again, I won’t divulge the actual contents as I feel that would be an invasion of privacy but she started the message by stating she’s “chilling”, so take that as you will. Since then she has not shown any activity or contact, but I’ve chosen to take comfort in her saying she’s “chilling” as all I can really do is hope all is well. Over and out.

haven't used the account in a while, dunno if i will again after this. for her own privacy i wont say shit about what i think happened to her, but devious' shit all went dark. main acc silent, gimmick entirely gone (as you've likely noticed), and silent on her disc too (including leaving both servers i shared with her). dunno whats gonna happen, mostly just hope shes safe n all. if she comes back ill make a simple post just saying "hey shes okay" but until then, im out. good run, sorry i didnt do the posts i meant to get to.

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haven't used the account in a while, dunno if i will again after this. for her own privacy i wont say shit about what i think happened to her, but devious' shit all went dark. main acc silent, gimmick entirely gone (as you've likely noticed), and silent on her disc too (including leaving both servers i shared with her). dunno whats gonna happen, mostly just hope shes safe n all. if she comes back ill make a simple post just saying "hey shes okay" but until then, im out. good run, sorry i didnt do the posts i meant to get to.

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WAIT SHIT I ALSO REBLOGGED HOMESFIXK AND DIDNT REALIZE SHSJSBSNDNBDDV

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HE'S BACK 🚨🚨🚨HES BAAAAACK🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

im aware. tablet still broke. dunno when ill be bac

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shadowbanning fucks with dms so i shot u a message on disc just say if u want in

its an inside joke with the owner of the undevious face account you gotta trust me devious this man

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you rebloged clown woman on this blog

FUCK

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I’ll consult the high council

its an inside joke with the owner of the undevious face account you gotta trust me devious this man

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We’re just unfunny mentally ill transgender teenagers it’s normal. I refuse to explain Bonrad to the general public though.

its an inside joke with the owner of the undevious face account you gotta trust me devious this man

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I’m so fucking tired man

its an inside joke with the owner of the undevious face account you gotta trust me devious this man

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Also since there’s more shit to undevious I’ll do that soon but it’ll be shitty bcs tablet broken

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Btw I did end up finishing what’s currently out of the anime, I may continue this but my issues are harder to put into words. I uh really don’t like falin. Cool lesbians I love lesbians and all but I don’t like her

Hey the devious account has posted about dungeon meshi right. Uh I’ve been watching it I’m on like episode 9 it’s good I’ve got a lot of issues with it I could talk about but it’s a fun show. None of that matters though because Namari is a character in the show and I’ve never felt more homosexual towards a fictional character. Cool show shoutout to strong women with deeper voices

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what the fuck happened here i went fishing

Well well well look at what I found

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HEY‼️‼️

DEVIOUS IS GETTING UP TO SHENANIGANS ‼️‼️‼️

you like batsignal me and shit and i see it and im like "well... hehh... seems like my time has come again..." and i open my closet and see my fucking super hero suit or whayever

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yeah ill catch up on shit soon im jus lazy

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Ok so keep in mind 1) I’m only up to episode 9 and 2) these are all pretty undercooked thoughts I may change later. Firstly, the positives, I really like the monster of the week style format. I love the dishes I love the monster anatomy I love the worldbuilding, all that is great and exactly the shit I love. The negatives mostly boil down to the characters and how they’re used. I really like Laios and sometimes Chilchuck but Senshi and Marcille both get on my nerves a lot. Starting with Chilchuck, he’s cool. I like him. The main issue with him is that outside a few standout moments he feels like an extension of other characters. Up until the section with the mimic in like episode 6 or 7 I wanna say (unsure) he never really felt like his own person, always feeling like a “yeah, what he said!” Type character, just there to back up others. Senshi I really want to like. He’s a ton of archetypes I adore and I love dwarves as a fantasy race. My main issue is how like, competence he is? I get why he’s competent and I like the whole dungeon keeper idea he has going but up until episode like 8 ish he feels like he knows everything and it gets grating when he just always knows the right answer and you’re just waiting for Chilchuck or Marcille to give in. Speaking of Marcille, she’s probably my least favourite. For reasons I can’t pin down I find her really grating. Her whole “disgusted by eating monster” stuff is cool but after 9 meals of being proved wrong it feels like she would have progressed from that, but she doesn’t. She works as a straight man for Laios and that’s cool but many times she doesn’t have the spark that good straight man characters have. I dunno, a lot of her flaws are hard to pin down and word out properly, but I just don’t much enjoy her. Again, undercooked thoughts so I’m gonna come back to her once I’m done with the current episodes. Outside of the characters, I find the pacing odd at times. Mainly in the episodes I’m on where they’re in this big water area, it feels very meandering when Chilchuck had said that they’re on a time limit before falin fucking dies. It feels like they’re just sitting around a lot and I get part of the idea of the series is good self care but when you have this time limit it feels very weird. Uh, that’s my like undercooked shit takes ig. Again im gonna finish what’s out to properly make a judgement on the show, and it’s still a fun watch that Ive been enjoying. Uh yeah.

Hey the devious account has posted about dungeon meshi right. Uh I’ve been watching it I’m on like episode 9 it’s good I’ve got a lot of issues with it I could talk about but it’s a fun show. None of that matters though because Namari is a character in the show and I’ve never felt more homosexual towards a fictional character. Cool show shoutout to strong women with deeper voices